about my technique of creating my paintings:
I found it by myself. no one teached it to me. I worked it out and meanwhile I mix up several techniques. and also that mix up is unique. and because no one did it that way before, there is no "how to do it". everything I create with my technique is done the first time that way. with my style: portraits, landscapes, abstract, ... everything happens the first time. I feel like swimming in a BIIIIG OCEAN where there is no end in sight.
this is why I produce and produce and produce ...

meanwhile I discovered, that there are painters in that world, which paintings looks similar to mine. but no one of them is using the technique which I am using.
this is why I keep my technique(s) as secret. a secret like an italian pizza baker is keeping his receipt as secret*
 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

 

Patrick Bartsch´s Open Studio november 2016
filed under fantasy48



with my glitzy friend Nathan Koestlin

those open studio days belong to my highlights eeeevery week* love those days <3 love my fierce guests <3

on the pic: I gave him that glitzy LIDL bag ... for a painting ... which one I put inside*

 

now EVERY WEDNESDAY

Patrick Bartsch´s Open Studio

every wednesday from 3 p.m. - 9 p.m. at Kleiststr.37a in Berlin - if you are around pls join us*

 

 

self-portrait 18th november 2016
filed under portraits


self portrait named "buuuuuusy checking out latest SADO OPERA videos on youtube* WHAT A GLAMOROUS GLITZY BAAAAAND <3 :* :* :* "

 

 

my mom and step father in Berlin november 2016
filed under mix

 

my mom and my step father have been in Berlin*

we haven´t seen eachother for more than 2 1/2 years. It was very beautful to meet them again <3 ... and of course I gave my mom a painting. "1974" has been a veeeery special year* ... for both of us <3

 

 

some postings which I created on facebook 24th october 2016 - 14th december 2016
filed under mix


stories mix posted on facebook:

24th oct: <3 my mom <3 should find a STRONG BOY in Berlin when she is coming soon* I haven´t seen her since more than 2 1/2 years* ... now I´m in the 4th week doing exercises on a daily basis at home* my trainings weights are 4.745 kilogramm fabric coniditioner bottles =D

25th oct: who is Pete Burns ? who is *Dead or Alive* ?

it happens that someone lives in a different world. not everyone knows everyone and everything. Never in my life I heard or realized the name *Dead or Alive*. and also the name *Pete Burns* is a name which ... perhaps I heard before, but not more.
And now Pete Burns died. And almost eeeeeveryone is posting how great he was. WHY PEOPLE DIDN´T POST THAT WHEN HE WAS ALIVE !?
then I would have realized him before ... before he died.

26th oct: ^^ swag ^^ life is a journey* ... 42 paintings for each different year of my life* ... and "1997" is already in L.A. ... as I said before "life is a journey" :) :* <3

27th oct: about my technique of creating my paintings:
I found it by myself. no one teached it to me. I worked it out and meanwhile I mix up several techniques. and also that mix up is unique. and because no one did it that way before, there is no "how to do it". everything I create with my technique is done the first time that way. with my style: portraits, landscapes, abstract, ... everything happens the first time. I feel like swimming in a BIIIIG OCEAN where there is no end in sight.
this is why I produce and produce and produce ...

meanwhile I discovered, that there are painters in that world, which paintings looks similar to mine. but no one of them is using the technique which I am using.
this is why I keep my technique(s) as secret. a secret like an italian pizza baker is keeping his receipt as secret*

29th oct: busy working on my new book "the story of Master Patrick" ... today I have chosen some pictures, when I photographed about 100 ... yes! ONE HUNDRED metal and hardcore bands ... in almost every live club in Berlin* AMAZING YEARS <3 and I did wear the mask on stage while photographing those great bands*

30th oct: busy working on my new book "the story of Master Patrick" ... watching about 150 000 !!! photographies ... means getting reminded on 150 000 !!! memories* ... thaaaaat book is muuuuch more work ... then I thought it would be. but I love it, because I love <3 each one <3 who will be part of that book <3

30th oct: <3 Wish You Were Here <3 ... my life after Brian´s death ... a life without Brian.

yesterday it was halloween and I decided to go to a party of Brians´s loved friend Parker. Jared, one of Brians closest and longest friends invited me to come there. Jared did DJ that night and told me that it would also be a night dedicated to Fleetwood Mac´s singer Stevie Nicks. Fleetwood Mac has been one of Brian´s moooost favorite bands. he loved them and many times, when I think about Brian, then I listen at home to Fleetwood Mac.
I wasn´t sure about it ... to wear my golden mask, because I stopped wearing the mask with Brians death. only for very special moments (it were about a handful of them in the past 2 1/2 years) I wear it. on that halloween night I decided to wear it, because I was sure that Brian would have loved that party and somehow I had the feeling that ... on a way ... from veeery far away ... he also "organized" that party.
When I came there I found a place in a quiet corner and it didn´t last long, when someone next to me almost "whispered" in my direction "are you Patrick?". I answered "yes", but it needed a while till I recognized him, because he did wear a very wonderful extravagant halloween outfit. I was very happy to meet him, because we shared many beautiful moments together ... together with Brian. he continued talking ... with a slow, sad voice "good to see you again with mask. ... it has been a long time ago."

today I realized that for other people it feels like it happened a long time ago. but for me it feels like as if it was yesterday. I wasn´t able to find any distance ... from my years with Brian ... till now. I know that I have to learn to live without Brian, but it is very painful.

31st oct: okokok ... still faaaaar away from a muscle six-pack =P buuuut I´m working on it* ... now in the 5th week doing exercises on a daily basis*

31st oct: there is the NEW category "openings/presentations" on my blog. since I stopped going for hard partying to BULLbar up to 4times a week between october 2015 - september 2016 ... I have time now *YEAHS* ... and I´m completely sober too since about 8 weeks. after yeeeeaaaars I started again following invitations to openings/presentations. ... and I can say, that I LOOOOVE IT <3

pls find some news on my blog:

31st oct: ^^ HALLOWEEN KIDS ^^

always I give them something when they ring at my door. actually ... kind of I wait for them to ring at my door. because I did something similar too when I was little kid (what exactly it was, I will explain at the end of that story). the problem is, that I wait for them to ring, but always I miss it to buy something special for helloween before. that means that I give them what I have here in my flat: normally a big chocolate and five euro. but I tell them that they have to share it. last year there were four kids who stood in front of me and one of them was the older bigger sister. she took the chocolate and the money and took care of it, that everyone gets something of it later.
THIS YEAR there were about seven little kids between the age three to five with two adults taking care for them, but they stood some meters away. I came late to the door, and when I opened, they have been gone already. So I screamed and waged with the chocolate in the one hand and the five euro in the other hand. then they started to run in my direction. when they all stood in front of me with holding their plastic bags open, then I said (as I do it always), that they should share it later. but somehow they ignored it, what I said. one of them grabbed the five euro and ran away while screaming "I´VE GOT A FIVE EURO BANKNOTE!" (and the operative word was "I"). in that moment the other kids looked in the direction of the chocolate, and I did hold it closer to that kid who ran first to my door but didn´t give it to him. he looked uncertain in my direction and then finally grabbed the chocolate. then they all ran away and followed that kid which didn´t stop screaming, that "HE" got money.
I thought later about it and realized, that they will perhaps later discuss and fight about what to do with the money, but that kid with the chocolate will perhaps have the whole chocolate just for himself, without anyone takes something away from it ...

