some postings which I created on facebook 17th march 2015 - 24th march 2015
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17th march: OH YES! many times, when I watch soccer games, then I see them ... DANCING * ... a ballet ^^

18th march: ... cheaper than 5 euro ... ^^ Salmon with Sauce Hollandaise and baked potatoes ^^ all bought at supermarket LIDL ... 2.90 for the salmon with a little bit dill and garlic ... the sauce hollandaise you find there too ... and some potatoes. it´s DELICIOUS tongue emoticon and easy to prepare ... and the LIDL salmon is really good*

18th march: it has been a good day* my paintings have got my own style and everyone can see that* and now it´s just about if someone likes them or not ...
... either someone likes Nitsch or not ...
... either someone likes Baselitz or not ...
... either someone likes Picasso or not ...
... either someone likes Bartsch or not ...

I got my own style and today was aware of that again :)

18th march: life is ... good <3 ... proofed by fb*

someone witnessed one of the most spectacular sunsets he has ever seen
someone spends a wonderful time in the fitness center
someone did a spring walk in a parc with her mom
someone did an interview with a wonderful artist
someone ate with a friend tons of oysters
someone is preparing his birthday party
someone is on tour with his band
someone painted all afternoon (okokok that was me smile emoticon )

life is good <3

19th march: * Berlin * I heart emoticon MY NEIGHBOURHOOD ^^ *DAMN* actually I am a poor guy from small village deep in the forrest ... AND I AM LIVING HERE ... since more than 10 years *** actually BEING GAY did lead me here in that city and that place where I am living right now ... yes, the Berlin Gay Ghetto is in the center of Berlin :*

20th march: ^^ EXCITING ^^ solar eclipse in Berlin today* it has been my second one and they have an huge impact on me. my first solar eclipse I realized in Vienna in 1999 ... that was the day when emotionally I ended up with Vienna and made the decision to leave Austria. ... and today ... I will see what this solar eclipse in Berlin will bring to me*

20th march: for the afternoon ... some OOOOOORIGINAL Austrian *Kaiserschmarr´n mit Zwetschgenröster* (oh, I don´t know that english translation. perhaps: pancakes with plums in Austrian Emperor style smile emoticon ) ... I made hundreds of them in the age of 15, when I worked as school practica in a kitchen in the Tyrol Alps* ... now I haven´t made them since years ... and today the first one really worked out and tastes DEEEELICIOUS tongue emoticon I should plan to do them for the Open Studio =P

20th march: it was a very wonderful evening* I enjoyed it a lot, being part of a groupshow with about 30 other artists and their friends smile emoticon B I G THANK U* to aaaaaall my friends and guests and to Rinaldo and Simon * ... aaaaaaand Henry de Winter for an AAAAAWESOME performance*

22nd march: <3 Brian my love heart emoticon those days ... when I wear my headscarf (which one I bought about 22 years ago in Paris) then I feel connected with you ... it makes you being alive for me ... at least just a little bit

22nd march: being huuuuungry for LIFE heart emoticon ... aaaaand for my lunch tongue emoticon today: ^^ Omelette with Cheese and a looot of Serrano ham ^^ ooooOOOOH it was *mmmyummmyyyyy tongue emoticon *Happy Sunday to Eeeeeveryone <3

24th march: ^^ backgroud day ^^ the sizes of the canvases become bigger and bigger ... meanwhile (after 2 years and 3 months of intense painting with oil on canvas) I feel comfortable with sizes of 1 meter



some postings which I created on facebook 19th february 2015 - 16th march 2015
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there are veeeery serious rumors that this weekend could be the last weekend that the LEEEEEEGENDARY BLUE BOY BAR is open.

for that reason I plan to go with eeeeveryone after the Open Studio this saturday (means: around 10 p.m.) to BlueBoyBar

pls come here and let´s say *GoodBye* *sniff* *sniff*

20th feb: I was always wondering about the price of Chanel Haute Couture Outfit: now I know it: between 30 000 and 100 000 euros ^^ ... yes, ONE outfit ... each*


20th feb: dear diary, *what is love?*

it´s like a movie watching the scenes happening in front of the hot-sheet hotel on the other side of the street of my flat. she was about 60 years old, in a good mood, smoking cigarettes, colorful sexy dressed with a short purple skirt, high heels and a jacket with fake fur. while she was waiting, she did some busy telephone calls ... I just heard her saying "I am standing in front of Stockholmer and wait for a guest".
I was wondering for whom she was waiting for! a big truck driver? a young boy? a chubby?
about 20 minutes later a well dressed man came ... about 70 years old with white hair and white beard. he smiled very lucky when he saw her and she smiled at least as much as he did. they hugged eachother in warming way. it is hard to say if they knew eachother already or if they met eachother the first time. but obviously they needed eachother: he showed her that she is still beautiful and worth paying for ... and she showed him, that a woman ... similar age as him ... with some experience ... knows what he really needs sometimes. I guess: they loved eachother <3

20th feb: my dad is the same: I was always afraid telling him that I am gay. he´s a kind of a macho grown up in a small village. when I became HIV+, then my mom told it to him. his reaction was: "I am able to understand the gay thing, but why didn´t he use condoms, when they do that much promotion for it." ... since that time my father helps me again walking through my life

22nd feb: it was the first time since more than 2 years, that I did a break for about 1 month. I would say: that break was absolutly necessary to handle and order the impressions of the past 2 years of creating paintings. today I started again ... and it felt as if I needed to start from zero ... with some new backgrounds ... those 3 white ones are not just white. they have a little touch of yellow in it smile emoticon ... and: I am not sick anymore. I work with open window and it is still cold ... especially in the morning* it was good today to feel again brushes, paint tubes, canvases ... and smell the terpentine in the air. I feel stornger and more wise* I AM BACK! =D

