mix posted on facebook:
may: ^^ THE ONE AND ONLY ^^ ... at the age of 20 ... he picked
my up from the streets of Vienna and teached me everything ...
everything about society ... about myself ... about life. actually
I knew literally nothing before I met him. Gunther was my mentor.
OMG WHAT A MAN <3 LOVE 4EVER <3
may: OMFG ONE OF THOSE FAAAAAMOUUUUUS AMERICAN PORNSTARS JUST
PASSED MY BALCONY =oP SEXY MASON WYLER <3 to my friends in
Berlin: BE PREPARED =D THIS WEEKEND COULD END UP HOOOOT =P
may: with those streethustlers in front of my balcony ... I feel
may: Patrick´s Inner Monologues: ^^ now I feel myself being
when I was a kid and teenager ... I felt like a puppet. I did
everything they told me and expected to do.
as early twen when I lived in Paris and Vienna ... I felt like
living a dream. I experienced the most beautiful things and the
worst nightmare. on a way ... everything what I experienced was
too much to handle.
as late twen I moved to Cologne. I wanted to escape from my own
life. I had a good life there, but I felt that everything I did
and what happened to me was completly wrong. it was just not me.
I lived a life which society expects to see.
in the early thirties I started to build up a new life in Berlin.
I choose different names and hided my face behind masks. while
hiding myself from society I started to get to know myself from
deep inside. I was shocked what was possible to do for me. I felt
like a circus attraction and I enjoyed it. I enjoyed the moment
without thinking one second about my own past and future.
in the late thirties I started to be me: with my real name, with
my face and my real passion. I started to paint.
now in the early forties ... I feel myself being that much real
as I never felt it before. and I don´t know if this is good
tears, which leave the eyes because of happiness ... are different
tears then other tears. they are little tears ... like little
drops ... they seem very light ... and they leave the eyes drop
by drop. those tears because of happiness seem to be that much
cute, that it seems, that they are happy just with themselves
... even if their lifetime lasts just for a second. those little
drops seem to smile.
when they fall down they are similar like sweating drops. it feels
cute when they land somewhere on the body or on cloths.
and there exist just few of them ... normally there are just about
five to ten of those tears. even if they are that much little
... they have the massive power and the energy to reach the whole
body ... every part of the soul.
tears of happiness happen very rare in a lifetime and it is worth
it to remember every time it happened.
thanks to that beautiful stranger who made it happen for me today*
may: I PROMISE
10 euros for a painting in oil on canvas size 30 x 24
20 euros for a painting in oil on canvas size 30 x 40
30 euros for a painting in oil on canvas size 40 x 50
there are about 350 paintings in oil on canvas here in my studio.
my studio is full ... I almost can´t move here anymore *aaarggghhhssss*
I have no gallery ... I have no art dealer around me ... I have
almost no connections to (art) magazines. pls let me say it that
way: the world doesn´t know of my existence as painter.
I want to paint ... and I want to continue to create more paintings
and other paintings ... and I feel more and more that my sovereignty
in style grows and grows.
I PROMISE that I will give my best to be a good painter &
I PROMISE that I work on it, that in some years you can sell my
paintings and with that money go on vacation somewhere
I hope, that I can sell this summer as many paintings as possible.
and if you like my paintings or just want to help me, then PLEASE
don´t hesitate and do it!
(OH! I think, that is a kind of an s.o.s. posting. ... and I
mean it that way*)
may: (comment for: How to get your life back after being depressed):
I´m one of them ... I´m not ashamed about it ... and
I´m on my way back since about 4 years. I think that one
is a good article*
may: Wenn heute Wahlen wären ...
dann wäre ich wohl ein Protestwähler.
Die SPD und Die Grünen, welche ich bisher wählte sind
für mich zur Zeit nicht wählbar.
Die CDU ist es auch nicht.
Somit bleibt nicht viel ...
Hr. Gregor Gysi habe ich vor einigen Jahren schonmal im Backstagebereich
des Berlin CSD beim Brandenburger Tor getroffen. Ich fühlte
mich mit ihm gut aufgehoben.
Die aktuellen Videos von Fr. Sarah Wagenknecht sehe ich mir gerne
auf facebook an und sie trifft mich mit ihren Worten, ihrer Stärke
und ihrer Schönheit.
die anderen Mitglieder der Linken sind mir nicht besonders vertraut,
aber ich würde wohl all meine Stimmen den Linken geben.
may: * HAPPY BIRTHDAY <3 to one of my mooooost favorite bodybuilders
here on fb: STEVE KRIS *
may: knows that I live at the right place in Berlin, when ...
the first Street Art Museum of Germany is planed to be opened
around the corner of my studio* I <3 BERLIN
may: " Handsome teacher
I´m gonna impatiently wait for your call.
Can´t wait to start painting!