when I was a kid I lived after the divorce of my parents from age eight in Graz in Styria (yes, there where Arnold Schwarzenegger comes from). there exists a custom which is named "Frisch und G´sund" (fresh and healthy). this happens every year on 28th december and little kids beat adults on a soft way on their asses (of course while they have their trousers on) with a self-made rod. while doing that the kids say "Frisch und G´sund, Frisch und G´sund. Lang leb´n und G´sund bleiben" (fresh and healthy, fresh and healthy. have a long life and stay healthy). then the kids give the adults a piece of the birch (I don´t know the name of it, but it is that piece of the birch blossoms, when they get hard) and the adults give a little money to the kids. the good thing about it is, that the kids have to do something before for it, when they look for the birch pieces. and the adults get something which gives them luck and they can put it in their cars or whereever. I did that (between the age of eight till twelve) mostly on parking places of a big shopping center and earned about 150 euro with that. that was a looooot of money ... 30 years ago for a little kid and I came from a kind of poor family. my parents gave me love, but they had not the possibility to give me really money. with those 150 euro I bought within the following weeks: sweets, chocolate, also magazines for kids and perhaps I bought even with that money my first LP ... which was Madonna´s brandnew album "True Blue" when I was 12

1st nov: busy working on my new book "the story of Master Patrick" ... today I´ve chosen some more pictures, which I took ... such as this one of Ivana Trump during her speech at Lifeball 2009*

1st nov: *about Berlin*

the book "the story of Master Patrick" will not fit in any genre.
the book will be about glamour and trash ...
about hardcore bands and drag shows ...
about fetish and romantic ...
about royals and prostitutes ...
about parties and endless love ...
about art and politics ...
the book will just fit in one genre ... and this is: "BERLIN"

2nd nov: *whooooiiii* ... and the 100th follower on my instagram ... is a wonderful lady <3 ... who got attracted by my latest homemade cake picture* <3 life is good <3

5th nov: MY <3 MOM <3 COMES TOMORROW at 10 a.m. to visit me <3 she asked me what she should bring. and I answered "some homemade dumplings "austrian style" and a new pot" (she knows the story that one of my pots got burnt when I felt asleep) I love my mom <3 and I know that she loves me too <3 I haven´t seen her since more than 2 1/2 years ...

6th nov: my <3 mom <3 with her first painting ... created by her son* ... "1974" has been a veeeery special year* ... for both of us <3 ... and ^^WOW^^ she looks amazing for being 71*

7th nov: mygoal: being another person tomorrow ... then the one I´ve been yesterday* "nomoreexcuses" ... now in the 6th week of doing exercises on a daily basis at home* ... and that little belly is a very good sign* because it shows that I started eating too again* ... mygoals

7th nov: this world needs mooooore artists and YES! female artists <3 I know what it means to have his first exhibition* when you are in Vienna pls go THERE ^^ I know that lovely wooooonderful woman Annemarie p'Art since about 28 years and I´m sure that her art is worth it to look at <3

9th nov: just woke up* did I miss something?

9th nov: ... and what else happened today: I did bake an body exercise supporting cake with joghurt and a looooot of Pitaya =P

10th nov: busy working on my new book "the story of Master Patrick" ... most asked question right now: "when is the book finished?" ... original Berlin BER airport style answer: "first I thought it´s done in september ... then it should be done in november ... and now I think it´s done in february" ... original Berlin style :*

11th nov: btw: COPYRIGHT doesn´t exist for my paintings. that means: you can copy/past ... share ... use them for your own purpose ... and whatever ... ... as much as you want.

12th nov: homeless kids in Berlin

it´s f*cking cold outside ... and yes, we discuss about presidents in America ... about legends who died ... about supermoon

and every day and every night ... when I look outside of my windows on the street ... then I see them ... uncountable homeless kids ... most of them between age 14 till age 25. they have nothing more than the cloths they wear ... the same cloths every day and every night. jackets which are made for summer and autumn ... and not for temperatures around minus 3 degree. do you have any idea how cold minus 3 degree can be, when you need to stand for hours in that coldness? and shoes? ... the same: they wear thin sneakers, which let them freeze their feet non-stop. most of those homeless kids spend those hours as couples: boy with girlfriend, boy with best male friend ... and some are alone ... always. they need to be here. is it here the only place where they can get sometimes some cents or one or two euros from someone. and sometimes they sell their bodies for 20 euros and perhaps once a week it happens that someone pays 50 euros. and yes! sometimes they steal phones from drunken tourists, which they sell for 15 euro. they need that money ... to buy that little bit of food what they eat. they don´t eat a lot ... just sometimes ... something.
it is very difficult to help them, because almost all of them are addicted into dr*gs ... cristal ... and other cheap bad dr*gs from the street. some of them are also addicted in playing machines ... they need more money that much hard, that they believe that if they put the only 10 euros they have ... into those machines ... that they will win. but almost always they loose. how they loose their lives ... especially in hard cold nights as tonite ... and winter has not even started yet

13th nov: okokok* another <3 Brian-Tennessee Claflin <3 story for you: before I met Brian, almost I never talked english. also in school I was one the worst students in our english lessons.
Brian worked as english teacher in Istanbul before he came to Berlin.
when we met eachother in 2007 then he was literally my english teacher. he teached me how to talk english. I used the same phrases and words as he did, because I knew no others in the beginning. for example: I just knew "good" and "great". all other words Brian teached to me: "fabulous" "awesome" "fierce" ....
some months before his death I said to him, that I need a new word to use. when I said that, then he looked straight forward thinking, how a teacher does it. and after some seconds he turned his face in my direction and said to me ... while he pronounced it in his very special way ... : "glitzy"
it was the last word which Brian teached to me ... and everytime when I use that word, then I think about him <3 ... and I love to use it <3
*glitzy* *glitzy* *glitzy* :*

14th nov: now in the 7th week doing exercises on a daily basis at home* ... and: NEVER SKIP LEG DAY =P

14th nov: +++ WARNING +++ pls only continue reading, when you are into spiritual and meditativ stuff:

it´s supermoon and for a hardcore spiritual person as I am ... this is a very special day. I grew up in the middle of the black forrest and like every other person with a lot of nature around ... I believe and know about the power of natural things.
my day today was like this: taking a long sun bath to fill up my body and soul with energy. (in Berlin we had a cloudless sky today). in the late afternoon I took a long bath for about one hour. that moon is moving our oceans ... and he is moving the water in our bathtubes too! some candles, some cafe del mar music, a natural sponge (oh yes, those sponges have absolutly incredible power. the science is just at the beginng with research about natural sponges.) and perfect is the situation to go into a deeeeep meditation. I thought about eight or nine different things and let all the dirt in the water. not just my body ... also my soul felt clean after that bath.
and now I´m burning some things on a hot coal. I have about 80 different roots, leaves, resins, balms,... here. (if you know the power of a j*int, then you should try those things! not just Cleopatra was in love with that stuff <3 ) today I burn Elemi (a resin against bad energies), amber (some luxury for that supermoon night) and Patchouly (you may know it from parfums. and yes! it is for an erotic purpose, but also to bring the body and soul back on the ground/earth). normally I wanted also burn Himalaya cedar (for power), but I can´t find it*
then I will cut my nails on my fingers and toes. it would also be a good day to cut or shave hairs. let yourself go into a new period of your life ... after that full-moon night.