22nd feb: +++ BERGHAIN +++

Studio 54 and The Tunnel in New York grin emoticon
Le Queen in Paris heart emoticon
Leigh Bowery´s Taboo in London kiss emoticon
Pacha in Ibiza grin emoticon
and and and
and Berghain in Berlin frown emoticon

no question about: Berghain belongs to the big names in club history of the past decades. but what makes it different: Berghain started as dirty sexclub and ended up as club with one of the best soundsystems in the world ... *DAMN* THOSE BOXES.
it was never necessary for the Berghain to point with LOVE (I am talking about deepest love from the bottom of the heart!), FUN (I am talking about real fun which comes from the deepest bottom of the heart too!), GLAMOUR (I am talking about *WOW* glamour which let´s everyone speechless!).

perhaps it was the time which requested for a club such as Berghain ...

one discussion with someone about the club reflected my feelings about the Berghain in one sentence, when I said: "how many people died in the past 10 years in the club Berghain!? was it really 7 people?" ... and the cold answer of the other person was: "so what? people have to die somewhere! and 7 is not a lot for a big club as Berghain!"
it was the coldness in the answer which shocked me ... and it made it clear to me: no heart ... no feelings ... no love ...... wanted at Berghain!

Berghain will NEVER be in one row with you:
Studio54 grin emoticon , TheTunnel kiss emoticon , LeQueen heart emoticon , Taboo kiss emoticon , Pacha grin emoticon ,...

22nd feb: +++ DEAD PEOPLE AT BERGHAIN ? +++

OH, with my latest fb posting: did I write something which is kind of a taboo to talk about it in Berlin!?
PEOPLE DIED AT BERGHAIN ? rumors say 7 people in the past 10 years ? ... nothing to talk about it ? Berghain´s philosphy: what happens in Berghain stays in Berghain ?

are those perhaps 7 ? people not worth it to talk about them anymore ? is it just about dancing ?

I am not saying that Berghain is ´responsible´ for that, that people die there. BUT they are responsible for the reaction about it ... after someone´s death. here an example: ONE guy died at a Rolling Stones concert some decades ago and the whole band still suffers about that ... TILL TODAY!
<= this is what I am talking about!

it is just WRONG when dead people are calculated in the concept of a party and more: just seen as number and ignored.

my opinion since years: Berghain is just wrong! in many many ways!

23rd feb: dear diary, I did it: after being sober since about 7 months I drank tonite 4 beers and smoked some cigarettes. why? after ICKYparty I went to BlueBoyBar ... for the last time before they close their doors. this wasn´t just a bar ... they have been my neighbours for the past 10 years ... it was the place where I found peace whenever I needed it: those old men who gave wisdom to me ... those young streethustlers who made me smile. it´s an own world ... the red light.
yes, I am little bit sad about it ... an era ends.
Thank You to Hans and his team heart emoticon I love you heart emoticon

... and now I continue being sober again*

23rd feb: FLOWERS 4 U heart emoticon this spring I have 2 awesome beautiful plants for you: it´s only about every 5 years that I have them to give away: my grandma cultivated them already and I continued: they are hard to get, they grow slow and get blossom up to 20 centimeters big. the only thing you need is: at your home: a flowerpot with flower soil inside. then we cut here the plant and you can easily take them home ... even with the underground. the cut of the plants will be at beginning of spring: so pls think already about it if you want one of those*

24th feb: pls how should I use a website named www. soccer2022 . com ? ... soccer world championship will be there ... in QATAR. ... human rights ? ... female rights ? ... queer rights ?

some years ago I bought some website names, such as soccer2022 . com . that was before QATAR was checked out for that. I was just happy to do a funny soccer page during the world championship <= that was the plan!
BUT now with QATAR *AAAAARRRRGGHHHSSSS* this is faaaaar away from fun!

I think it is necessary to use that website with some useful content. and now what?

any ideas someone?

25th feb: I loved those people heart emoticon who teached life to me at school* I lived there the whole week (at age 14 - 19 years). we shared our lives together. I am sad about the loss of Mrs. Hatzl frown emoticon R.I.P.

25th feb: okokok it´s the first time that I really listen to MICHAEL BUBLE and watch a concert^^ THAT GUY IS STUNNING AWESOME ^^ ... and even he knows talking on stage grin emoticon just FIERCE *

2nd march: 2nd march 2015: a good day to paint ^^* my everyday´s outfit while painting in winter with open windows: headband, scarf, t-shirt, sweatpants, socks AND bathrobe ... ^^ Fashion kiss emoticon ^^

2nd march: already as teenager I was phascinated by those guys in bodybuilder magazines ... and that phascination still exists ...

3rd march: ja, garnicht so schlecht ... diese Gymnastikvideos für zu Hause smile emoticon jaaaaa, jetzt mit 41 Jahren geht es los mit den körperlichen *äääHmmm* ALTERSERSCHEINUNGEN *

4th march: *** IDENTIFICATION ***

artists create books, movies, paintings,... which give the society the possibilty to identify itself ... with a place, a city, a country,... and/or social groups ...

the work of artists is therefore enormous important to bind people into a society ...

politicans and people in power know about that strong ´tool´. I appreciate it a lot, that I may life on a place on that planet, where it is possible to work free with my creativity. but sometimes I wish that there would exist more support ... especially in Germany ...

´art doesn´t count that much´ <= that´s the thinking in Germany ... and that thinking has to change ...


5th march: 5th day ... non-stop painting ... that´s my NEW RECORD grin emoticon ... to get the energy to paint, means to train it ... similar as marathon runners and bodybuilder do it. I started about 2 years ago with one time 2 hours per week! ... and now I paint about 2 hours ... almost every day^^ I need to train to be able to paint longer: 3 and 4 and 5 hours are my next goals ...

