Brian is part of my life 10th february 2017
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<3 ... he is part of my life ... and ... aaaalways will be ... <3

I needed that tattoo of Brian <3

I needed it because this is a visible sign, that a part of my life has ended. it ended in a very tragic way ... with Brian´s death.

I remember the good the times with him <3 ... and a looooot of them happened in about 7 years ... and I´m thankful for each one of those <3

this tattoo ... which got created by my lovely tattoo artist friend Jose Vigers ... who was a very good friend of Brian too ... and I´m very glad, that he created it ... on the evening of full-moon ... and comet ... and other miracles in the universe

this glitzy tattoo gives me the possibility to start a "new" life

with Brian and without Brian

<3

Thank You! :* <3

 

 

selfies in december 2016 january/february 2017
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selfies in november/december 2016:

... aaaaAAAAND ... can you see it on those pictures that I stopped taking dr*gs and drinking alcohol ... since september
... aaaaaaAAAAND started doing some work out at home ... on a daily basis*


with mmmyyyuummmmyyyy phantastic homemade christmas cookies by Dickey Doo


me .. private*


my hood*


in front of a painting of fabulous painter Jon Campbell. we traded it*


my hood*


doing fitness ... and eating the right stuff for it*

 

my workout january/february 2017
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busy working on a NEW body :* <3

busy working on a NEW body :* <3

busy working on a NEW body :* <3

 

my mom and step father in Berlin february 2017
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my guests today: my wonderful mom <3 and my wonderful stepfather <3 it was great to meet them again and spend some hours together <3

I gave them again paintings as presents ... she couldn´t understand why the canvas is almost empty* it´s just her name "EDITH" written on it ... in veeeery bright blue (her favorite color). I told her this is art ... this is what her son does here in Berlin* I think that made her confused a little bit ... :* <3 but I explained her, that her name was the 24th name of my advent calender paintings of 2016. the meaning of it was: to show that every person ... every name counts <3

 

 

my studio ... january 2017
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fantasy48 - paintings


some impressions of my studio: background works

 

------------ price for each painting in oil on canvas: between 40 euro and 500 euro -----------

 

 

some postings which I created on facebook 25th january - 11th february 2017
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stories mix posted on facebook:

25th jan: just some thoughts about: what I would do if I would live in America right now:

first I want to point out that I´m writing those words from Berlin right now. I was born in Germany and all my life it was shown to me what happened in Germany when the dictator Adolf Hitler ruled the country. this made me veeeeeery sensitive for everything which goes in a similar direction. those informations about Germany during that time, have been much more important for me, because I´m gay and I´m completly aware of it that I belong to the first victims in a dictator ruled country. It reached me that far inside of me, that I never thought about it to become really settled in Germany. I have always in my minds to take one luggage and leave the country, if it would be necessary. Germany was in my minds never a real safe place for me, because I was and am always prepared for it, that "it" could happen again. the big jewish memorial and the memorial for gay victims of the Hitler regime are located in and next to the Tiergarten ... in the center of Berlin close to the Brandenburg Gate. which means every time when I pass there, then I get reminded of it what happened to people who waited too long or didn´t have the possiblitiy to leave Germany during the Hitler regime.
In my life I moved several times ... from Paris to Vienna ... to Cologne ... to Berlin. It has been a kind of excercise to me for ´how to leave a place´. And I know that I would leave Berlin immediatly if signs are coming again, that it could be dangerous for me ... my health and life. a country in South America ... perhaps Brazil would be a destination which I have in my minds since years.
what I want to tell my friends in America is: and especially those who are "famous" for their queerness and/or political activities: pls think about it what you would put in one luggage and in which direction the escape should go. pls just be prepared ... and don´t wait too long.
because it is possible that Mr. Trump is as much dangerous as Hitler was it in Germany.

25th jan: OOOH what does that mean when fb suggests the group "REPUBLICANS SUCK!!!" to me!?? and YES! I´m against Mr. Trump as president.

26th jan: about America today ... I said everything what I wanted to say ... and now I´m back with that what I can do better than politics: working on new veeeeery bright blue sky backgrounds for new paintings* :* <3

27th jan: my wonderful artist friend Andrej Dubravsky is looking for a room to rent in Berlin: pls write him, when you have something: "Hello hello humans, do you know about a room or small apartment for rent in berlin for next 5-7-8 weeks? ????thaaanks"

27th jan: SHIA LABEOUF, MADONNA, ... there is nothing ... NOTHING ... to complain about them! they do something ... they do it their way ... and this is GREAT !!!
EVERYONE who does something against Mr. Trump as president has my full respect!

28th jan: HEEEERE IT IS <3 Brian-Tennessee Claflin singing and shaking his loooved gliiiiitzy CANDY BRA :* <3 in a video* (title "Don´t get all upset")

29th jan: btw: the most important moment of every revolution ... and the revolution against Mr. Trump as president, is: the moment when the army and the police change their position. <= this is veeeery important to know!
In that moment when the army and the police stop to work for the dictator and decide to work for us ... the revolution has succeeded.
till that moment ... every peaceful protest is needed. it´s important to see the army and the police as our friends. friends we need to get on our side. for that reason it´s better to blow a kiss in their direction than to scream at them. because: ONLY LOVE WINS <3

29th jan: tonite I feel veeeeery similar <3 I <3 Marc Bolan <3
"I drive a Rolls Royce
'Cos its good for my voice
But you won't fool the children of the revolution"

=D :* <3

30th jan: *hmmmm* ... and if I want to have a more defined body ... then ... then ... THEEEEN I HAVE TO STOP EATING CHOCOLATE AND CAKE EEEEVERY DAY :( :( :( *hmmmmpppffff* now in the 17th week of doing workout at home* (OH and of course colors eeeeverywhere on my trousers :) )

30th jan: "pls may I see your muscles?" "pls may I touch them?"

