mix posted on facebook:
feb: +++ ATTENTION +++ BLUE BOY BAR CLOSING +++ ATTENTION +++
are veeeery serious rumors that this weekend could be the last
weekend that the LEEEEEEGENDARY BLUE BOY BAR is open.
that reason I plan to go with eeeeveryone after the Open Studio
this saturday (means: around 10 p.m.) to BlueBoyBar
come here and let´s say *GoodBye* *sniff* *sniff*
feb: I was always wondering about the price of Chanel Haute Couture
Outfit: now I know it: between 30 000 and 100 000 euros ^^ ...
yes, ONE outfit ... each*
COURSE THEY ARE DAMN BEAUTIFUL kiss emoticon I LOVE THEM SINCE
I WAS A CHILD <3
feb: dear diary, *what is love?*
it´s like a movie watching the scenes happening in front
of the hot-sheet hotel on the other side of the street of my flat.
she was about 60 years old, in a good mood, smoking cigarettes,
colorful sexy dressed with a short purple skirt, high heels and
a jacket with fake fur. while she was waiting, she did some busy
telephone calls ... I just heard her saying "I am standing
in front of Stockholmer and wait for a guest".
I was wondering for whom she was waiting for! a big truck driver?
a young boy? a chubby?
about 20 minutes later a well dressed man came ... about 70 years
old with white hair and white beard. he smiled very lucky when
he saw her and she smiled at least as much as he did. they hugged
eachother in warming way. it is hard to say if they knew eachother
already or if they met eachother the first time. but obviously
they needed eachother: he showed her that she is still beautiful
and worth paying for ... and she showed him, that a woman ...
similar age as him ... with some experience ... knows what he
really needs sometimes. I guess: they loved eachother <3
feb: my dad is the same: I was always afraid telling him that
I am gay. he´s a kind of a macho grown up in a small village.
when I became HIV+, then my mom told it to him. his reaction was:
"I am able to understand the gay thing, but why didn´t
he use condoms, when they do that much promotion for it."
... since that time my father helps me again walking through my
feb: it was the first time since more than 2 years, that I did
a break for about 1 month. I would say: that break was absolutly
necessary to handle and order the impressions of the past 2 years
of creating paintings. today I started again ... and it felt as
if I needed to start from zero ... with some new backgrounds ...
those 3 white ones are not just white. they have a little touch
of yellow in it smile emoticon ... and: I am not sick anymore.
I work with open window and it is still cold ... especially in
the morning* it was good today to feel again brushes, paint tubes,
canvases ... and smell the terpentine in the air. I feel stornger
and more wise* I AM BACK! =D
feb: +++ BERGHAIN +++
Studio 54 and The Tunnel in New York grin emoticon
Le Queen in Paris heart emoticon
Leigh Bowery´s Taboo in London kiss emoticon
Pacha in Ibiza grin emoticon
and and and
and Berghain in Berlin frown emoticon
no question about: Berghain belongs to the big names in club
history of the past decades. but what makes it different: Berghain
started as dirty sexclub and ended up as club with one of the
best soundsystems in the world ... *DAMN* THOSE BOXES.
it was never necessary for the Berghain to point with LOVE (I
am talking about deepest love from the bottom of the heart!),
FUN (I am talking about real fun which comes from the deepest
bottom of the heart too!), GLAMOUR (I am talking about *WOW* glamour
which let´s everyone speechless!).
perhaps it was the time which requested for a club such as Berghain
one discussion with someone about the club reflected my feelings
about the Berghain in one sentence, when I said: "how many
people died in the past 10 years in the club Berghain!? was it
really 7 people?" ... and the cold answer of the other person
was: "so what? people have to die somewhere! and 7 is not
a lot for a big club as Berghain!"
it was the coldness in the answer which shocked me ... and it
made it clear to me: no heart ... no feelings ... no love ......
wanted at Berghain!
Berghain will NEVER be in one row with you:
Studio54 grin emoticon , TheTunnel kiss emoticon , LeQueen heart
emoticon , Taboo kiss emoticon , Pacha grin emoticon ,...
feb: +++ DEAD PEOPLE AT BERGHAIN ?