6th march: ^^ I know and follow (on fb) each of those 5 soccer stars ^^ ... 20 years ago: it was the time of the supermodels ... and today it is the moment of the SOCCER PLAYERS ... aaaaaand THEY LOOK STUNNING AWESOME GREAT ^^ (REAL MADRID)

6th march: heart emoticon Brian heart emoticon

Brian was a wild & free guy ...
that caused many times that he had some kind of ´accidents´ ...
once with his bike, when he didn´t see a chain between two poles ...
and after he came directly to my flat ... blood on his body everywhere ... when I opened the door ... the first thing I did: I hugged him without asking any questions

when he had some fights during a night with some guys ... then after ... in the morning he came to my flat just to find some peace and sleep ... but when he climbed over the balcony ... the first thing I did: I hugged him without asking any questions

when there has been a ´difficult´ night at his PORKparty and he felt annoyed or whatever ... I knew the expression in his face ... and when he came to me, while I was sitting at the door ... the first thing I did: I hugged him without asking any questions

tonight ... in my dreams ... we did a journey in a country far, far away ... we took the train ... Brian was busy with all those people everywhere ... somehow I lost him in a big hall crowded with people ... after a while I saw him how he came in my direction ... he had blood in his face and a tooth has been missing ... the first thing I did: I hugged him without asking any questions

7th march: it is bad if something looks bad, but tastes good (as it happened with a cake some weeks ago), BUT THE WOOORST is when something looks goood and tastes TEEEERRRRIBILE *AAARRGGGHHHSSSSS* ... till yesterday I had no idea that there exist gelatine powder ... I used the regular gelatine and now there are eeeeeverywhere pieces of gelatine in the cake ... and when you eat it now, then you have always the feeling, that you bite on little pieces of car tire :((((

8th march: heart emoticon Happy International Women´s Day heart emoticon I LOOOOVE WOMEN heart emoticon be who you are heart emoticon do what you want heart emoticon wear what makes you feel good heart emoticon FREEDOM TO ALL WOMEN ON THIS PLANET <3

8th march: heart emoticon spring heart emoticon

when I was 20 then I was excited about meeting NEW MEN

two decades later:

today I am excited to create NEW PAINTINGS

... life changes ... and priorities too

... I am horny ... I need to paint NOOOOOW ... tongue emoticon

heart emoticon spring <3

8th march: dear diary, sometimes I talk with my friend from Mosul/Iraq about what is going on there. I am not talking with him each time about Iraq, because I don´t want to hurt him too much. but today I was interessted about his opinion about the destruction of thousands of years old art in Iraq. He is shocked a lot about that and couldn´t find any words for that act of violence. ... later he told me again new stories, such as: when the cloths of his little niece have been to short, then they brought her and her father to police station ... they all cried there. he said to me "she is just a little girl. she will never forget all that ... lifelong!" ... then he told me about those two young men who smoked cigarettes in the garden of their house. ISIS realized it and brought them to prison for 9 days ... they beat them up there and did all the torture possible.
I asked my friend "but in their own house ... that´s private!"
he answered "PRIVACY!? there doesn´t exist privacy in Mosul."

dear diary, it´s always different if you read stories in newspapers, watch it in television or if someone tells it to you while you look in his sad eyes and listen to the sound of his dramatic voice

9th march: dear Mr. Richter, you said: "you never buy art" ... but you should: to buy art is the most effectiv way to support other artists

... I think, that I have to talk with Isa about that! grin emoticon

and YES! Isa buys art of other artists*

9th march: thoughts: ^^ the abstinence of art ^^

I was wondering about where my interest for art comes from. my parents never talked about art ... almost never. my mom worked as tailor. I remember when I was a little child, when we lived in a small village in the forrest ... then once my mom said "sometimes I would wish to work for a haute couture designer ... in Paris ...". while she said that, I realized that there has to exist moooore outside of that little village we lived in.

at school we almost never got teached into art. the teachers almost never talked with us about art and especially modern art. I had no idea that something like ´modern art´ even exists. sometimes we made excursions and we visited churches. I was phascinated by that beauty inside ... sculptures and paintings everywhere (in the age of 11 we visited ´Stift Admont´ (pls check THAT out on google)).

but no one talked with me about art or teached something to me. it was the absolut abstinence of art which made me curious about it. I wanted to know mooooore.

in the age of 15 I did a trip (with train) to members of my family (which I have never seen before) in Barcelona. on the way I stopped in Paris and went there everyone was talking about: Louvre and Versailles Castle. there I realized what is possible to create for human beings ... it was phascinating and influenced my whole life.
In Barelona I heard the names Gaudi and Picasso for the first time in my life. I went to the Park Gaudi and the Picasso museum.
and I realized, that my great oncle was a ´streetpainter´ in Barcelona. he created paintings in oil on canvas while being on the streets of Barcelona. he gave one painting of the cathedral of Barcelona to me.
on the way back I stopped in Monaco and Venice.
THAT journey perhaps has been the most important journey of my life.

but it needed many more years till I found the way for me to become a painter. Berlin was and still is, the solution for making my dreams come true. Here I should get teached into Caravaggio, Vermeer, Richter, Salomé, ...

when someone would have asked me in the age of 8, which profession I would like to do when I am adult. I would have answered: Veterinarian

10th march: I love my paintings heart emoticon some of them (as the actual profile picture) are veeeery OCD grin emoticon ... it just looks wrong ... but guess what: THEY ARE RIGHT! OCD RIGHT! kiss emoticon ... did you ever look exactly at some paintings of RUBENS? ... they are OCD too heart emoticon OCD RULES THE WORLD grin emoticon ... just saying :*

10th march: okokok today I don´t have that much motivation to paint. those are the days when I paint at least some backgrounds. I mean: I have no time to waste ... about 150 000 photographies in my archive are waiting to be painted in oil on canvas ^^*

11th march: *** tuna steak in Spanish dill redwine sauce with roast potatoes *** tongue emoticon THAT WAS AWESOME tongue emoticon today I went to the fishmarket and bought some tuna steak ... I said to the saleswoman that I am hungry ... she cut a piece of that tuna steak and said 13.50 euro. I thought *DAMN* that wasn´t the plan! ... but I bought it and at home I prepared a myummmy redwine sauce and potatoes with it. ... it´s an almost 20 euro meal! *WOW* I wonder how much that would cost in a restaurant!? btw: to everyone who is asking how I can afford that? here is the simple answer: some years ago I brought my money in nightclubs ... and today I bring my money to food markets =P

12th march: I grew up with seeing my mom and dad and friends NAKED and there is nothing ´wrong´ about it!