Thanks for Everything
OH, obviously I reached a point in my life, when people ask me
to teach them. I think this is one of the biggest honors someone
can get. and YES! I also can´t wait to teach him and give
to a younger generation the knowledge I have.
may: ^^WZOOM^^WZOOM^^WZOOM^^TECHNO^^OIL ON CANVAS^^and^^PATRICK
YES! my booth at the lesbian gay streetparty will be close to
the Connection stage^^ YES! that´s the techno area of the
streetparty^^ and normally people such as Westbam <3 are playing
there^^ CAN´T WAIT THAT MY HEAD AND MY PAINTINGS GET HAMMERED
WITH TECHNO FOR A WHOOOOOLE WEEKEND =D I? TECHNO
see you there <3 :* <3
may: Patrick´s inner monologues: "of course I think
about my paintings. perhaps they should be painted more exactly
... or perhaps I should paint other motives. but I come always
to the same result: my paintings are wild and extreme as the life
in Berlin is. they are wild and extreme as my life is. they are
in every way authentic. and that fact makes them perfect the way
my paintings are."
may: jajaja, ich Klugscheisser =D aaaaaaber wenn jemand "seid"
und "seit" richtig auf fb schreibt, dann bin ich wirklich
beeindruckt. Denn gefühlte 90 % schreiben es falsch. es tut
einfach weh beim Lesen^^
also: ihr seid ...
und: seit 3 Jahren ...
jajaja, ich Klugscheisser =D
june: RONALDO IS GAY !!! <= is it thaaaat much difficult to
accept for that world in the year 2016 !? is it that Qatar is
the sponsor of Real Madrid !? a country where being gay is "illegal".
BUT Ronaldo is portuguese ... a country where it is not illegal
at all !!!
today in the news they showed what all the football players are
doing right now before the european soccer championship starts
... how everyone is together with their girlfriends and families.
but Ronaldo has fun with a bunch of guys on a private yacht ...
including his "special friend" from Morocco. YES ! this
is how they named him ... they named him "HIS SPECIAL FRIEND"
... that is annoying annoying annoying. with eeeevery straight
football player they say immediatly "new girlfriend"
it feels like in the ninties, when it was not possible to name
someone gay in television and people such as Boy George had to
say, that they are BISEXUAL or something else!
RONALDO IS GAY and it shouldn´t be a big deal for that
world. especially for the world of football. they are more open
minded for gays as many people think ... I mean ... one of their
greatest hymns is "We are the champions" ... by Freddie
Mercury/Queen ... and they know it and accept it ...
june: "could you come to my place?" said Brian to me
on the phone. I answered "no! you can come also to my place!"
some minutes later he called again and said "could you please
come here. it is important!"
it was the first time, that he called me twice. I realized, that
it is important and took a cab to his place. I brought something
to drink, a yellow sun painting (because I thought that he needs
more sun in his flat) and some white sage to burn (because he
asked me to bring it).
at around 6 p.m. when I arrived at Brian´s place nothing
seemed to be really urgent. we just talked as we always did it.
some friends came to visit him too and left again. then Brian
skyped with his family. it was a relaxed evening with Brian. Brian
showed me again his world and somehow it was important for him,
that I see it.
at around 1 a.m. I became tired and told him, that I would go
soon. before I left we did together that meditation ceremony with
burning white sage ... which he asked me for. then he brought
me down to the main door. we hugged eachother ... in a lovely
way ... as we did it for about 7 years. then I left.
this was the last time that I met Brian. some days later he died.
this happened almost exactly 2 years ago. Brian-Tennessee Claflin
was the biggest love of my life.
june: (artsy video comment): is THAT really the business I´m
working for !? *hhhmmmmpppffff* ... and I always thought to produce
art means: to create a BETTER WORLD <3
june: Meine Güte ist diese AfD Partei gefährlich! ...
habe mir zum ersten mal ein Video von dieser Partei angesehen
(unten gepostet). meiner Meinung nach beruht diese Partei auf
eine brandgefährliche Machtbesessenheit. Fr. Petry erklärt,
daß eine Minderheit damit leben muß von einer Mehrheit
diktiert zu werden. (das ist ihrer Meinung nach "Demokratie")
Sie gibt damit jedem ihrer Mitglieder einen Freibrief Minderheiten
zu dominieren, zu unterdrücken und gegebenenfalls ... wird
vermutlich sogar Gewalt gegen Minderheiten akzeptiert. <= Das
ist die Basis von gewalttätigen Diktaturen.
*HUI JUI JUI JUI JUI* vor dieser Partei muß Deutschland
echt aufpassen! Dieser Tage werden die deutschen Wähler immer
wütender und gewaltbereiter. ... und die AfD heißt
sie herzlich willkommen! <= so etwas endet böse!
... und Freidenker wie ich es einer bin ... erwischt es da immer
als einen der Ersten ... *ohje ohje ohje* wenn die an die Macht
kommen, dann heißt es für mich gaaaaanz schnell "Koffer
june: ... and then ... sometimes ... when I´m alone ...
then I lay in my bath ... with a looooot of hot water and foam
... I light some candles ... and listen to Chopin.
... I do it because it makes me feel as being in a movie ... because
I think ... this is what an artist should do ... and then I realize,
that eeeeveryone should do that <3
june: I LOOOOOVE THAT SONG <3 BERLIN BERLIN <3 by stunning
australian group The Blow Waves <3 ... and I´m very happy
to be in that video :*