OMFG I looooove those questions <3 they feel soooo gooood :* pls neeeeever stop asking them <3
... and YES! I love to show you my new muscles* ... and YES! you may touch them* (but pls gentle* they are still veeeery new ... just 17 weeks young beginner muscles*)

More and more .... people ask me such questions. All my life I was skinny and I thought, that my body is not "created" for muscles, but I was wrong. Muscles requests workout! <= that´s it!

Never people asked me to see my "muscles" and to "touch" them. I´m 43 years old now ... since two weeks. and those wonderful lovely questions about my new muscles ... make it easy for me to become older.

Thank You :* Love you <3

30th jan: those Trump supporting police men have no idea what they do to their children and grand children and grand grand children.

I met tons of people in Germany who felt and still feel guilty for their parents/grand parents/grand grand parents who supported Hitler.

that way of suffering belongs to the worst things ever ... because it is a feeling which is not possible to change.

31st jan: just a liiiittle homevideo ... and how I have in one room: bedroom, living room, office, fitness studio and kitchen* (pls find my videos on my youtube channel: www.youtube.com/user/masterpatrick

1st feb: that moment when ... after yeeeaaars ... I listen again to a best of Whitney Houston album ... and I realize, that I´m able to sing with her almost every word in every song <3 WHITNEY 4EVER <3 :*

1st feb: (zu Attacke von Candy Crash in Berliner U-Bahn) es tut mir aufrichtig leid was mit Dir passiert ist :(
Ich finde es gut, daß Du damit an die Öffentlichkeit gehst und hoffe, daß es Dir hilft.
Bei solchen Geschichten muß ich auch immer wieder an meinen wunderbaren Freund Brian-Tennessee Claflin denken, welcher einige Wochen vor seinem Selbstmord in einem U-Bahnabteil von vier jungen Kerlen (er hat sie als "Türken" beschrieben <= für diejenigen welche eine Beschreibung benötigen) zusammengeschlagen. Er hat dieses furchtbare Erlebnis nur wenigen erzählt und auch seine blauen Flecken im Gesicht und am Körper hat er nur wenigen gezeigt. Er hat diesen Albtraum in sich "hineingefressen" und war seitdem auch verändert.
Was ich damit meine ist: Solche Geschichten gibt es zu Hauf in Berlin und sie sollten nicht zu Berlin gehören. Es muß sich hinsichtlich etwas ... sehr viel ... ändern. Meiner Meinung nach müssen mehr Dialoge und Gespräche und Aufklärung stattfinden ... und zwar gezielt ... auf allen Ebenen: In Schulen beginnend über Internetaktionen bis hin zu Plakataktionen. ... und für diejenigen welche meinen, daß es dies bereits gibt: Offensichtlich noch immer zu wenig und nicht intensiv genug!

1st feb: using those cold days for some background work* ... aaaaand my favorite background color of the season is: <3 YELLOW <3 ... I plan to use one for a Jim Morrison portrait and one for some wise words about art and and and ... I will see where they will lead me*

2nd feb: bis später :* <3 ... und bittttte aaaaaalllllleeeee für meinen Mottovorschlag "LIEBE" stimmen*
zur Begründung: Es ist mir wichtig in der Botschaft einfach verständlich zu sein, alle anzusprechen und insbesondere in turbulenten Zeiten wie dieser Tage ein Motto darzustellen, welches nicht viel weiters an Erklärung braucht. Besonders soll es auch unsere neuen Flüchtlingsfreunde ansprechen und für sie verständlich sein. Durfte ich doch vor einiger Zeit mit etwa 40 von Ihnen gemeinsam im Schwuz feiern. Viele können zwar bereits gut Deutsch, aber manche eben noch nicht. "LIEBE" als Motto ist für alle verständlich und gibt eine kurze Antwort darauf, worum es beim CSD Berlin geht.

2nd feb: Berlin: my today´s contact with an older muslim woman:

at first look we had almost nothing in common: she´s a woman ... I´m a man. she´s religious ... I´m not. she´s straight ... I´m gay. and and and .... till that moment when she asked me what I do and I answered, that I paint. first she asked me what. then I explained: oil on canvas ... and the Brandenburg Gate (to keep the conversation simple). I was surprised about her questions, till she told me how much she loved to paint as child in school and that she would like to start to paint again. I explained her, that she can find on youtube videos about how to start to paint. ... finally we talked about 20 minutes ... and have been completly happy about it ... to talk about something which phascinates us both in a similar intense way ... and forgetting everything what made us "different" on the first look.

love wins

3rd feb: a message to everyone who has the feeling, that her/his life is full of darkness:

I know that feeling and want to tell you something which did help me in years full of darkness. almost everyone knows the world famous Cafe del Mar compilation. their success has a reason, which lays in Volumen 1. that music ... especially on that cd ... is that much powerfull, that it literally takes you out of the darkness and pushes you into the light. and there are some very special pearls to find there. I don´t need to tell you where they are, because you will find them by yourself.
especially within the years 1997 till 2006 ... I listened to it about estimated 2000 ! times ... minimum.
this music ... this cd ... helps! trust me. pls give it a try!