13th march: *** rare fillet of beef with red wine onion sauce and baked potatoes with garlic cream *** ... to cook and bake became a serious kind of ´hobby´ to me tongue emoticon ... the fillet of beef: I love it bloody rare tongue emoticon ... sometimes I need to feed the tiger inside of me =P

13th march: thoughts: Walt Disney

when I was a child ... that was 30 years ago, when I was 11. at that time internet didn´t exist, and handys too. I did read Walt Disney ... as much as I could ... from the age 8 till 18. I almost didn´t read other books. Just Donald Duck, Mickey Mouse and sometimes Spiderman, Asterix and Obelix, Garfield, ...
already as teenager I was sure about it, that those Walt Disney Books and Magazines will have an influence for my whole life.

... and today when I look at my paintings in oil on canvas ... then I see a lot of comics there. such as: simple backgrounds (yellow, green, red,...), how one character dominates the whole painting, ... and everything clear, clean, ... and of course: colorful

I love my paintings that way heart emoticon ... and thank you Walt Disney for the influence :*

14th march: normally I should STOP buying CALIFORNIAN ALMONDS! California has almost no more drinking water reserves left ... and they use 10 % of their water to cultivate almonds *HHMMMPPFFFF* ... but for today I did bake an ´California Apple Chocolate Almond Cake´ ... and I am sure that it will taste *mmyummmy* with fresh whipped cream =P

15th march: sometimes it comes to my mind that Brian left that world on 5th june 2014 ... and sometimes I feel very confused about it

since more than 9 months I try understand it ... but I can´t



New Years Concert 2nd january 2015
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at 2nd january I got invited by Ulrich Koestlin to join the New Years Concert with violinist Albrecht Menzel.

it was STUNNING AMAZING^^ Albrecht Menzel just 22 years young belongs to the best violinists in Germany ... he played a Stradivary from the year 1703.

a very wonderful evening and start in the new year 2015*



some postings which I created on facebook 20th january 2015 - 18th february 2015
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20th jan: Patrick Bartsch: " I know that I am a significant german painter " (<= to say it that way is nothing special for significant painters smile emoticon )

those days it is the first time that I watched documentaries about the life and work of Monet, van Gogh, ... I knew NOTHING about them ... just the famous paintings everyone knows. I didn´t have art at school and I wasn´t at art university.
I got teached by painter friends and the internet.

here I present a lot of my (private & artistic) life, but it´s only the iceberg you all see. about 80 % of that iceberg are under water and almost for no one to see and experience. I am THAT ICEBERG and because I know every part of it, makes me say that I am a significant german painter and artist.
watching those documentaries of different painters made me even much more aware of it, that we signifiant painters are all made of the same kind of wood (<= that´s a german saying. I hope you understand those words in english too).

most important to me is, that I found a family in those painters ... a family I understand and share similar experiences.

22nd jan: being sick since some days ... too sick to leave the flat ... too sick to paint. being trapped in my bed is not the worst thing: it gives time to think about life. today I made some homemade chicken soup which one will make me healthy very fast ... for sure* and for the first time in my life: I am listening to audio books from youtube, which is very exciting on a way^^

26th jan: Paris? PARIS!

reasons why I should think about to move to Paris:

* I love that most beautiful city in the world* and the people there heart emoticon
* I lived there already for about 1 year (when I was 19 years young) and I speak french
* it is good for a painter to move
* for my international friends: it makes almost no difference if I live in Berlin or Paris
* someone told me: there exist cheap flats to find
* for me: it is easy to move: I just have some little things and only few suitcases

it just depends on: as long as I am poor, I stay in Berlin, because I am German and it is easier to be in the own country.
BUT as soon as the pages turn in my life and I have some money, then it is veeery possible that I will announce:

*** Good-Bye Berlin kiss emoticon HELLO PARIS heart emoticon ***

30th jan: ´Linzer Tart´ Patrick Bartsch style^^ I think my today´s cake looks veeeery similar as my paintings look like grin emoticon what happened?: I couldn´t wait to move the Linzer Tart from the hot baking plate to a cold cake plate ... that was a mistake! it broke into 1000 pieces ... this kind of cake needs to be moved when it´s cold^^ beginner´s mistake frown emoticon but the cake tastes deeeelicious =P

2nd feb: ^^ I AM PROCESS ^^ I am veeeery happy to announce that there will be PART III of the reading with glamouros George Keeling ... this saturday 7th february 9 p.m. at Patrick´s Open Studio* don´t miss it^^

2nd feb: NO NO NO I don´t want that! rumors say that the ´Blue Boy Bar´ will close in april. the most legendary hustla bar of Berlin and my neighbour bar will close their doors forever frown emoticon
the cut to a new Berlin goes very deep and hurts ... all those wonderful memories I had there in the past 10 years. it was legendary ... in every way.

Blue Boy Bar was part of my heart and I will miss it :(

3rd feb: dear diary: the lion inside of me awakes more and more.

now I am sober since about 6 months (no alc, no cigarettes, no dr*gs). I am very familiar with that feeling ... becoming sober. already some years ago (between 2003 and 2010) I have been sober. especially in the first two sober years you feel that enormous energy ... it´s like an wild animal which got prisoned and then you open the cage and let it free. that energy is almost unstoppable.