if you have questions, pls ask me. best on an open studio wednesday. you can talk with me always about art, but about spiritual stuff too ... and OH! of course also about cooking and baking cakes =P

enjoy supermoon ... feel it ... and take it <3 LOVE <3

15th nov: THANK YOU for being the first four of the serie "100 portraits in oil on canvas Patrick Bartsch style*" LOVE YOU 4ever <3 Nathan <3 Krista <3 Mario <3 John <3

16th nov: THANK YOU for being in the serie "100 portraits in oil on canvas Patrick Bartsch style" love you forever <3 Matt <3 Johnny <3 Florian <3

18th nov: <3 one painting in oil on canvas Patrick Bartsch style FOR FREE for eeeeveryone <3

in numbers: in my beginner years I produced more than 500 paintings in oil on canvas. 120 got sold. and now I want to give away as present about 200. if you missed the text I posted yesterday ... I put it again here in the comments*
you can also bring friends here <3 please help me to empty my storage ... to have space for my new paintings which I plan to create in 2017* :*

18th nov: buuuuuusy checking out latest SADO OPERA videos on youtube* WHAT A GLAMOROUS GLITZY BAAAAAND <3 :* :* :*

19th nov: ^^ 200 paintings for free ^^

so far ONE friend came here to pick up his "early christmas present". I´m very happy that he came here <3 and at the same time I´m wondering why no one else came here so far* ... are my early paintings thaaaat much bad :( ... if no one comes here to pick them up till end of december ... then ... then ... theeeeen I WILL EAT THEM =D

19th nov: busy working on my new book "the story of Master Patrick" ... just brought 765 ... seven hundred sixty five ... photograhies in the right size. ... and now I put them in the right chapter. and YES! I let them aaaaaaallllll in the book. it´s not a printed book ... it will be a book in the internet and HERE is enough space for 765 photographies of Berlin of the years 2003 - 2014* <3

19th nov: Patrick´s inner monolgues: a life to the extreme ... that´s the life I´ve chosen and that´s the life I want to life.
exactly one year ago I spent every moment possible in Berlin´s most infamous bar "BULL". between october 2015 and september 2016 I named that bar my living room ... up to four times a week ... up to 20 hours non-stop. I did those things there, which people do there ... I took those dr*gs there, which people take there. It felt like diving in the pinkest cloud ever. I enjoyed every moment and was aware about the danger too.
in september 2016, when almost I burnt down my flat ... I decided to change my life. since that time I haven´t been at BULL once ... didn´t drink one drop of alcohol ... and no dr*gs too. I became that again ... what is a huge part of nature: a workaholic. being busy makes me happy and gives me the possibility not to think about things ... things I don´t want to think about.
I feel good and healthy. I´m happy that I "survived" those months of being out of control. I wanted to know it. I wanted to know what it means to party hard on the edge. and now I know it.
it´s saturday night ... exactly 10.41 p.m. I will go to bed soon ... so I´m able to wake up early tomorrow ... and continue working.

20th nov: busy working on my new book "the story of Master Patrick" ... it´s not thaaaat much easy to handle 765 photographies and 22 chapters* love them aaaaalllll <3 :* <3

21st nov: now in the 8th week doing workout at home on a daily basis* ... and yes! I have fun while doing it :)

21st nov: okokok* caaaaaan´t hide the news* someone <3 veeeeery special woooonderful <3 wants to have ... in any case ... the book "the story of Master Patrick" as PRINTED version in english and german. ... and he´s doing everything to make that happen! ISN´T THAT WONDERFUL <3 :* <3

22nd nov: busy working on my new book "the story of Master Patrick" ... wonderful Rosa von Praunheim <3 belongs to the first people who believed in me as artist ... when I came new to Berlin ... we worked together in different projects and he allowed me to portrait him <3

23rd nov: so far ... aaaaaaalll of the christmas cockies which I made today got burned *hmmmpppfff* ... I hope I can make some not burned ones till 3 p.m. when the open studio starts ... *ggrmmmllllhpffs*

but the burned ones tastes delicious* ... I will eat them

24th nov: <3 Happy Thanksgiving <3

I´m thankful for being healthy*
I´m thankful that my parents support my way*
I´m thankful that I may life in Berlin*
I´m thankful to be sober since about two months*
I´m thankful for every little step to go*
I´m thankful that yesterday a professional bodybuilder visited me and helped me how to do workouts right at home*
I´m thankful that I may work on those two projects: the book and the 100 portraits*
I´m thankful that I may life a life as artist*
I´m thankful to be a painter*

<3 Happy Thanksgiving to eeeeeveryone <3

24th nov: busy working on my new book "the story of Master Patrick" ... I did eeeeeverything for money ... when I came new to Berlin* ... at the long nights of the museums ... in the gay museum ... body painting by Alexander von Agoston <3 ... I think that was in 2005 ... and YES! in the book there will be the uncensored version* :*

25th nov: ^^ Null Prozent Zinsen ^^

WAS habe ich da heute im Fernsehen gesehen? Null Prozent Zinsen auf Bargeldguthaben bei Deutschen Banken!
Das macht bei einer geschätzten Vierprozentigen Inflation ein garantiertes Minusgeschäft. Wie sagte der Moderator treffend "Jedermanns Geld wird aufgefressen ohne das man etwas dafür tut."
... und zu diesem Zeitpunkt möchte ich als Alternative AUCH die Investition in Kunst ins Spiel bringen. Also die Gewinnerwartungen in meinem Fall sind auf jeden Fall gegeben. So wie ich Kunst präsentiere ... auf eine schrille, aggressive Art (weil mir das so einfach Spaß macht), wird man garnicht darum herumkommen ... um vor allem nach meinem Tod (wann auch immer das sein mag) ... daß der Kunstwelt klar wird was ich da eigentlich in Berlin getrieben habe UND dazu (geplante) mehrere tausend (mittlerweile bin ich bei über 500) Gemälde in Öl auf Leinwand hinterlassen habe. Die Gesellschaft (und besonders die Inhaber von meinen Gemälden) werden sich über Geschichten wie, daß ich "200 Gemälde zum Verschenken angeboten hatte und so gut wie niemand eines abholte..." ... krumm lachen. Ja, das werden die Geschichten sein welche dafür verantwortlich sein werden daß meine Gemälde in Zukunft ... vermutlich garantiert ... um einiges mehr wert sein werden als die 30 bis 40 euro (für die meisten), welche ich heute ... dieser Tage ... dafür verlange. Somit bekommt man wohl (höchstwahrscheinlich) für meine Kunst mehr Zinsen als auf der Bank ...

... und JA! diese kleinen Facebookgeschichten ... wie diese ... schreibe ich auch ... um die Leser in der Zukunft ... in 20 ... 40 ... 80 ... 150 Jahren zu unterhalten und ihnen Freude zu bereiten :) ... und somit geht auch ein lieber Gruß und "KUSS" an meine Leser in der Zukunft <3 :*

26th nov: ^^ PJ HARVEY ^^

live on ARTE-TV now* ... I don´t understand her music, but I´m open-minded to get her* PJ Harvey was Brian-Tennessee Claflin´s ultimative idol when it was about music. this fact makes her a part of my life. when Brian was alive I was wondering why it´s her!? and also tonite I wonder why it´s her!? I will continue listening to her music and will also go to a concert (whenever one will be somewhere) ... and I will ask myself ... perhaps forever ... why it´s her ... who made it as Brian´s ulimative idol*
I like her but I´m not able to understand her ...