4th feb: Als Mitglied der schwulen Fetischszene seit meinem 18. Lebensjahr (<= soviel zu "nur" Alte dort!) möchte ich Deinen MENSCHENVERACHTENDEN Bericht mit Deinen eigenenen Worten kommentieren und diese an Dich adressiert zurückschicken: "Es ist einfach wichtig zu erkennen, wann die Party vorbei ist. Wenn es am schönsten ist, soll man aufhören. Danach wird es peinlich." (Kommentar zu Nina Queer Artikel in BILD "Leder ist das Material der Verzweiflung!")

4th feb: JA! Ich war dabei!
Ich durfte einer von etwa 30 Personen sein, welche das diesjährige CSD Berlin Motto ERARBREITET haben. 30 meist vollkommen unterschiedlichste Menschen aus beinahe allen so unterschiedlichen Gruppierungen welche es im Queersein zu finden gibt ...*ACH* "queer" soll man nicht verwenden, da sich mit diesem Begriff viele ältere Lesben nicht angesprochen fühlen <= was ich vorher nicht wußte und erst bei diesem Forum lernte.
Jedenfalls hatte ich meinen Mottovorschlag "LIEBE" promotet und habe mich mit etwa 30 Menschen daran beteiligt das diesjährige Motto ... in einzelner Wortklauberei ... herauszuarbeiten.
Dieses Motto sprach letztendlich etwa 2/3 der dort Anwesenden an und JA! letztendlich auch mich ... und deshalb stehe ich zu 100 Prozent hinter dem diesjährigen CSD BERLIN Motto "Mehr von uns - jede Stimme gegen Rechts!"

4th feb: bis gleich* zur Vernissage für ArtCharity 2017 im Schwulen Museum* ab 18 Uhr* :* <3

5th feb: my guests today: my wonderful mom <3 and my wonderful stepfather <3 ... she couldn´t understand why the canvas is almost empty* it´s just her name "EDITH" written on it ... in veeeery bright blue (her favorite color). I told her this is art ... this is what her son does here in Berlin* I think that made her confused a little bit ... :* <3

6th feb: and there IT IS: NOW I´M DEFINATELY ADDICTED TO INSTAGRAM *AAAARGGGHHHSSSS* how else it is possible, that I follow there more than 2000 people already. I focus there more on the international art scene ... in general: BIG museums BIG collectors BIG art critics BIG art magazines ... <= just eeeeeveryone I think who could be interested in a FABULOUS PAINTER ... as I am =D :* :) <3 :* <3

6th feb: ^^ never skip leg day ^^ now in the18th week doing workout at home*

7th feb: Question: "how long do you need for your paintings?"
& Answer: "it depends. ... some are done in one day ... and others need longer ... such as Marlene Dietrich´s grave painting ... I´m working on it since more than two years already ..."

 

 

ICKYparties
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with MEGAPHANTASTIC OOZINGGLOOP <3


with looooovely Jose Vigers <3


THIS posing was Thorsten´s idea* :* <3

every sunday night I spend my time at ICKYparty in the club named ´Ficken3000´ (´Fucking3000´)

I LOOOOOVE IT THERE <3 <3 <3

 

 

mix december 2016 january & february 2017
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my painting named "Mikey Woodbridge" for the charity auction "Artcharity" for Elledorado e.V.

meine Selbstbeschreibung in fünf Punkten für den Auktionator, welches diesmal der Kultursenator Klaus Lederer sein wird:

1.: 1974 geboren in Freiburg i. Breisgay* als Sohn einer Schneiderin und eines Automechanikers.
2.: all mein künstlerisches Wissen wurde mir in Berlin von Künstlerkollegen wie Isa Genzken, Henning von Berg, Salomé, Brian Tennessee-Claflin, u.v.a. beigebracht. Somit bin ich quasi eine Erschaffung der Berliner Kunstwelt.
3.: Seit etwa 5 Jahren konzentriere ich mich auf das Malen mit Öl auf Leinwand. Zuvor habe ich hauptsächlich fotografiert. In den glamourösen Nullerjahren Berlins sind dabei etwa 120 000 Fotografien entstanden. Berlinale, CSD, Besuchen von Queen, Dalai Lama, Barack Obama, ... Nachtleben wie PORKparties, ... Bandfotoshootings, usw. Diese Fotografien dienen mir heute als Vorlagen für meine Gemälde in Öl auf Leinwand.
4.: Internationale Bekanntheit erlangte ich zwischen 2006 und 2014 als ich öffentlich lediglich mit schwarzer Ledermaske präsent war und als authentischen Künstlernamen "Master Patrick" verwendete. Inspiration dazu war ein Kerl in Paris welcher nach einem Motorradunfall auf das Tragen einer Maske angewiesen war. Mit ihm hatte ich mich durch die öffentliche Präsenz mit der Maske, solidarisch verhalten.
5.: Nach dem tragischen Tod meines geliebten Freundes Brian Tennessee-Claflin durchlitt ich mehrere Phasen der Trauer. Um mich von der Trauer abzulenken arbeite ich im Jahr 2015 an einer Gemäldeserie "100 Gemälde in 100 Tagen". Aus dieser Serie entstammt auch das von mir zu Auktion bereitgestellte Gemälde "Mikey Woodbridge".

to promote my suggestion "LIEBE" ("LOVE") ... as title for the this years CSD BERLIN