OH, with my latest fb posting: did I write something which is
kind of a taboo to talk about it in Berlin!?
PEOPLE DIED AT BERGHAIN ? rumors say 7 people in the past 10 years
? ... nothing to talk about it ? Berghain´s philosphy: what
happens in Berghain stays in Berghain ?
are those perhaps 7 ? people not worth it to talk about them
anymore ? is it just about dancing ?
I am not saying that Berghain is ´responsible´ for
that, that people die there. BUT they are responsible for the
reaction about it ... after someone´s death. here an example:
ONE guy died at a Rolling Stones concert some decades ago and
the whole band still suffers about that ... TILL TODAY!
<= this is what I am talking about!
it is just WRONG when dead people are calculated in the concept
of a party and more: just seen as number and ignored.
my opinion since years: Berghain is just wrong! in many many
feb: dear diary, I did it: after being sober since about 7 months
I drank tonite 4 beers and smoked some cigarettes. why? after
ICKYparty I went to BlueBoyBar ... for the last time before they
close their doors. this wasn´t just a bar ... they have
been my neighbours for the past 10 years ... it was the place
where I found peace whenever I needed it: those old men who gave
wisdom to me ... those young streethustlers who made me smile.
it´s an own world ... the red light.
yes, I am little bit sad about it ... an era ends.
Thank You to Hans and his team heart emoticon I love you heart
and now I continue being sober again*
feb: FLOWERS 4 U heart emoticon this spring I have 2 awesome beautiful
plants for you: it´s only about every 5 years that I have
them to give away: my grandma cultivated them already and I continued:
they are hard to get, they grow slow and get blossom up to 20
centimeters big. the only thing you need is: at your home: a flowerpot
with flower soil inside. then we cut here the plant and you can
easily take them home ... even with the underground. the cut of
the plants will be at beginning of spring: so pls think already
about it if you want one of those*
feb: pls how should I use a website named www. soccer2022 . com
? ... soccer world championship will be there ... in QATAR. ...
human rights ? ... female rights ? ... queer rights ?
years ago I bought some website names, such as soccer2022 . com
. that was before QATAR was checked out for that. I was just happy
to do a funny soccer page during the world championship <=
that was the plan!
BUT now with QATAR *AAAAARRRRGGHHHSSSS* this is faaaaar away from
think it is necessary to use that website with some useful content.
and now what?
feb: I loved those people heart emoticon who teached life to me
at school* I lived there the whole week (at age 14 - 19 years).
we shared our lives together. I am sad about the loss of Mrs.
Hatzl frown emoticon R.I.P.
feb: okokok it´s the first time that I really listen to
MICHAEL BUBLE and watch a concert^^ THAT GUY IS STUNNING AWESOME
^^ ... and even he knows talking on stage grin emoticon just FIERCE
march: 2nd march 2015: a good day to paint ^^* my everyday´s
outfit while painting in winter with open windows: headband, scarf,
t-shirt, sweatpants, socks AND bathrobe ... ^^ Fashion kiss emoticon
march: already as teenager I was phascinated by those guys in
bodybuilder magazines ... and that phascination still exists ...
march: ja, garnicht so schlecht ... diese Gymnastikvideos für
zu Hause smile emoticon jaaaaa, jetzt mit 41 Jahren geht es los
mit den körperlichen *äääHmmm* ALTERSERSCHEINUNGEN
march: *** IDENTIFICATION ***
artists create books, movies, paintings,... which give the society
the possibilty to identify itself ... with a place, a city, a
country,... and/or social groups ...
the work of artists is therefore enormous important to bind people
into a society ...
politicans and people in power know about that strong ´tool´.
I appreciate it a lot, that I may life on a place on that planet,
where it is possible to work free with my creativity. but sometimes
I wish that there would exist more support ... especially in Germany
´art doesn´t count that much´ <= that´s
the thinking in Germany ... and that thinking has to change ...