<3 PJ Harvey now live on arte tv <3

26th nov: Patrick Bartsch´s wisdom:
^^ the three steps of success ^^ ... and they are ok the way they are*

first one: people laughed about me*. when I started wearing my mask in public, then a looooot of people have been laughing about me. that was ok, because they made me feel that they realize me. only with "good friends" it was a little bit painful when they laughed about me. but my most important people stood with me. ... aaand could be something more fun, than people such as wonderful Tilda Swinton laughed with me together*

second step: people ignored me*. of course not everyone, but in general I got ignored. by people around me, by media, ... this happened about the past three years. but also that was ok, because after years people laughed about me ... I enjoyed the silence which happened when getting ignored.

and now I´m reaching the third step: people fighting against me*. ... and also that step is ok, because after those years of silence ... I´m really ready for some action ... I have enough power to fight and discuss about my way of art and life. of course not everyone is fighting against me, but the first crowd is already on the start against me ... I can feel it/them already ... and actually I can´t wait for them to come* ... means to me: 2017 and probably also 2018 and even 2019 will be my years to fight and discuss.

... and when I made all those steps, then I´m finally ready for some easy relaxed and chilled success*

what I want you to tell with that story, is: every step has his reason to happen and the reason is good. don´t fear the way to success! just go! laughing is fun ... the silence after is good too ... and the fighting thing set´s all your power free which one you gained while getting ignored.

Enjoy life* Enjoy success*

<3

27th nov: 2016: a young man is wearing a skirt and people freeeeaaaaak out^^ pls read the comments^^ my opinion is of course: <3 let everyone life as someone wants to life ( Jaden Smith )

27th nov: "Männerakte sind selten in der Kunstgeschichte. wenn sie welche haben, bitte rüberschicken. da freuen wir uns!" sagt die Monopol Chefredakteurin Elke Buhr am Ende dieses Audiovideos*

Sososo ... dann meeeeeehr Männerakte liebe Künstlerkollegen/innen

<3 :*

27th nov: REAL PUNK !?

Patrick Bartsch´s opinion about: "Joe Corré burning Punk stuff worth millions"
REAL PUNK would have been: to sell all that stuff and giving that money to homeless hungry punks.
burning stuff makes no difference! BUT giving 100 euro/pounds/dollar to a homeless hungry punk DOES!
and because almost no one does it: THIS WOULD HAVE BEEN PUNK ... REAL PUNK!

28th nov: after the visit of a professional bodybuilder ... now I know how to do workout right at home* 9th week*

28th nov: <3 Truman Capote <3 inspired me to do readings while writing the book. he did it while writing his book "In cold blood".
it will be the first reading in my life and it will be the first for my new book "the story of Master Patrick"
<3 Everyone <3 is welcomed* see you soon <3 :*

28th nov: Truman Capote loves me <3

exactly 50 years ago ... on 28th nov 1966 ... the PARTY OF THE CENTURY happened in New York City ^^ it was Truman´s party ... named "Black & White Ball" ... a party where eeeeveryone needed to wear a mask. <= some hours ago I had no idea about that fact!
I just discovered it because I will do my first reading in two days. a reading which is happening because some days ago I realized that Truman Capote gave readings before he finished his book "in cold blood". I wanted to know more about that man "TRUMAN CAPOTE". this is why I check him out since hours on youtube, wikipedia, arte,...
so far the only thing I knew about him was that he did parties with Andy Warhol at Studio54 and that he wrote "breafast at Tiffany´s".

While doing research today ... I realized why Truman is one of the most fabulous and important writers of America ... or better: the whole world!

it´s really mysterious that while discovering Truman ... I find out that he gave exactly TODAY ... 50 years ago ... the PARTY OF THE CENTURY in New York City ... and eeeeeeven the party was about everyone wearing a mask. ... and I´m working right now on a book which has as main theme: a BLACK & a GOLDEN MASK^^

perhaps you know that I´m veeeeery into mediation and universal energies stuff. all those coherencies today ... tell me one thing: that Truman Capote´s ghost and soul is veeeeeery close with me while working on that book "the story of Master Patrick" ... or perhaps he just wants me to realize: that he loves the book*

"THANX TRUMAN <3 for that awesome day with you today ... and when you have time ... then pls join the first reading I will do (because of your inspiration) in two days ... on wednesday 7.30 p.m. in my studio :* "

28th nov: Patrick´s inner monolgues:

in two days I will have the first reading in my whole life. talking in front of people has been a nightmare for me, when I needed to do that in school. I stumbled, sweat, have been unable to concentrate, ... but my years at school happened maaaaany years ago and a lot of things have changed since then.

this wednesday will be a day which I will remember my whole life. it will be a very special moment, such as I had the first time a full page story in a magazine, my face on the cover of book, my first exhibition in Berlin, my first exhibition with my paintings, the first time speaking in a microphone in front of 50 000 people, the first night sitting at the door of PORKparty, the first night in my own flat, ... ... and the first reading will belong to those highlights of my life too.
most of all I will do it for myself ... it doesn´t matter how many guests will join that event ... it´s not about a "number" ... it´s about to happen!
till wednesday I will do nothing else than preparing myself. today I relaxed and enjoyed my day with the work and life of Truman Capote. tomorrow I plan to bake some vanilla cookies. will take a looooong hot bath. will do some meditation. and nothing else. all of wednesday will belong to the reading. preparing my flat and studio. will choose the right cloths to wear. and will do eeeeeverything to be completly relaxed till 7.30 p.m. ... when the reading starts. I will film some minutes of that reading ... for the people who can´t join the reading and for myself to have a nice memory in the future*

29th nov: "morgen: Lesung ORIGINAL *Berliner Art*. in seinem privaten Künstleratelier liest der Maler Patrick Bartsch erstmals aus seinem in Arbeit befindlichen Buch "Die Geschichte des Master Patrick". Vorbild für diese Lesung während das Buch noch in Arbeit ist ... ist niemand geringerer als einer der bedeutendsten Schriftsteller des 20. Jhdts: Truman Capote, welcher ebenso den Tatsachenroman begründete und auch hiermit die Basis für Bartsch´s Buch "Die Geschichte des Master Patrick" setzte. Ein Tatsachenroman über die glamourösen Nullerjahre Berlins.
Auf jeden Fall eine Lesung welcher man beiwohnen sollte, wenn man an dem Schaffen in Berlin ansässiger Kreativer interessiert ist."