JA! Ich war dabei!
Ich durfte einer von etwa 30 Personen sein, welche das diesjährige CSD Berlin Motto ERARBREITET haben. 30 meist vollkommen unterschiedlichste Menschen aus beinahe allen so unterschiedlichen Gruppierungen welche es im Queersein zu finden gibt ...*ACH* "queer" soll man nicht verwenden, da sich mit diesem Begriff viele ältere Lesben nicht angesprochen fühlen <= was ich vorher nicht wußte und erst bei diesem Forum lernte.
Jedenfalls hatte ich meinen Mottovorschlag "LIEBE" promotet und habe mich mit etwa 30 Menschen daran beteiligt das diesjährige Motto ... in einzelner Wortklauberei ... herauszuarbeiten.
Dieses Motto sprach letztendlich etwa 2/3 der dort Anwesenden an und JA! letztendlich auch mich ... und deshalb stehe ich zu 100 Prozent hinter dem diesjährigen CSD BERLIN Motto "Mehr von uns - jede Stimme gegen Rechts!"

PS: zur Begründung meines Mottos: Es ist mir wichtig in der Botschaft einfach verständlich zu sein, alle anzusprechen und insbesondere in turbulenten Zeiten wie dieser Tage ein Motto darzustellen, welches nicht viel weiters an Erklärung braucht. Besonders soll es auch unsere neuen Flüchtlingsfreunde ansprechen und für sie verständlich sein. Durfte ich doch vor einiger Zeit mit etwa 40 von Ihnen gemeinsam im Schwuz feiern. Viele können zwar bereits gut Deutsch, aber manche eben noch nicht. "LIEBE" als Motto ist für alle verständlich und gibt eine kurze Antwort darauf, worum es beim CSD Berlin geht.

veeeery wonderful birthday party with Christa <3 & friends <3

Thank You to eeeveryone <3 joining my little birthday party :* and making it to one of my beeeest birthdays of my whole life :* ... best because: today I didn´t feel any sorrows ... and pain ... I wasn´t in a hurry ... was able just to enjoy ... without any pressure ... it has been all of you who made me relaxed, having fun, simply said: a good time ... with love and laughter and joy <3 ... aaaaand OOOOH I MISS YOU ALREADY <3 see you soon again :* <3 And to everyone who sent messages today: I will answer them tomorrow* because: now I´m tired ... will fall in my bed ... and have woooonderful glamorous dreams ... aaaaallll night long :) :* <3

me at new year´s midnight*

 

 

some postings which I created on facebook 24th december 2016 - 25th january 2017
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stories mix posted on facebook:

24th dec: what a peeeeerfect day to work on my website* ... it shows me aaaallll those wonderful friends ... who made my year 2016 STUNNING GREAT <3 ... and this is the BIGGEST christmas present I could ever get <3 Jared for being with me together eeeevery glamorous sunday <3 Matt & Jannis for making my year STUNNING SPECIAL <3 Nathan & family for aaaaalllll the love <3 Rogger for those AMAZING weights christmas present <3 Katya & friends for eeeeeeverything love, fun & happiness <3 ... aaaaaaaand eeeeeveryone <3 THANK YOU <3 MERRY CHRISTMAS to all of you <3 LOVE YOU <3

24th dec: ^^BÄÄÄÄÄM^^ just got my BEEEEEST christmas present of the evening: ... a short chat with BelAmi SUUUUUPERSTAR Jack Harrer <3 now he knows that I exist :*

*lalalllalallalala* don´t be jealous =D

25th dec: *** Merry Christmas *** ... and OMG in 2007 I was against "murdering" trees for fun ... and OH! still I am* because: ^^ Christmas Tree without Tree is muuuch more fun =D ^^

25th dec: ^^ the ARMY OF ARTISTS ^^

question: "this should be art? everyone can do that!"

answer: "Thank You! you got it! THIS is exactly the meaning of it! a lot of my art is meant to show ´how easy it is to create art by yourself!´ ... it should inspire people to create art by themselves! EVERY handmade piece of art (photographies, sculptures, paintings,...) with a personal connection is muuuuuch stronger than any IKEA mass printed stuff. I want that people become stronger with positive energy! and because of that people have to surround themselves with positive energy! never underestimate the power of handmade art! there are about 20 millions ... perhaps 30 millions flats/houses ... just in Germany! ... and pls now imagine how ENORMOUS HUGE the ARMY OF ARTISTS needs to be ... to create artworks for eeeeevery room ... in every building!
everyone is able to create art ... and everyone ... who has the passion for it ... should create art!"

25th dec: question: "Patrick, how is your christmas 2016 so far?"
answer: "Oh GREAT^^ laying on my couch all day long, hanging around in gay chatrooms non-stops and chatting with gay p*rnstars <3 "