I write it as it is: I looooove dr*gs, alcohol and smoking cigarettes. and I know that it destroys my body ... and for that reason I am used to give breaks to my body. I mean I started with that sh*t in the age of 8.

those sober years are always veeeeery special ... it´s an enormous strong feeling. because in those years I realize many dreams which I created when I brought my body in ohter shapes.

and right now: I am thaaat much excited because in those past 4 years (between 2010 and 2014) while taking dr*gs, drinking alc and smoking cigarettes. ... I created more and more dreams to realize.

+++ ATTENTION +++ this story works for me! this is my life! and everybody is different! to every other person I just can say: DR*GS and ALCOHOL are no toys ... THEY CAN KILL! DON´T PLAY WITH IT!

6th feb: zu: +++ Papst Franziskus und das Schlagen von Kindern +++

Ich gehöre zu den Kindern welche von ihren Eltern nicht einmal geschlagen wurden. Nicht eine Ohrfeige von Mutter oder Vater. Absolut gewaltfrei wurde ich erzogen. ... und: ES HAT MIR NICHT GESCHADET!

Im Gegensatz dazu wurden meine etwa gleichaltrigen Cousins von ihren Eltern (der eine von seinem Vater und der andere von seiner Mutter!) regelmäßig grün und blau geschlagen. Als Kind konnte ich dies alles nicht einordnen und wußte damals auch nicht woher die blau-grün-gelben Flecken auf den Körpern meiner Cousins herkamen.
Heute erinnere ich mich, daß beide unter einer permanenten, grausamen Angst und unendlichen Schmerzen aufwuchsen.

Diese Erfahrungen haben mein ganzes Leben - bis heute geprägt.

Laut offizieller Statistik (die Dunkelziffer ist natürlich höher) wächst in Deutschland jedes Fünfte!!! Kind unter Gewalt auf.



8th feb: today´s Open Studio ^^ non-stop action ... with coffee and Sissy cake in the afternoon ... spicy hungarian goulash in the evening ... and a fierce reading with George Keeling at night* THX to eeeeveryone*

9th feb: YES, I am muuuuch mooooore excited about ´Courtney Love in Berlin´ than ´Madonna´s ass show´

heart emoticon Courtney <3

10th feb: <3 Brian heart emoticon sometimes Brian is in my dreams ... he seems to be alive there ... it´s like 100% real ... ... Brian was the most extraordinary person who has ever been in my life ... for 7 years ... one of his last postings on fb was "I am kind of in love with Trishy Lynn Sue" ... this name was a name which he created for me. it is wonderful that he wrote that and in the same way it makes it much more harder to life without him ... I was in love with him too <3

12th feb: <3 Michael (Stipe) heart emoticon it´s wonderful how his music is part of my life ... when I was young (25 years ago) I danced and laughed with his music and today while I am going through some rough times ... his music is again on my side and helps me through the day. I am happy that I had the chance to meet Michael ... hug him ... and tell him that I love him <3

13th feb: na jo ... na kloa schau I Opernball live auf 3sat =D

13th feb: dear diary, meanwhile I reached the phase where the pain of my psyche is reaching my body ... I am sick since weeks ... non-stop. it started with a heavy cold, then I got a very painful inner ear infection (had to take antibiotics) ... and now I got a very painful stiff neck since yesterday ... every move is full of pain. in the internet it is written, that it could be caused of psychic problems too ...
I haven´t been heavily sick since (I think) 18 years. the pain about Brian´s loss changed my life. I had a life before Brian´s death and another life started after his death. My life will never be the same.
my soul is full of pain and meanwhile my body too

15th feb: * Hollywood Freemason * today I was in the mood to wear the first time my original freemason mask from Hollywood* it´s a present from my wonderful friends ... the Dallesandro family ... ... I think they gave it to me when I need some very special mystic power ... and this moment is today! ... it felt exactly that way they told me*

15th feb: I looove that freemason mask heart emoticon it makes me look old ... but old from another century*

´ Kim you know how to make me happy grin emoticon ´ Kisses kiss emoticon from Berlin* I love you

16th feb: ach das war jetzt schön: Kölle Rosenmontagsumzug im Livestream von meiner Couch in Berlin gesehen* ... habe ja 3 1/2 Jahre sehr gerne in Köln gewohnt und Karneval mitgefeiert grin emoticon das war schon sehr toll! kiss emoticon heart emoticon ALAAAF nach KÖLLE <3

16th feb: ´to be sick´ means to me, when: my body hurts that much, that I am not able to create new paintings. Now I was sick for about 1 month ... I didn´t paint ... and I suffered a looooot.
Now I feel better ... almost healthy again. I think: now I need about 1 or 2 weeks to build up my body again, that I am strong enough ... to work on new paintings.

16th feb: "you are healthy for 5 more years and dead in 10 years!" ... I was 23 years young when a doctor said that to me.

My life had just begun. I finished one of the best schools of europe, worked in the Grand Hotel Vienna and was on the way to make a big career.

ok: ´5 more years´ was my reality and it was the truth at that time. I saw people dying because of AIDS when I was in the clinic. my starved body was covered with red rash. I needed to take a handfull of pills every 8 hours. I realized, that my young life will end soon.

I was young. I asked my ex-boyfriend if he is HIVnegativ and he said ´yes´. this was enough answer for me, for having sex with him without condoms. it was a mistake ... my mistake.

Immediatly I stopped working in the Grand Hotel and followed to do the things which I really wanted to do: I started working in bars of discotheques (Volksgarten, U4,...) and made the bar in brothel. the brothel owner asked me "you are working in the Grand Hotel. Are you sure that you want to quit that job for the reason to work at the bar of a brothel!?" ... I just answered "YES!".