BECAUSE ARTISTS COUNT!
march: 5th day ... non-stop painting ... that´s my NEW RECORD
grin emoticon ... to get the energy to paint, means to train it
... similar as marathon runners and bodybuilder do it. I started
about 2 years ago with one time 2 hours per week! ... and now
I paint about 2 hours ... almost every day^^ I need to train to
be able to paint longer: 3 and 4 and 5 hours are my next goals
march: ^^ I know and follow (on fb) each of those 5 soccer stars
^^ ... 20 years ago: it was the time of the supermodels ... and
today it is the moment of the SOCCER PLAYERS ... aaaaaand THEY
LOOK STUNNING AWESOME GREAT ^^ (REAL MADRID)
march: heart emoticon Brian heart
Brian was a wild & free guy ...
that caused many times that he had some kind of ´accidents´
once with his bike, when he didn´t see a chain between two
and after he came directly to my flat ... blood on his body everywhere
... when I opened the door ... the first thing I did: I hugged
him without asking any questions
when he had some fights during a night with some guys ... then
after ... in the morning he came to my flat just to find some
peace and sleep ... but when he climbed over the balcony ... the
first thing I did: I hugged him without asking any questions
when there has been a ´difficult´ night at his PORKparty
and he felt annoyed or whatever ... I knew the expression in his
face ... and when he came to me, while I was sitting at the door
... the first thing I did: I hugged him without asking any questions
tonight ... in my dreams ... we did a journey in a country far,
far away ... we took the train ... Brian was busy with all those
people everywhere ... somehow I lost him in a big hall crowded
with people ... after a while I saw him how he came in my direction
... he had blood in his face and a tooth has been missing ...
the first thing I did: I hugged him without asking any questions
march: it is bad if something looks bad, but tastes good (as it
happened with a cake some weeks ago), BUT THE WOOORST is when
something looks goood and tastes TEEEERRRRIBILE *AAARRGGGHHHSSSSS*
... till yesterday I had no idea that there exist gelatine powder
... I used the regular gelatine and now there are eeeeeverywhere
pieces of gelatine in the cake ... and when you eat it now, then
you have always the feeling, that you bite on little pieces of
car tire :((((
march: heart emoticon Happy International Women´s Day heart
emoticon I LOOOOVE WOMEN heart emoticon be who you are heart emoticon
do what you want heart emoticon wear what makes you feel good
heart emoticon FREEDOM TO ALL WOMEN ON THIS PLANET <3
march: heart emoticon spring heart emoticon
I was 20 then I was excited about meeting NEW MEN
I am excited to create NEW PAINTINGS
life changes ... and priorities too
I am horny ... I need to paint NOOOOOW ... tongue emoticon
emoticon spring <3
march: dear diary, sometimes I talk with my friend from Mosul/Iraq
about what is going on there. I am not talking with him each time
about Iraq, because I don´t want to hurt him too much. but
today I was interessted about his opinion about the destruction
of thousands of years old art in Iraq. He is shocked a lot about
that and couldn´t find any words for that act of violence.
... later he told me again new stories, such as: when the cloths
of his little niece have been to short, then they brought her
and her father to police station ... they all cried there. he
said to me "she is just a little girl. she will never forget
all that ... lifelong!" ... then he told me about those two
young men who smoked cigarettes in the garden of their house.
ISIS realized it and brought them to prison for 9 days ... they
beat them up there and did all the torture possible.
I asked my friend "but in their own house ... that´s
he answered "PRIVACY!? there doesn´t exist privacy
diary, it´s always different if you read stories in newspapers,
watch it in television or if someone tells it to you while you
look in his sad eyes and listen to the sound of his dramatic voice
march: dear Mr. Richter, you said: "you never buy art"
... but you should: to buy art is the most effectiv way to support
I think, that I have to talk with Isa about that! grin emoticon
YES! Isa buys art of other artists*
march: thoughts: ^^ the abstinence of art
I was wondering about where my interest for art comes from. my
parents never talked about art ... almost never. my mom worked
as tailor. I remember when I was a little child, when we lived
in a small village in the forrest ... then once my mom said "sometimes
I would wish to work for a haute couture designer ... in Paris
...". while she said that, I realized that there has to exist
moooore outside of that little village we lived in.
at school we almost never got teached into art. the teachers
almost never talked with us about art and especially modern art.
I had no idea that something like ´modern art´ even
exists. sometimes we made excursions and we visited churches.