26th dec: dear <3 George Michael <3

tonite at ICKYparty ... while the dj started to play "last christmas" ... someone shouted "GEORGE MICHAEL DIED". everyone could hear it and I thought that it was a joke. not even one minute later someone came to me and showed me on his phone that you really died tonite. It´s hard to believe that it´s really true. You are only 11 years older than me. Which means that almost your whole career was part of my life. And your work has been incredible important for me. "Wake me up before you gogo" made me laugh ... "last christmas" became part of my every years christmas ... of course your video for "Freedom! ´90" with all my most favorite supermodels at that time ... and YES! in "outside" where two police men are kissing eachother ... OMG what an important video for me at that time ... when I was reaching out for any gay moments in television ... moments which gave me the feeling of not being alone with being gay on that planet. As gay man you became a superhero and icon to me ... I really needed you during those hard years of my own coming out in society. and as musician you have been a genius ... your album "Listen Without Prejudice Vol 1" shows your brilliancy in full size. I listened to that album about ... estimated 500 !!! times ... during my hardest years of my life ... between age 23 till 29. you saved my life with giving me power to survive.
actually here in Berlin I was waiting for you <3 ... it was always in my minds that you would love that city ... I was sure about it that you would find some freedom, peace and love for yourself in Berlin.
some days ago I discovered that you have been the very first guest in James Corden´s Carpool Karaoke. I was enormous happy to see you there <3 you made me smile and laugh again*.
In Berlin I had the possibilty to hug R.E.M.´s Michael Stipe and whisper in his ear "thank you". It was my dream to whisper the same words in your ear too. Now you are together with Freddie Mercury, Gianni Versace and all your other friends. and I will stay here on that planet for a little bit longer ... and I will miss you <3 I loved you and always will <3 THANK YOU <3 R.I.P. George <3

26th dec: don´t be jealous because of my suuuupermeeeegaseeeexyhooooot internet coach sunnycutexxl (<= his instagram name) <3 now in the 12th week of doing workouts at home*

27th dec: what to expect from Patrick Bartsch as painter in 2017:
x: of course to paint a looot of the serie "100 portraits"
x: some bigger size paintings ( > 120 cm ). I would like to paint much more bigger size paintings, but due to the size of my studio I´m able to paint only a handful of the bigger ones.
x: some of "my words in oil on canvas"
x: some surprise paintings, which I don´t know about now.
x: AAAAAND at the end of the year ... the advent calender 2017 shows 24 portraits of famous people who died already ... and I love a loooot <3 ... such as: Jim Morrison, Janis Joplin, Bach, Fred Astaire, Judy Garland, Kurt Cobain, Amy <3 , ... and YES! of course George Michael :*

pls stay tuned* caaaan´t wait for 2017* love you all <3

29th dec: * since *

since I give my body more healthy food ... I feel better
since I work more ... I have more success
since I decided to feel good ... I´m happier
since I stopped my isolation ... I have more contacts to people
since I do workouts ... my body feels stronger
since I stopped spendind my money for stupid stuff ... I have more money
since I give my more peace to minds ... my brain feels easier
since I decided to accept my life ... I love my life

<3

29th dec: Patrick´s resolution number 1 for 2017:

posting less on facebook =D

30th dec: <3 sometimes <3

sometimes my facebook friends are the only friends I have
sometimes my facebook friends are the only friends I´m able to reach
sometimes my facebook friends are the only friends I´m able to share my emotions with
sometimes my facebook friends make me laugh, sad, angry, thinking about, happy, ...
sometimes my facebook friends give me the feeling to be loved
sometimes I realize how much I need you ... aaaaaall of you <3

I know almost all your names and I love you aaaaallllll
^^ HAPPY NEW YEAR 2017 ^^

okokok I know it´s a little bit early to wish already a happy new year, buuuuuut more happy new year wishes will follow =D :* <3

<3 LOVE YOU <3

31st dec: list for: how to help in 2017 to get me a little bit closer to reach my life goal to become one of the most important artists of the 21st century:

first of all: I don´t care about money ... and any copyright bullsh*t. I have a message to bring to the world. and this message is about: loving eachother and bring the world to a point that humans are able to survive on that wonderful planet.

ok. and this is how it goes: first of all pls don´t be shy: talk to me ... visit me ... talk to friends about it ... bring friends to my studio ... share my photographies, paintings, postings, ... give me space in your magazines, photoshootings, movies, ...

and yes! I mean it that way*

I do that, because of one simple reason: because someone has to do it!

LOVE YOU <3

31st dec: I have that stubbern believe, that how I will go in the next year ... the whole year will be* ... last new years eve I spent the night with wonderful Frank & his friends <3 it was a great party ... and so almost my whole year 2016 was it too =D :* <3
this year I volunteered in the hotel, where I´m working. I will be there the whole night ... and at midnight ... will spent the New Years Eve night with wonderful guests together ... while I do my job ... because I plan to work a loooooot in 2017* "working on my dreams" will make me happy in 2017* caaaaan´t wait*

HAPPY NEW YEAR 2017 to aaaaaaallllllllll my stunning awesome great wooooonderful glitzy loved facebook friends :* <3

<3 LOVE YOU <3

1st jan: also ich finde die Schweizerin Goss Ipa <3 voll sympathisch, lustig und es macht eeeeenormen Spaß sich ihre Videos anzusehen* <= das mußte jetzt doch auch mal gesagt werden :* <3

2nd jan: Patrick´s inner monologues:

if I want to create new paintings, then I have to start to paint again
if I want to create new paintings, then I have to start to paint again
if I want to create new paintings, then I have to start to paint again
if I want to create new paintings, then I have to start to paint again
if I want to create new paintings, then I have to start to paint again
if I want to create new paintings, then I have to start to paint again

okokok on thursday I will start with my first paintings in 2017

:*

4th jan: I dreamt that I was surrounded only by beautiful people.
after some moments I realized that I didn´t sleep ... I was awake. My dream became reality already since a long time ago.