3 years later. age 26: I wanted to die by myself ... alone. I didn´t want that my friends and family watch me the last years of my life, when dying because of AIDS. I left Vienna and moved to Cologne ... all by myself. I fullfilled another dream and started to work in a jeans shop (GAP for 3 years). I took a loooot of drugs, took as much debts from the bank as possible and prepared myself to die.

BUT at a certain point I realized that I am still ´healthy´ ... the medication became better and better ... I just needed to take 3 pills every 24 hours. it seemed as if I will not die that much early as the doctor told me.

in the age of 29: I decided that I will do ´something´ with my life. I stopped taking drugs, drinking alcohol, smoking cigarettes, became vegetarian, kicked out the television of my flat and paid my debts back. I thought: ´photography´ is something what I always did and liked ... since I was a child of 8 years. I started to take pictures ... more and more professional. some months later I moved to Berlin and started a ´new´ life as photographer and artist. it became immediatly kind of ´successful´ with the support of people such as Henning von Berg, Rosa von Praunheim, Ralf König, ...

but in my head I still had the idea of dying soon ... perhaps an very ugly death. in 2005 I made a black leather mask as my trademark. I did wear it on all public events and never showed my face. the real reason why I did wear that mask for 8 years, was: I knew how much AIDS can destroy faces and I didn´t want that people see my face when AIDS should destroy mine too.

I took photographies of the Berlin of the past 10 years. Meanwhile I paint those photographies in oil on canvas. this is very important to me. I know what ´death´ and ´life´ means. when I paint about life, then you see and feel ´life´ ... I don´t use the color ´black´ in my paintings ... I love life and want to show to people what it means ´to life´ and ´be alive´.

it´s now 18 years that I am HIVpositive. it´s no fun! nothing what someone should experience!
I still life my life as free as possible, because I know that every day could be the last one. this hasn´t been just words for me ... this was my reality and somehow still is.

I would like to thank Barbie Breakout <3 ... with her posting she motivated me to talk about my story too.


some postings which I created on facebook 31st december 2014 - 19th january 2015
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stories mix posted on facebook:

31st dec: *** HAPPY NEW YEAR 2015 to eeeeeveryone <3 ... my new year´s eve party started already with a speciality from the black forrest (where I come from): cooked pork shoulder (*Schäufele*) with Spätzle, sprouts and yellow boletuses in port sauce =P DELICIOUS =P

31st dec: oh Brian-Tennessee <3 exactly one year ago: you and Travis and Mario and Pietro invited us to the New Years Eve Party ... it was for sure one of the best New Years Eve Parties I have ever been ... it was wooooonderful ... full of fun, peace, joy, ... (not one fight happened that night!) ... I was one of the first who came there: the flat was empty and the table for the drinks too ... I just said "I take some tap water pls!" and needed to smile a looooot =D ... almost eachone brought something to drink and eat ... it was enough for everybody and the whole night ... WHAT A FAMILY !!! <3 :* even loved Ulrich and loved Nathan came to celebrate Ulrich´s b-day there* ... the whole night uncountable guests came and celebrated with you Brian <3 ... somehow I always had the feeling, that this party in your flat ... in your private rooms ... was a kind of Good-Bye Party which you gave to us <3 Thank You :*

this year I decided to eat the whole night ... alone ... perhaps I will do a walk later ... and tomorrow morning I like to watch the New Years Concert of the Vienna Philharmonic ... and tonite when I look into the sky then I will think of you <3

1st jan: ^^ HELLO 2015 ^^ Your trouble will disappear and you´ll be lucky. =D (from a fortune cookie)

1st jan: live goes on ... in 2015 ... today with some background work*

2nd jan: THANK YOU ^^ it was a BIG honor to join the new years concert of virtuoso violinist ALBRECHT MENZEL playing on his Stradivari from the year 1709 ^^
Albrecht Menzel's photo.

3rd jan: our Nathan on the cover of EXBERLINER* and I LOVE IT <3

4th jan: I am very glad, that in 2008 Brian took me to the event "Barack Obama in Berlin". Brian showed me what moves him ... what is important to him about his country. that day was an adventure ... and now the painting about that day is finished

5th jan: telephone call with my dad:

me: "I am working a lot in the next weeks."
my dad: "don´t work too much!"

I think the fact, that my parents love me, is one of the biggest presents what I got for my life.

everybody should have and deserves wonderful parents!

6th jan: ... those dreams when an invincible lion plays one of the leading parts in a dream ^^ oh, he prefered to life in my flat, than somewhere outside ... and that fact caused some troubles ... at the end we became friends on a way and accepted eachother^^ the kuddling scenes have been kind of strange ... with such a BIG HAIRY WILD LION ... *hmmmpfff* btw. he was straigt: because his wife lived in my flat too :)

7th jan: +++ be responsible for Y O U R RELIGION +++

I LOVE the beautiful things created by religious groups such as: temples, churches, mosques, paintings,sculptures, books, ...
I LOVE to watch people who are deeply connected in their religion and how they celebrate it: buddhists, muslims, christians, jews,...

BUUUUUT when anything goes wrong in Y O U R RELIGION, then FIRST the people of Y O U R RELIGION have to STAND UP and PROTEST against it! ... I see that as YOUR DUTY !!!

(when someone is interessted in my religion: then here it is: I life without any religion. my religion is the universe, flowers, stones, humans, animals, moon and sun,... my religion is not human made.)