<= so oder so ähnlich sollte es in einer Berliner Zeitung stehen*

29th nov: ^^ Tatsachenroman ^^

Mein ganzes Leben lang durfte ich tun was ich wollte. Ich war immer in all meinen Entscheidungen vollkommen frei. Das bedeutete aber auch, daß ich meist äusserst unbedarft in neue Themen meines Lebens hineinschlitterte. Ich machte mir nie einen Kopf über etwas was ich neu beginnen wollte. Der typische Medikamentenbeipacktextleseverweigerer. Meist erst in meinem neuen Umfeld hatte ich damit begonnen mich mit der aktuellen Thematik auseinanderzusetzen. Somit habe ich vieles ... sehr vieles in meinem Leben begonnen ... und sehr vieles davon nach meist kurzer Zeit wieder beendet. Jedoch ein paar Dinge sind geblieben. Ich zog neu nach Berlin und wußte nichts mit dem Begriff "Preussen" anzufangen. Fing an mit Öl auf Leinwand zu malen und wußte nicht mal wie man richtig mit einem Pinsel in Farbe eintaucht. Jetzt arbeite ich an einem Buch. Schreiben tue ich schon lange. Immer wieder mal etwas. Genau genommen liegen neben "Kleinkrams" wie etwa 30 Liedtexte, unzählige Gedichte, Kurzgeschichten, ... sogar vier unveröffentlichte Buchmanuskripte in meinem Lager. Mit dem Buch "Die Geschichte des Master Patrick" werde ich einen Teil dieser Manuskripte mit dem neuen Buch, welches ich bereits als Buchskelett fertig geschrieben habe, zusammenfügen. Somit sind bereits etwa 500 Seiten quasi fertig. Nun ist es aber bedeutend komplizierter und zeitaufwendiger fünf Manuskripte schreibtechnisch ineinanderzuschieben, als vielleicht ein komplett Neues zu schreiben. Jedoch habe ich mich bereits für erstere Variante entschieden. Das Einarbeiten von über 1000 Fotos, von welchen ich 99,9 Prozent selbst fotografiert habe, erschwert die Fertigung dieses Buches.
OH! Ich bin wohl etwas vom eigentlichen Thema abgeweicht. "Tatsachenroman". Das Buch "Die Geschichte des Master Patrick" wird ein TATSACHENROMAN! Bis gestern kannte ich diesen Begriff überhaupt nicht. Bisher beschrieb ich dieses Buch immer lapidar als "ein Buch über Berlin", was es ja schließlich auch ist. Jedoch jetzt eine Kategorie gefunden zu haben, welche zu den Schwierigsten in der Literatur gehört, hat mich erstaunt. So wie ich über alles erstaunt war, welches ich lernte als ich ohne jeglicher Vorkenntnisse in eine Thematik eintauchte. Ich bin begeistert über alles was ich bisher neu über Preussen lernen durfte und über alles was mit Öl auf Leinwand zu tun hat und auf eine gewisse Weise ganz neu ... jetzt: Die Literatur.
Zu wissen, daß "Die Geschichte des Master Patrick", welches einen bedeutenden Zeitraum Berlins beschreibt, zu dem Genre der Tatsachenromane gehört, fordert mich neu heraus. Die relativ kurze Liste der Tatsachenromane auf Wikipedia hat es in sich: "Der Kampf ums Matterhorn", Capote´s "Kaltblütig", "Schindlers Liste", ... Ich bin mir dessen bewußt, daß meine Thematik die Größe besitzt um eventuell eines Tages ebenso in diese Liste der Tatsachenromane auf Wikipedia aufgenommen zu werden und ich werde alles dafür tun. ... was nichts anders bedeutet: als mein Bestes dafür zu geben. Capote arbeitete sechs Jahre an "Kaltblütig" und ich werde mir wohl auch Zeit nehmen ... müssen ... um dieses Werk ordentlich fertigzubringen. zwei bis drei Jahre ... vielleicht vier ... oder sogar mehr. Genau deshalb gebe ich bereits jetzt schon Lesungen zu meinem Buch um über den laufenden Stand zu informieren, Fragen zu beantworten und um die Wartezeit kürzer erscheinen zu lassen.

und wer es bis hierher geschafft hat diesen Text zu lesen, der/die wird sich dann bestimmt auch über das ganze Buch freuen* Danke Sehr* ... und viellecht ja bis Morgen ... zur ersten Lesung*

29th nov: Ich habe beschlossen, daß "Die Geschichte des Master Patrick" nicht nur ein Buch werden soll ... sondern ein Werk. Das ist das Mindeste an Dankeschön was ich dieser Stadt Berlin und all den wunderbaren Menschen welche mir hier seit 2003 begegnet sind und mir die Zeit meines Lebens bescherten, zurückgeben kann.

Das sind große Worte meinerseits, aber wie hat es meine erste große Liebe vor 21 Jahren so schön ausgedrückt: "Der Grund weshalb ich mich in dich verliebt hatte ... war ... weil du das tust was du sagst."

OH* ... und jetzt bin ich doch taaaaatsächlich etwas aufgeregt wegen der ersten Lesung meines Lebens ... morgen abend*

und ja! die Lesung findet in deutscher Sprache statt. Natürlich mit englischer Erklärung für etwaige rein englisch sprechende Gäste*

<3

30th nov: Meine heutige Lesung wird einleitend mit folgendem Text beginnen:

"Mit einer leichten Sprechstörung, wessen Ursprung wohl in meiner überdimensional großen ... langen wie breiten ... Zunge zu finden war, welche sich meist unförmig im Gaumenraum bewegte, bevorzugte ich es mein Leben lang eher die Position des Zuhörers einzunehmen. Diese Jahrzehnte des Zuhörens kommen mir jetzt beim Schreiben zu gute. Weiters bin ich dazu verstärkter Legastheniker, welches bedeutet, daß ich mich beim Verzählen ... *ähmmm* ich meine natürlich "Erzählen" oft vertue und dies meist eine sprachliche Korrektur verlangt. Beim Schreiben tue ich mir mit den Korrekturen einfacher, da diese hier lediglich mir, ohne jegliche Zeugen, auffallen."

30th nov: positiver Nebeneffekt dessen, daß ich mich jetzt auch öffentlich zur Schriftstellerei bekenne ist: Das ich jetzt endlich besten Gewissens so schreiben und sprechen kann wie ich dieses möchte* ... vorbei die Schatten der Vergangenheit wie mein Deutschlehrer welcher es hasste meine ewiglangen Sätze lesen zu müssen und es mir schlichtweg untersagte lange Sätze in Aufsätzen zu schreiben. ... und ebenso die Aufforderungen mancher Gesprächspartner welche mich immer wieder ermahnten "nicht immer so geschwollen daher zu reden".
JETZT als Nebenbeischriftsteller ... darf ich das! Es gehört nun zu meinem Stil lange Sätze zu formulieren und diese dazu noch "geschwollen" zu kreieren.

Es lebe mein neues Leben! <3

30th nov: Patrick Bartsch´s Offenes Atelier ist jetzt geöffnet* Die Lesung beginnt pünktlich um 19.30 h* jede(r) ist herzlich willkommen <3

30th nov: Heute war die erste Lesung. Da ich während der Lesung so sehr beschäftigt war, daß ich zu filmen vergaß, habe ich jetzt noch schnell ein Video erstellt um die heutige Stimmung festzuhalten. Danke Sehr an alle <3

30th nov: First public reading of the book "the story of Master Patrick" Thank You a loooot to all guests <3 love you <3

1st dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 1 * <3 THOMAS <3 there were two important THOMAS in my life: both straight and with both I´ve been in love <3 one has been my best friend for about 25 years and with the other one I spent one of the best and most intense month of my life ... yes* just one ... only one month!
with both THOMAS I broke up the contact, because I loved them too much. It hurt myself. I couldn´t get out of my skin. But I´m veeeeery happy and thankful for each day and each moment I spent with them together* Thank You <3 Thomas <3

1st dec: Patrick´s Innere Monologe:
"modernisch"
was ist bitteschön "modernisch"?
Antwort: so etwas ähnliches wie "FREAKISCH".