4th jan: ... never give up ... it´s such a wonderful life ... now in the 13th week* OMG I LOOOVE Hurts <3 (the band named "Hurts")

5th jan: paintings I plan to paint in 2017: just choose 40 photographies (which I took) and plan to paint in oil on canvas: such as THIIIIIIS ONE: Mr. LOVEPARADE himself Dr. Motte <3

5th jan: how a little bit of sunshine (right now in Berlin) ...
... miracles a smile in my face
... heats up my heart
... strengthens my body
... relaxes my soul
I love the power of sunshine
<3

6th jan: R.I.P. Prinz Nicolai von Schaumburg-Lippe.
Seinen Vater Prinz York zu Schaumburg-Lippe durfte ich in Wien kennen lernen, als ich im Grand Hotel Wien arbeitete. Er war wohl einer der bezauberndsten Gäste, welche ich in diesen drei Jahren in diesem Hotel hatte. Umso mehr trifft auch mich sein Schicksal mit dem frühen tragischen Tod seines Sohnes.

6th jan: backgrounds for the next portraits for "100 portraits" in oil on canvas ... bright blue, petrol, red, ...

6th jan: photographies which I plan to paint in 2017* ... of course Berghain belongs to Berlin ... even when I don´t support their ridiculous door policy *hhmmmpffff* ... and I´m not frustrated ... they always let me in ... but I think about <3 EEEEVERYONE <3 living in Berlin ... and <3 EEEEEVERYONE <3 should have the possibility to feel their unique sound system^^

6th jan: TONITE my veeeeery FIRST TIME at "NEW" SCHWUZ :* .... okokok it´s not thaaaaat much "new" anymore. ... aaaaand why I haven´t been there so far: because ... because ... becaaaaaause it´s on the other side of the world ... I mean on the other side of Berlin* ... I live in Schöneberg and I´m veeeery "kiezfaul" (means being lazy about leaving the area where you live). ... aaaaand why I´m going there TONITE: because it´s going to be SUUUUPERSPECIALGLAMOROUS :* <3 caaaaan´t wait <3 see you later :* <3

6th jan: I have good memories of the "old" Schwuz* ... when I was one of the freaky wild ones there =D <3 ... tonite I´m going the first time in the "new" Schwuz <3 ... and I´m already veeeeeery excited =D :* (pic is from 2008)

6th jan: also ich bin für: "LIEBE" ganz einfach "LIEBE" ... das wäre mal ein Motto welches alle verstehen und alle anspricht <3 ganz einfach :* (CSD Berlin Motto)

7th jan: ^^ partying together with estimated 40 refugees <3 my dream became true ^^

as I wrote about it yesterday, I was veeeeery excited to go the first time in the "new" Schwuz :* I went there because my wonderful friend Jared Abbott did DJ there and I knew BEST American Style music possible to get in Berlin, would have been guaranteed. I had no idea what will happen in Schwuz and had no expectations. We came there quite early at around before midnight. OMFG HOW MUCH I was impressed by those HUUUUUUGE halls. I didn´t expect that after knowing the "old" Schwuz. the first person started to talk with me was a 19 y. o. lovely guy original from Pälästine, but came from Syria. his German was that much perfect, that I thought that he grew up in Berlin. I told him, that I was suuuuper excited about it for being here the first time. he introduced me to some of his friends. we did handshake and said our names to eachothers.

I enjoyed dancing on all of those three floors. Of course I started to dance in the room next to the toilets where Jared did DJ. I love his music and obviously others did it too.during the whole night I checked out different places to sit and to dance. and YES! the initiative for first contacts came from the refugees. and I know that they have been refugees, because they talked with me about it. I told them (in a good positive way) that now they stay here (in Berlin). someone looked at me and said "I have to!". I felt that much sorry for him, that I´m not able to discribe it in words right now. but he got right: he "has to"! ... and he and all of his friends deserve it that we welcome them with open arms in Berlin. this is what Berlin is and was always about. THIS is the original preussian soul! Berlin was always a city for people who needed to run away from their homes (because of different reasons). it was a survival tactic of Berlin to survive all those centuries during wars. with Berlin in the heart of Europe and no one wanted to live here, because everytime when there has been war in Europe, then it crossed through Berlin. and because of that no one wanted to live here. but jewish people, queers, other thinking people, refugees, ... they came here since centuries ... and took that fate of Berlin with non-stop running wars through it ... and they BUILT UP Berlin. ... and now our new refugees ... from Syria, Afghanistan, Africa, ... are now our new friends to create a new Berlin <3

dancing and partying together in the "new" Schwuz has been a brand new experience to me. in other places people go there to feel "special". and where I have been yesterday ... no one felt "special" ... they just wanted to dance and party together ... and that fact made them SPECIAL :* ... all of them <3 ... love you <3 ... and see you next time :*

THANK YOU to the Schwuz team and I hope you will like the huge painting in oil on canvas which shows Romy Verbaarsschott & Brian-Tennessee Claflin hugging eachother. I would like to give that painting to you ... to say "THANK YOU" for all your great effort during all your years of existing in Berlin. <3 I <3 SCHWUZ <3

8th jan: ... aaaand OOOOH^^ btw *WANTED KATE MOSS*
we are born on the same day ... in the same year ... on 16th january 1974* we have a loooooot in common ... we love wild parties =D and beautiful things :* and sexy men <3
my dream is it to celebrate our birthdays together <3 ... if you know her pls tell her to come to Berlin next week :* <3

THX :*

9th jan: my new life starts N O W ^^ <3 ... aaaaand pleeeeeaaaase DON´T LOOK at my belly! THIS is a CHOCOLATE BELLY =D =D =D I have to work on it ... I´m only in the 14th week now with doing workouts at home :* <3

10th jan: ^^WHOOOUIIIIII^^ six more photos ... and I have my first 100 veeeery private photos uploaded on my instagram account* I love to take pictures with my phone ... to me it´s a new way of "camera" ... taking pictures since I´m 8 years old ... means since 34 years ... I worked with a loooooot of different cameras*.