I was phascinated by that beauty inside ... sculptures and paintings
everywhere (in the age of 11 we visited ´Stift Admont´
(pls check THAT out on google)).
but no one talked with me about art or teached something to me.
it was the absolut abstinence of art which made me curious about
it. I wanted to know mooooore.
in the age of 15 I did a trip (with train) to members of my family
(which I have never seen before) in Barcelona. on the way I stopped
in Paris and went there everyone was talking about: Louvre and
Versailles Castle. there I realized what is possible to create
for human beings ... it was phascinating and influenced my whole
In Barelona I heard the names Gaudi and Picasso for the first
time in my life. I went to the Park Gaudi and the Picasso museum.
and I realized, that my great oncle was a ´streetpainter´
in Barcelona. he created paintings in oil on canvas while being
on the streets of Barcelona. he gave one painting of the cathedral
of Barcelona to me.
on the way back I stopped in Monaco and Venice.
THAT journey perhaps has been the most important journey of my
but it needed many more years till I found the way for me to
become a painter. Berlin was and still is, the solution for making
my dreams come true. Here I should get teached into Caravaggio,
Vermeer, Richter, Salomé, ...
when someone would have asked me in the age of 8, which profession
I would like to do when I am adult. I would have answered: Veterinarian
march: I love my paintings heart emoticon some of them (as the
actual profile picture) are veeeery OCD grin emoticon ... it just
looks wrong ... but guess what: THEY ARE RIGHT! OCD RIGHT! kiss
emoticon ... did you ever look exactly at some paintings of RUBENS?
... they are OCD too heart emoticon OCD RULES THE WORLD grin emoticon
... just saying :*
march: okokok today I don´t have that much motivation to
paint. those are the days when I paint at least some backgrounds.
I mean: I have no time to waste ... about 150 000 photographies
in my archive are waiting to be painted in oil on canvas ^^*
march: *** tuna steak in Spanish dill redwine sauce with roast
potatoes *** tongue emoticon THAT WAS AWESOME tongue emoticon
today I went to the fishmarket and bought some tuna steak ...
I said to the saleswoman that I am hungry ... she cut a piece
of that tuna steak and said 13.50 euro. I thought *DAMN* that
wasn´t the plan! ... but I bought it and at home I prepared
a myummmy redwine sauce and potatoes with it. ... it´s an
almost 20 euro meal! *WOW* I wonder how much that would cost in
a restaurant!? btw: to everyone who is asking how I can afford
that? here is the simple answer: some years ago I brought my money
in nightclubs ... and today I bring my money to food markets =P
march: I grew up with seeing my mom and dad and friends NAKED
and there is nothing ´wrong´ about it!
march: *** rare fillet of beef with red wine onion sauce and baked
potatoes with garlic cream *** ... to cook and bake became a serious
kind of ´hobby´ to me tongue emoticon ... the fillet
of beef: I love it bloody rare tongue emoticon ... sometimes I
need to feed the tiger inside of me =P
march: thoughts: Walt Disney
when I was a child ... that was 30 years ago, when I was 11.
at that time internet didn´t exist, and handys too. I did
read Walt Disney ... as much as I could ... from the age 8 till
18. I almost didn´t read other books. Just Donald Duck,
Mickey Mouse and sometimes Spiderman, Asterix and Obelix, Garfield,
already as teenager I was sure about it, that those Walt Disney
Books and Magazines will have an influence for my whole life.
... and today when I look at my paintings in oil on canvas ...
then I see a lot of comics there. such as: simple backgrounds
(yellow, green, red,...), how one character dominates the whole
painting, ... and everything clear, clean, ... and of course:
I love my paintings that way heart emoticon ... and thank you
Walt Disney for the influence :*
march: normally I should STOP buying CALIFORNIAN ALMONDS! California
has almost no more drinking water reserves left ... and they use
10 % of their water to cultivate almonds *HHMMMPPFFFF* ... but
for today I did bake an ´California Apple Chocolate Almond
Cake´ ... and I am sure that it will taste *mmyummmy* with
fresh whipped cream =P
march: sometimes it comes to my mind that Brian left that world
on 5th june 2014 ... and sometimes I feel very confused about
more than 9 months I try understand it ... but I can´t