<= Nein! das muß man jetzt nicht verstehen! "modernisch" gehört zur Kindersprache. Ich habe es als Kind kreiert und meine Mutter erklärte mir, daß es dieses Wort nicht gibt!
... und als lebenslanger VOLLSTURANARCHIST sage ich jetzt eben "DOCH meine allerliebste Mama <3 ! modernisch gibt es! ... und zwar ab jetzt mehrfach in meinem neuen Buch "Die Geschichte des Master Patrick"! ... und dazu sogar noch "UNMODERNISCH"!

=D <3 :*

1st dec: Vielleicht die wichtigste Lektion meines Lebens, welche mir meine geliebte Mama <3 lehrte:

Ich war etwa 12 ... oder vielleicht auch nur 11 oder sogar 10 Jahre jung. Ging in einem Abstand von ein paar Metern Entfernung mit meiner Mama und meinem Stiefvater spazieren. Es war es sonniger Tag in der Stadt Graz wo nach der Trennung meiner Eltern ... meine Mama mit mir hingezogen war. Es war eigentlich immer alles in Ordnung mit meiner Mama, meinem Stiefvater und mir. An diesem Tag spazierten wir zusammen durch die Stadt ... so wie wir es manchmal anfangs taten. Es passierte auf einem breiten hellgrauen von der Sommerhitze ausgetrockneten Gehweg zwischen einer vierspurigen Hauptstraße und einem großen Autohaus. Wir spazierten relativ rasch, wobei ich es nicht versäumte immer wieder in Richtung der glänzenden Audi Neuwagen im Schaufenster zu sehen. Solche Autohäuser gab es in dem 8000 Einwohnerdorf mitten im Hochschwarzwald wo ich bis zu meinem achten Lebensjahr lebte, nicht. Ich war im Wald glücklich, aber in dieser Stadt Graz mit ihren über 260 000 Einwohnern ebenso. Ich lachte viel als Kind und sprang auch etwas herum. Aber nicht so viel wie andere Kinder, da ich eher ein ruhiges Kind war. Während dem Spazierengehen sah ich natürlich ebenso immer wieder zu meiner Mama und beobachtete wie mein Stiefvater dabei war etwas in meine Richtung zu rufen, wobei sogleich meine Mama ihn am Arm packte um ihn von seinem Vorhaben energisch abzuhalten.

*DOOOOOOONNNNGGGGGG* ein schier unerträglich starker Schmerz durchfuhr meinen Schädel und ließ beinahe meinen ganzen Körper zusammensacken. Ich war gegen einen dieser riesigen viereckigen Stahlpfeiler dieses Autohauses ... schlichtweg ... gerannt! Mit schmerzverzehrtem Gesicht blickte ich in Richtung meiner Mama und sah wie diese bestimmend zu ihrem Partner sagte: "Sonst lernt er es nie!".
Die Beule welche aufzog war riiiieeeeesig und irgendwie fühle ich diesen Knall heute noch welcher seitlich auf die Stirnseite meines Schädels passierte.

Meine Mutter lehrte mir, daß ich mich durch nichts ablenken lassen darf und wenn ich die Dinge welche sich in meinem Weg befinden rechtzeitig erkenne, dann wird die Chance um ein vielfaches geringer sein, daß mir etwas passiert. Zumindest etwas welches ich mit vorausschauendem Blick in der Lage bin zu umgehen.

Meine Mama ist ein wundervolle Mama und ich Danke ihr von ganzem Herzen für ihre Erziehung, welche bis heute noch andauert.

2nd dec: Let's talk about art, baby
Let's talk about you and me
Let's talk about all the good things
And the bad things that may be
Let's talk about art
Let's talk about art
Let's talk about art
Let's talk about art

2nd dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 2 * <3 TINA <3
Truman Capote had her
Karl Lagerfeld had her ("had" because she died some years ago)
maaaaaany others have her
and I have her too*
that one female best friend since eeeeeever*
"ever" means here 28 years
literally in good and bad times
always <3 TINA <3

3rd dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 3 * <3 MATHIAS <3 there exist two important Mathias in my life* both are blond* the one is my older half brother* I saw him just two times in my life ... never talked to him ... but the day will come when we will meet eachother and talk* ... the other Mathias is a supertalented and wonderful artist friend* I´m very happy and thankful for having him in my life* <3 MATHIAS <3

4th dec: INTERNET + MORMON CHURCH + MY ART

how do those things fit together!?
before the internet appeared on that planet ... people have been left alone with their pain, joy, sorrows, dreams, ... It wasn´t possible to say those things loud in public ... in a bus or in a park or on the street. BUT in churches it was possible to talk about such things. My mother became mormon, when I was a teenager and she took me sometimes to the mormon church. I was phascinated about that how every church service started: everyone who wants to do it ... can go "on stage" ... and in front of all the church members and talk loudly and in public about their pain, joy, sorrows, dreams, ... . And because EVERYONE does it ... it is normal to do that. those moments bring the members of the church together on a very intense way ... and in a veeeeeeery good way.
with the internet WE ALL have now the possibility to do that too! with the internet it is possible now! for everyone! and when we all do it ... it will makes us feel better ... and for sure CHANGE THE WORLD! we just need to get used to do it! I´m kind of "trained" with that and when you read my postings sometimes and look at my art ... then you will realize exactly THAT open talking about my pain, joy, sorrows, dreams, ... I do that because I believe in the good thing about that and want to motivate other people to do it the same way.
we don´t need a building of a church to love eachother! we should see the whole world as our church and the internet as a new tool to make that world better <3

today I mentioned the name of my doctor, which is <3 Heiko <3 he does a wonderful job with me since more than 10 years ... and I´m not easy to handle as patient ... with all my ups and downs.
This year I create an advent calender where I will paint each day a name of someone who made my life better* and I want to thank those people and want other to know that wonderful peopel exist ... by telling their names <3 ... 20 more names to follow till 24th of december <3

4th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 4 * <3 HEIKO <3 YES! my doctor since more than 10 years in Berlin* of course Heiko belongs to the most important names in my life* ... and he does a GREAT job^^ THANK YOU <3 HEIKO <3

5th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 5 * <3 PATRICK <3 my ex boyfriend :* he showed me what glamour in Paris means: private castles, private luxury boats, ... and even a ride with a Rolls Royce in Paris* he was 23 y.o. and I was 19 y.o. * GLAM <3 PATRICK <3 my ex :*

5th dec: <3 10th week <3 doing workout at home on a daily basis* "it´s just a ride" :*

5th dec: " Ich kann Kunst. " ^^WHOOOUUUIOIIIII^^Geistesblitz^^ ... ist mir doch soeben meine neue Philosophie in den Kopf geschossen^^ ... "Ich kann Kunst." gefällt mir ja besser als "Kunst liebt." (welche ich seit 13 Jahren bisher hatte). "Kunst liebt." klingt ja doch sehr allgemein ... aber "Ich kann Kunst." hat einfach etwas seeeeehr persönliches. und JA! ich finde diese neue Philosophie passt zu mir*
"Ich kann Kunst."

wie ich darauf gekommen bin? : ganz einfach: nachdem ich die ganze Nacht gearbeitet hatte, jetzt noch etwas Sport, ein kleines Gemälde und ein Selbstportrait erstellt habe, ... hatte ich mich gerade ins Bett gelegt und mir die Frage gestellt, was ich denn eigentlich kann!? nach ein paar Minuten Verzweiflung, weil mir nichts eingefallen ist, was ich wirklich kann ... ist mir auf einmal "Ich kann Kunst!" als Gedankenblitz in den Kopf geschossen ...