10th jan: my TOP 3 FB BLOGGERS aaaaare


NR. 1 : the leeeeeeeegendary JAYNE COUNTY aka Jayne Rogers * applause * * applause * * applause * emotions emotions emotions in eeeevery posting *THANK YOU JAYNE <3

NR. 2 : wooooooonderful Frank Wilde * applause * * applause * * applause * Frank brings THE BEAUTY & THE ART on my fb ... on a daily bases *THANK YOU FRANK <3

NR. 3 : one of the best fighters alive BUAKAW with Banchamek Gym * applause * * applause * * applause * Buakaw shows every day that everybody can be a winner ... he is posting almost eeeeeveryday *THANK YOU BUAKAW ^^

10th jan: "Hr. Bartsch haben Sie auch Erotika in Ihrer Sammlung?"
"Ja, in 2014 habe ich 2 Erotika in Öl auf Leinwand geschaffen. Diese sind nicht der Öffentlichkeit zugänglich. Diese sind Teil meines ganz privaten ´Geheimen Museums´ "

... sehr tolle Dokumentation über die Versteckten Kunstschätze dieser Erde. Geschaffen von beinahe allen bedeutenden Künstlern. ... und was mich besonders freut: Edward Lucie-Smith, welchen ich in Berlin kennenlernen durfte, spricht auch ein paar weise Worte zu diesem Thema*

11th jan: ^^ oil on canvas ^^ ... my blood ... my passion ... (no no no just a joke :) on that photography, this is just a wonderful red and not my blood ... *ääähmmm* not yet ;) )

11th jan: sunday °* working on new paintings such as Romy Haag, Pünktchen alias Marlene Dietrich, Tilda Swinton, Tatjana Taft, Micky Friedmann, Bastian, Mukhtar, and some more <3

11th jan: on friday it´s KATE MOSS´s B-DAY =D that old b*tch will be 41 years :* I think I will bake some chocolate cake ( YES! YES! YES! a Sacher cake receipt =P ) and celebrate her bday on saturday * eeeeeveryone is invited ^^ ... and perhaps there will be part III of the reading with George Keeling !? is it that saturday George ? <3 :* :)

12th jan: * THE BEST IS JUST GOOD ENOUGH FOR YOU * ... being sweaty at KaDeWe ... *DAMN* I bought ingredients for about 80 euros ... for a white Sacher chocolate cake ^^ let´s celebrate together KATE MOSS´s BDAY on saturday =D ... and btw : <3 THANK YOU to aaaaall supporters of my life as painter, with buying paintings :* pls join us this saturday and get your piece of OUR White Sacher Chocolate Cake =P

12th jan: I love it when young girls are smiling while watching me taking selfies in a shopping center :) they know how I feel =D they REALLY understand my feelings =D =D

12th jan: ja, so ääähnlich war´s bei mir dann wohl auch: bis ich dann mit 23 Jahren etwa 18 000 Euro Schulden hatte und nicht wußte wie ich meine Miete bezahlen sollte. Dafür hatte ich etwa 5 Versicherungen welche ich im Grunde genommen nicht brauchte...

Irgendwann hatte ich dann das Gefühl, daß mich diese kapitalistische Gesellschaft genau so DUMM haben wollte. ... ich habe soviel Zinsen an Banken bezahlt, daß ich mir dafür hätte nen neues Auto kaufen können ...

Jetzt mit 41 Jahren habe ich das alles irgendwie im Griff ... keine Schulden und das mit den Versicherungen klappt auch ...

... und ich bin mir sicher: genau so oder ähnlich ergeht es gaaaaaaanz vielen anderen auch *hhhmmmpppfffff* :(

13th jan: *** Daniel Richter ***

yesterday I saw Daniel Richter ... a very successful german painter. it was in a private atmosphere ... I didn´t talk to him ... I just looked at him for some minutes ... from a voyeuristic perspective.

I like that! ... just to feel someones aura

14th jan: what a BAD BAD society ... which allows people to kick out other people of their flats (without any reasons). today I had to open my flat for someone who wants to buy my flat (means they want to move into this flat as fast as possible!). I felt RAPED with those strangers in my flat! ... when they left I continued with some paintings and of course they became weird, confused and chaotic ... as my feelings have been today. ... and now: when the society treats me BAD, then at least I have to treat myself in a good way ... and for that reason I just ate some scallops *mmmmjjjammmmyyyy* btw: I am thinking to move to PANKOW ... somewhere close to a green area* if you know something pls let me know

15th jan: Alice in Wonderland: "Patrick, you have 3 wishes! what is your first one!?"
Patrick: "OOOOH Alice may I kiss you <3 <3 :* !?"
Alice: "NO NO NO I am not included in those wishes!"
Patrick: "Oh :( ok, then I want a teaching lesson with Monet ... for one hour."

15th jan: <3 Brian, my love <3 almost exactly one year ago I became 40 years old: for that reason my parents came to Berlin. my parents got divorced when I was 8 years young. since that, it was only the third time that I was with both of them together. my 40th birthday day I just spent with my parents. but the day before: Brian came here. he wanted to meet my parents. and I wanted to introduce to my parents the man I love most on that planet.

it was a wonderful hour when all the luck in the world had happened to me.

lucky moments can be over very fast ... when you experience lucky moments, then enjoy it from the deepest bottom of your heart <3

R.I.P. Brian <3

16th jan: *WOW* what a wonderful birthday present: today starts the groupshow "Heart Breaking Even" at the HA HA Gallery in Southampton ^^ ... when you are in town pls join the event*

16th jan: Alice in Wonderland: "ok Patrick, your first wish became true already ... you met Monet in your dreams. what is your second wish !?"
Patrick: "KATE <3 KATE MOSS <3 <3 <3 We spent the same amount of lifetime on that planet ... both born on 16th january 1974. I want to talk with her about SEX DR`GS AND PETE :* "
Alice screams to Patrick´s fb friends: " PLS IS ANYONE IN CONTACT WITH KATE !!!??? I HAVE A WISH TO FULFILL ! "
Patrick: "Thank You Alice <3 :* "

16th jan: looking 41 years back makes me look like that on that picture, because of:

* running around in public with a black leather mask in my thirties
* moving illegal (<= why it was ´illegal´ is another story) to Paris in the age of 19
* being a leader of a gang in the age of 11
* smuggeld myself into one of the best schools of Europe in the age of 14 (right! I should have never been there, BUT ... )
* started to paint with oil on canvas in the age of 39
* and and and

there are good sides and bad sides in everyone´s life ... today I want to focus on the good side =D

Thank You Mati for that wonderful photography*

16th jan: Alice in Wonderland: "ok Patrick, I fullfilled you the first wish ´having Monet in your dreams´ , then I am working hard on your second wish ´meeting Kate Moss´. now there is one last wish left ..."
Patrick: "Brian <3 I would like to be together with him again"
Alice: "you will! you will! one day you will be together again! just be patient."