10th jan: <3 new hug record wanted <3 ... on monday 16th jan will be my birthday* means on sunday night at glam ICKY ... I will celebrate into my birthday* ... aaaaaaand I would love to hug as maaaaaaany friends :* <3 as possible that night* pls help me to reach a new hug record thaaaaat night :* <3

11th jan: a short message to eeeveryone who knows me personal and IGNORES ME:

you had every reason to ignore me during my "out of control years", when I was high on dr*gs ... drinking too much alcohol ... talking too much bullsh*it ... being depressed every second day ... doing crazy non-sense stuff ... being annoying ... stubbern ...

BUT my life has changed. and I think that eeeveryone deserves a second chance. I stopped drinking alc and taking dr*gs in september 2016. it´s not that much long, but it´s a start already. further I started to life a healthy life with food, doing workouts, following invitations again, talking and listening on a relaxed level, keeping my crazy ideas under control, and and and

what I want to write, is: there is no reason anymore to ignore me. it would be nice ... if at least ... you´d say "hey" in return, when I say "hey" to you <3

thx*

11th jan: looooove her <3 Hungry is bringing it on a BRANDNEW LEVEL ^^SUPERFIERCE^^

12th jan: facebook limit: max 100 people to invite <= that means: PLS don´t care if you got an invitation or not: YOU & eeeeveryone is invited <3 ... and YES! I think I will make a BIG CHOCOLATE CAKE with FRESH VANILLA WHIPPED CREAM Vienna style =P <3

13th jan: * life & death ... on the internet *

that constant mix of life&death is perhaps the best thing which happens to us while using the internet.
when I was a kid/teenager ... I remember how seperat life was from death. people who lived owned the first part of the newspapers and people who died owned the last pages of the daily newspapers. I had always skipped those pages. I wasn´t interessted in them.
Today ... here on facebook ... there is no possibility to flip those "pages". when someone dies ... then people post about it. facebook is a completly mix-up of life&death. <= THIS IS A GREAT THING!
because it makes people aware of it ... what life means! ... that death belongs to life! ... and people become aware of it how "short" life can be. people learn to realize their own lives ... the value of their lifes ... and because of that: they will start to care about their lifes and not give themselves and others (and politics) the possibility to waste it.

life is worth living!

this is what the "new" generation grows up with ... and I can´t wait for it when THEY will start to lead that/our world ... in 20 ... 30 years!

... and I hope that I will live that long <3

13th jan: I love to think about another planet ... in another universe ... and what I would do there*

14th jan: after thinking about it ... for 42 years ... what THE REAL PROBLEM is ... what some straight people have ... when it´s about Gays ... I still couldn´t find an answer which sounds in any way logical to me.

14th jan: instead of ^^ top 10 albums I listened as teenager ^^ I would like to name ^^ my top 10 musicians I love to follow on fb and listen to how they grow and grow with their fabulous music ^^

1. Molly Nilsson
2. Sado Opera
3. Paul Bonomo aka SNAX
4. Jon Campbell with his band
5. Nikolaj Tange Lange
6. Mikey Woodbridge
7. Mary Ocher
8. Patrick Wolf
9. Simon Daniel Kaiser
and last but not least
10. Sarah Jane Morris <3

I`M YOUR BIIIIG FAN :* <3

15th jan: tomorrow ... on my birthday* ... when you want to do a bday present to me ... pls then share one of your favorite paintings of mine* ... you find photos of my paintings everywhere in my profile* ... I really wish the world to know me as painter <3 Thank You <3

15th jan: morgen ... an meinem Geburtstag* ... wenn Du mir ein Geburtstagsgeschenk machen möchtest, dann teile bitte eines Deiner Favoriten Gemälde von mir* ... Du findest diese überall in meinem Profil* ... I wünsche mir wirklich, daß mich die Welt als Maler kennenlernt <3 Danke Sehr <3

16th jan: ^^ WOOOOOW ^^ THANK YOU already to eeeeeveryone who gave me THE BEST bday present ever with sharing my paintings <3 you make my day amazing <3

... and everyone else: if you want to make me a bday present too today, then I really wish that you would share one of your favorite paintings from my profile. My BIGGEST WISH is the world to get me know as painter <3 Thank You <3

16th jan: ^^ WOOOOOOW ^^ DANKE SEHR an alle welche mir heute schon DAS BESTE Geburtstagsgeschenk gemacht haben und meine Gemälde geteilt haben <3 Ihr bereitet mir einen grossartigen Tag <3

... und an alle anderen: wenn Du mir heute auch ein Geburtstagsgeschenk machen möchtest, dann wünsche ich mir wirklich, daß Du eines Deiner Favoriten Gemälde aus meinem Profil teilst. Mein ALLERGRÖSSTER WUNSCH ist es, daß mich die Welt als Maler kennenlernt <3 Danke Sehr <3

16th jan: my birthday today is one of the best of my whole life ^^ the whole day I´m with you together on facebook* to answer your lovely birthday wishes. my fingers hurt already a little bit =D ... and all your support with sharing my paintings is OVERWHELMING to me and brings tears of joy in my eyes* THANK YOU FOR THAT :* you make my wish come true* LOVE YOU <3