5th dec: "Was ist Kunst?"

... und weil´s gerade so schön ist, ist mir doch auch gleich die Antwort auf die Frage aller Fragen eingefallen: "Was ist Kunst?"

Antwort: Im Moment in sich selbst und in/im anderen das Beste zu erkennen und diese Erkenntnis wahrnehmbar (sichtbar/hörbar/fühlbar/riechbar/schmeckbar/...) umzusetzen.
Das ist Kunst.

"Ich kann Kunst."

5th dec: <3 christmas stories <3 part one*

tomorrow I will visit an older straight couple original Berlin style* they are poor, but they like to smoke a looooot ... chain smoking* it´s always veeeery smoky in their living room. they are very nice and make me laugh many times. I will bring them a little painting as christmas present and will tell them that on the painting they see the ocean, blue sky and some flowers growing on a stone.
But in reality it is a painting of a grey Berlin street, where some flowers grew out of a hole and in the back there is a blue wall.
My paintings are not always about reality ... sometimes they are about dreams. and I want that couple to look at that little painting and makes them dream ... dream of something ... perhaps they will never see in reality in their whole life.

6th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 6 * <3 KERSTIN <3 I had some girlfriends and with Kerstin I have been together longest ... for about six months* she was 30 y.o. and I was 19 y.o. ... she looked like a fat woman jumped out of a Rubens painting. we had sex almost every day* she was awesome <3 KERSTIN <3

6th dec: <3 christmas stories <3 part two*

today I brought 23 of my paintings to my doctors Dr. Heiko and Dr. Arne Jessen and the whole team <3
they take care about my health since 12 years. and I wasn´t always easy to handle. it´s the minimum ... to give them some of my paintings as present. that´s my way to say THANK YOU to my wonderful doctors

6th dec: my paintings look perfect to me, when ... I´m able to imagine appearing them in a Luchino Visconti movie*

7th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 7 * <3 GUNTHER <3 my mentor <3 literally he picked me up from the street at the age of 19. he was part of the Austrian high society. friend of Falco, Luchino Visconti, ... he teached me that the basis for everything is: STYLE^^ he teached me how to talk, to dress, to eat, to organize dinner invitations, create parties, ... and to believe in myself by knowing my own worth. Gunther died three years ago, but he continues living in me ... by creating a big part of me* <3

7th dec: art is: "At the moment, seeing the best in oneself and in others, and translating these insights into something perceptible (visual, audible or palpable), that is art."

*whoooouuuuiiiii* I love that quote which one I created yesterday* I want to get remembered by words like those*
THANK YOU Jason Harrell <3 for that peeeeerfect english translation* love it <3

7th dec: yes, it´s true ... I´m on my way to create a brandnew person out of me^^ that means:
the way I talk will be different
the way I look like will be different
the way I dress myself will be different
the places I go out will be different
the style of my art will be different
my paintings will look different
my flat will look different
people who met me before will not recognize me ...
... even I will not recognize myself.

8th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 8 * <3 INGE <3 my lovely aunt <3 may she rest in peace <3 she made things happening for me ... which my parents couldn´t afford. when my aunt took me in a restaurant, then I was allowed to order a steak or a second piece of cake. in those moments she gave me the feeling of being "special" as human being. I´m very glad that I had her in my life <3 INGE <3

8th dec: chicken soup, drinking a lot of tea, whole day laying in bed and couch, cancelled appointments, not able to meet my beautiful lover, ... OH* it seems that I got sick :(

9th dec: "Berghain doesn´t fit to Berlin" <= yes, that´s my personal opinion. A place which JUDGES people by their faces! by their bodies! by their outfits!
That´s exactly the opposite of that what my art is teaching. Everybody deserves to be loved! Everybody deserves that their dreams become true! Everybody deserves to get treated as everyone else!
always ... I was and always I will be ... against actions which ones part of it is that some people are "not good enough".
Berlin is the city of love and Berghain is teaching the opposite.
"Berghain doesn´t fit to Berlin"

9th dec: btw did I mention aaaalready that my new moooost favorite song ... which I listen several times eeeeevery day ... is <3 Molly Nilsson´s <3 new song "Think Pink" :* LOVE IT <3

9th dec: Love Parade vs. Berghain

this is just my opinion: Love Parade turned Berlin into the ultimative city of love <3 when Love Parade left Berlin in 2003. Berlin got left in a state of shock. that was the moment for Berghain to grow and make itself the ultimative club of Berlin ... in the world. Berghain did profit by that what the Love Parade built up. But at the same time Berghain has been the complete opposite of everything what the Love Parade ever meant.
it´s time to bring the LOVE back the Berlin <3
<3 LOVE <3 the real reason why I moved to Berlin in october 2003. now we are soon in 2017 and it´s time that the sun of love rises again over Berlin <3

9th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 9 * <3 ALEXANDER <3 OOOOOH* I met a bunch of wonderful Alexanders in my life* pls let me mention those two perfect beautiful sexy Alexanders from my time at school. and that wonderful artdealer Alexander who believed in my art as almost no one did it when I started to paint in oil on canvas (he died in 2015. may he rest in peace <3 ) Alexanders have many faces ... and I love aaaaall of them <3 :* <3 ALEXANDER <3

10th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 10 * <3 ROMAN <3 the first BIG LOVE of my life <3 I will aaaaalways love him <3 ROMAN <3

10th dec: my reaction about my BERGHAIN posting from yesterday ( I made two, and now I´m talking about the one titled "Berghain doesn´t fit to Berlin" ): I CAN´T BELIEVE IT, THAT ... IN BERLIN ... I REALLY HAVE TO DISCUSS ABOUT IT, WHEN IT IS ABOUT <3 L O V E <3 pls read the comments there! ... but I´m very happy that most my friends understand me and know what I´m talking about <3 Thank You <3 :* <3

10th dec: con.troll.ed yo.utu.be ... finally I understand it!

some years ago ... when I was around with my black leather mask ... I created videos on yo.utu.be. I had one video where I was sitting in my bathtube, wearing my black leather mask. it got watched about 20000 times within some days. not even my butt was to see there. but the video disappeared ... got deleted by yo.utu.be. I never really understood why, but accepted it. in the past years I heard many such stories from other people who had fast growing videos there as well and they got deleted too.
all facts show, that yo.utu.be controls WHO has success there. they control WHO becomes popular there. obviously I did belong to those people, they didn´t want to reach a bigger audience there.
I forgot about that story ... but today it came to my minds again and it made me realize how it works ... when we are con.troll.ed ...

11th dec: * I got broken *

I got broken that many times in my life ... that meanwhile ... almost ...I don´t feel it anymore when something/someone breaks me.
I got broken by society, by public and private media, by best friends, by famous and rich people, by poor people, by my own family, by my own life, by my fate, ...
But nothing has been able to stop me ... to continue going my way, believing in my dreams, continue working on my art.