16th jan: mein heutiger Geburtstag ist wohl einer der Besten meines ganzen Lebens ^^ Den ganzen Tag verbringe ich mit euch zusammen auf Facebook und antworte auf eure liebevollen Geburtstagswünsche. Meine Finger schmerzen bereits etwas =D ... und eure Unterstützung mit dem Teilen meiner Gemälde ist ÜBERWÄLTIGEND für mich und bringt sogar Tränen der Freude in meine Augen* DANKE SEHR DAFÜR :* Ihr bringt meinen Wunsch in Erfüllung* LIEBE EUCH <3

16th jan: <3 my mom would have died for me at my birth <3

the BIGGEST THANK YOU <3 belongs to my mother. exactly now ... at 11 p.m. and some minutes I was born. in the university clinic of Freiburg i. Breisgau in the black forrest. several doctors and about 15 students joined my birth. a heavy snowstorm opened the window for some seconds <= a little memory which my mother had from that night full of endless pain.
Some months before she worked in the bakery of my grand aunt. She was jealous of the pregnancy of my mother and let her work a lot. when she was pregnant in the 5th month, she needed to lift a heavy box full of bread. in that moment something broke inside of her pregnant belly. Several doctors advised my mother to abort the unborn baby (me) to save her own life. my mother wanted to give that birth a try ... even when she could have died or the baby be heavily disabled. finally the university clinic gave that birth a try. my mother needed to lay in bed for several months ... till the birth happened.
She survived that birth, but had no possibilty to take the baby (me) in her arms after, because my blood was not good and they needed to give me new blood ... and needed to put me on machines for several days&nights ...

but at least ... my mother was alive ... and so was I.

19th jan: Thank You to eeeveryone <3 joining my little birthday party :* and making it to one of my beeeest birthdays of my whole life :* ... best because: today I didn´t feel any sorrows ... and pain ... I wasn´t in a hurry ... was able just to enjoy ... without any pressure ... it has been all of you who made me relaxed, having fun, simply said: a good time ... with love and laughter and joy <3 ... aaaaand OOOOH I MISS YOU ALREADY <3 see you soon again :* <3 And to everyone who sent messages today: I will answer them tomorrow* because: now I´m tired ... will fall in my bed ... and have woooonderful glamorous dreams ... aaaaallll night long :) :* <3

20th jan: I miss to paint :( because of the Balmterpentinoil used with the colors I have to paint with an open window ... and it´s faaar too cold to work with an open window ... I need at least 5 degree to work ...

20th jan: In 1990 there were the opening of Trump´s Casino Taj Mahal. I was 16 years old and a BIIIIIG fan of Michael Jackson. Jacko performed at the opening of Trump´s Taj Mahal. this was the first time that I realized the life of Donald Trump. later I followed Trump because of his lovely ex-wife Ivana Trump. at Lifeball Vienna I even had the chance to photograph her. I would have prefered it to have Ivana as new president ...

21st jan: MELANIA TRUMP <3 I just want to have mentioned it: it´s no one´s business to JUDGE over the love of a woman ... even when her husband is named Donald Trump.
In my life I met a loooot of young women and men they literally LOVE older men and women. sometimes it may look like that they felt in love "because of the money", BUT I know that those thoughts are mostly WRONG!
I see it that way: if Melania wouldn´t love Donald Trump, then she wouldn´t stay with him and wouldn´t have kept his back strong while all those past months/years.
What I want to say is: pls respect her as a woman ... as a woman who loves <3

... and yes! I´m sure that she can take some jokes about herself ... as long they are created with some RESPECT!

21st jan: since the age of about 12 years ... I believe in more than life. I believe in infinity.

21st jan: Patrick knows that life goes on, when: I started to work on new backgrounds ... one for a painting with a frog ... and two for portraits of someone I promised to paint him*

21st jan: I´m against Donald Trump as president because: I´ve the opinion, that the president of a country needs to be IN LOVE with EEEEEVERYONE living in it:
old and young
every color of skin
male and female
straights and queers
legals and illegals
saints and criminals
healthy and sick ones
poor and rich
in one word: EVERYONE <3
that this is possible was to see with Barack Obama as president. and now we don´t want to move backwards again. we want to continue to have presidents who are full of love. Those people exist and we need to bring someone like that back in power again.

21st jan: 15th week of doing workout at home* what a buuuusy fab week ... with bday,.... but I found always time to do some workout. okokok I need to work moooooore on my back*

23rd jan: OOOOH Brian-Tennessee Claflin <3 eeeeverytime when I go through my photo archive ... then I find pictures of you :* <3 I miss you <3 I would looooove to know your answer to the situation in America right now! ... what would be your answer!? ... revolution? ... love? ... or what?

24th jan: no one lives in Berlin ... because of the weather ^^* grey, dark, cold, ... <= just wanted to have mentioned it *gggrmmmmlllmmmppppffff*

24th jan: ^^^WHHHOUUUUIIIIIII^^^ I´m very happy =D that my 100th instagram photo is about YOU <3 <3 <3 ... showing me in front of 16 new backgrounds for 100 portraits in oil on canvas*
... plan to paint them as soooon it gets a liiiiiittle bit warmer outside*
caaaaan´t wait :* <3

24th jan: no pain no gain ... 16th week ... and yes! those are ultralight beginner weights =D

25th jan: if Socrates got right ... and America is facing years of TYRANNY, then we should be prepared for it, what tyranny means:

thousands of people flee the country
thousands of people end up in prison
thousands of people murdered

... and all that because of POLITICAL REASONS!

we better should be prepared, what the word "tyranny" means in reality!

Save America! and all my wonderful friends who are living there!

 

 

 

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