(.... and I think this is because I´m a stubbern capricorn born one =D )

11th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 11 * <3 ODO <3 born almost at the same time ... our parents have been neighbours ... they layed us laughing babies together and photographed us: he red haired with very white skin and me dark haired with kind of brown skin. we grew up together, but our lives became that much different as we optically looked like. he lives a life as someone lives it as a straight man in a village in a forrest. and live a life how a freaky queer gay does it in a big city. but something will connect us forever <3 ODO <3

12th dec: 11th week ... the past 3 days I had a cold, therefore I did a break, but since today I continue again with my workouts on a daily basis at home*

12th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 12 * <3 RENÉ <3 the moooost important person during the age 14 - 19 ... YES! PUBERTY! ... within those years I lived in a college ... the whole week. not to talk about being gay was a nightmare, but if I would have talked about it my life there would have been HELL! René was in my class and we have been best friends. he was gay too and in similar situation as I was. we kept eachother strong and supported eachother to finish the college. the first three years have been the hardest. I remember how René thought about it to quite the college. but together we made till the graduation. he will aaaalways be in my heart <3 RENÉ <3

12th dec: :* did I mention already how much it makes me happy ... to see ... how my paintings travel ... they are non stop on a journey ... and I loooooove it <3 ... Los Angeles, New York, London, Prague, Vienna, ... and those are just some of the destinations I know about ... my paintings are like birds in the sky ... they are free <3

Thank You a lot <3

13th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 13 * <3 BRIAN <3 ... in 2007 ... 2008 ... in those years I was praying for a wonder to happen ... a wonder which should change my life. this wonder came and happened when Brian appeared in my life. in 2014 he died. may he rest is peace. my love <3 BRIAN <3

14th dec: *advent calendar 2016 in oil on canvas* * 14 * <3 PASCUAL <3 I knew almost nothing about art before I met him. and without him ... perhaps ... I would have never started to paint with oil on canvas. Thank You Forever <3 PASCUAL <3

 

 

PANSY presents HALLOWEEN at Südblock on 29th october2016
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GLITZY HALLOWEEN at Südblock

Pansy Presents Halloween at Südblock: ^^ BEST HALLOWEEN NIGHT EEEEEVER ^^ phantastic shows <3 bound with an aaaawesome Stevie Nicks (YES! Fleetwood Mac) night <3 fiiiiieeerce music by Jared Abbott <3 ... and when woooonderful Gieza Poke <3 took me to her show on stage A DREAM BECAME TRUE <3 THANX PANSY <3 and eeeeeeveryone <3 :* for THAT GLITZY GLAM PHANTASTIC HALLOWEEN NIGHT

yesterday it was halloween and I decided to go to a party of Brians´s loved friend Parker. Jared, one of Brians closest and longest friends invited me to come there. Jared did DJ that night and told me that it would also be a night dedicated to Fleetwood Mac´s singer Stevie Nicks. Fleetwood Mac has been one of Brian´s moooost favorite bands. he loved them and many times, when I think about Brian, then I listen at home to Fleetwood Mac.
I wasn´t sure about it ... to wear my golden mask, because I stopped wearing the mask with Brians death. only for very special moments (it were about a handful of them in the past 2 1/2 years) I wear it. on that halloween night I decided to wear it, because I was sure that Brian would have loved that party and somehow I had the feeling that ... on a way ... from veeery far away ... he also "organized" that party.
When I came there I found a place in a quiet corner and it didn´t last long, when someone next to me almost "whispered" in my direction "are you Patrick?". I answered "yes", but it needed a while till I recognized him, because he did wear a very wonderful extravagant halloween outfit. I was very happy to meet him, because we shared many beautiful moments together ... together with Brian. he continued talking ... with a slow, sad voice "good to see you again with mask. ... it has been a long time ago."

today I realized that for other people it feels like it happened a long time ago. but for me it feels like as if it was yesterday. I wasn´t able to find any distance ... from my years with Brian ... till now. I know that I have to learn to live without Brian, but it is very painful.

 

 

openings/presentations october 2016
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openings


in the past years I did a break ... almost stopped going to openings, presentations, exhibitions. I got lost with myself and wild partying in Berlin.

in september I decided to change my life:
I became sober
and started to follow invitations:

8th october and I felt being like being at home again ... with all those wonderful people <3 <3 <3

the first invitation which I followed was an AWESOME evening at Florian Hetz´s presentation of his new book "The Matter Of Absence" ... which took place at Berghain ... where some of his phantastic photographies were shown too.

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21st october: presentation of 2nd edition of KING KONG magazine

without any doubts Ali Kepenk (right) belongs to one of the best fashion photographers*
it was a special honor to me, when I got invited to that presentation*

wonderful evening where I met also my fabulous friend Tim Lienhard (left)

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22nd october: opening "WINNER TAKES ALL" by Christa Joo Hyun D´Angelo

^^WOOOOW^^ A MUST SHOW for eeeeeveryone who is interessted in horse riding sports

WHAT A STUNNING SHOW *applause* *applause*

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28th october: "South of Meaning"

first: ^^CONGRATULATIONS^^ to Travis Jeppessen (on the picture below)
for his brandnew Ph.D.

of course I followed that invitation of my oooold friend <3

together with Vivien Zhang
Travis invited for that evening
and besides showing his calligraphic artworks
he mesmerised us with his stories
about his latest journeys to Asia
and especially North Korea

and to meet there some other friends
such as Matt, Jannis, Bruce, Christa, Paul, Pietro, ...
made that evening PERFECT*

THANK YOU <3 :*

 

 

Instagram 2016
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^^ INSTAGRAM ADDICTED ^^

just in the past weeks I started to learn how to use a mobile phone with touchscreen ...

... and since about 10 days&nights I became completely phascinated by Instagram

pls find me there on my brandnew account: www.instagram.com/patrickbartschberlin

or click just HERE

 

 

selfies in october 2016
filed under THISISMYARTLIFE sports


selfies in 2016:
started with doing some exercise at home*

pls here the picture number one ... which one is aaaalways the funniest =D


okokok* how do you name that when men in their forties start to do SPORTS again!? =D it´s not a midlife-crisis *LOL* ... I just realized that I lost my physical power somewhere in the past decades* ... so I started today veeeery simple with 30 push-ups* and plan to continue on a daily basis from now on* ... and here you see picture number one* ( I know! the first picture is aaaalways the funniest =D )


<3 my mom <3 should find a STRONG BOY in Berlin when she is coming soon* I haven´t seen her since more than 2 1/2 years* ... now I´m in the 4th week doing exercises on a daily basis at home* my trainings weights are 4.745 kilogramm fabric coniditioner bottles =P


 

my studio october 2016
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my studio right now: laundry with 3 new finished paintings and 1 painting on progress and THE FIRST 4 backgrounds (they are laying under the laundry) for the serie "100 portraits" <3 and yes, I´m working in that room* :*


some impressions of my studio ... in october 2016

 

 

Patrick Bartsch *new paintings* serie "1974 - 2016"
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Patrick Bartsch - paintings


^^ swag ^^ life is a journey* ... 43 paintings for each different year of my life* ... and "1997" is already in L.A. ... as I said before "life is a journey" :) :* <3


I worked about 10 months on that serie*

 

------------------- price for each painting of that serie: 50 euro --------------------

 

 

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