18th jan: I always felt connected with those guys. and NOW I am connected with them with my life, my work and the message in it. I fullfill almost every point which they did about 150 years ago: Corbet, Manet, Monet and Cézanne

18th jan: hey diary, I am just watching a documentary about NIETZSCHE. of course I am interessted in his work, but I never understood it ... the world of Nietzsche, Schoppenhauer, ... always seemed to me as stories from another planet.

I was never good with words or reading. actually: reading always caused some unpleasant pain inside of me. I read only about 5 books in my whole life.

In school I was forced to learn languages such as english, french, spanish and some latin in my early years. I was always bad in those languages and never had a talent for that (actually: language classes made me always feel sick). further: I was always confused about how many languages do exist and that I could never talk with everyone on that planet. for that reason: I focused on reading faces, body language, ...

but I know about the importance of philosophers such as Nietzsche and therefore I watch this documentary now ... in hope to get at least a little bit closer to their knowledge

19th jan: <3 Esterházy Cake <3 at Patrick´s Open Studio *

okokok ... I can´t wait and have to tell it to you today already: for this saturday´s Open Studio I plan to bake an ^^ Esterházy Cake ^^ ... this cake is veeeery hard to get, because it is a looot of work and has just the best ingredients ... a DIAMOND of AUSTRIAN-HUNGARY EMPIRE BAKE ART ... OH YES! T H A T is a TRUE SISSY CAKE =P <3

I loooove that cake*

19th jan: just for the protocol:
Patrick Bartsch is an impressionistic painter of the 21st century

(or do you have a better describtion!?)

impressionists such as Corbet, Manet, Monet and Cézanne did paint the society as it was (also and especially in a political way). and using a new style of creating paintings.

I paint the colorful, free, liberal society of Berlin of the zero years (based on my own photographies). which is a political statement too. and I am using a new style of creating my paintings.


christmas market 15th december 2014
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my dentist is at Potsdamer Platz ... that´s perfect^^ because each time when I need to go there, I take some time to do a little walk at the Potsdamer Platz. today I eeeeeeeenjoyed the sensationel shinny glitzy christmas market*



walks 10th december 2014
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I love that city ^^ ... and walk is something which I enjoy a looooot ... I can´t get enough of Berlin <3



some postings which I created on facebook 9th december 2014 - 30th december 2014
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stories mix posted on facebook:

30th dec: ... and 2014 was the year when <3 Brian <3 left this world ... but he will never leave my heart ... * when I fall in love it will be forever <3 *

30th dec: Patrick´s couch monologues:

question: *what are your plans for new years eve?*

answer: *I plan to stay at home and watch the people and fireworks from inside of my flat. ... it´s the dog inside of me ... I am not a fan of firecrackers and masses of people everywhere. my new years eve party will be in the morning when I eat 350 g alaska salmon (that´s a lot! =P) ... OMG how boring or I am just getting old ...*

29th dec: proud to be part of it ^^ Heart breaking even ^^ ... pls see my portrait of wonderful artist Oleg Tolstoy ... in oil on canvas ... opening on friday 16th january at HA HA Gallery in Southampton*

29th dec: John Irving´s book "The Hotel New Hampshire" is one of the most important reasons, why I live in a redlight area of Berlin. I read it in the age of 15 and I was phascinated of the second hotel in the book ... staged in Vienna and having a lot of prostitues in this story. ... I was phascinated while reading the book and found a beauty in being surrounded by prostitutes for the first time in my life. ... and now ... today ... I live since more than 10 years here ... isn´t that a beautiful photography which I took just right now* ... aaaaand WOW* the influence of books can be enormouuuuuuus ^^ never underestimate ... thx John*

28th dec: yesterday: a guy (28 years young): "of course I know you! of course I know Master Patrick! you are an institution of the Berlin nightlife. I always thought you are an absolutly out of control crazy STUPID freak!"

I love it when people have some nice words for me :) <3

... and as result we needed to talk about his words till late at night* it was wonderful :*

28th dec: yesterday´s Open Studio with George´s reading was very wonderful* I enjoyed it a lot ... with many beautiful people which did warm my heart and soul *THX <3 ... and sure I bought the book " I AM PROCESS " by George Keeling ^^ I am sure I will find in it some wise words which fit to me*

27th dec: to me this is a little big sensation, that in our todays world still people exist who write BOOKS ^^ ... something which is made for future generations and eternity ^^

25th dec: this is not a christmas story: * multiple personality disorder *

first of all: I wouldn´t name it ´disorder´ because it feels good*

in the past days I took a lot of selfies ... staged selfies. while creating those I take the person on the picture as another person ... I see myself on photographies and handle it as someone else ... a kind of puppet where I can decide what to give that puppet to wear, what to give that puppet in their hands, ... And many times when I go too far, then I let this "crazy out-of-control" puppet go, but take distance from it. sometimes I have fun creating those puppets of myself, but don´t want to be it by myself. (btw: I think only someone who has multiple personality disorder too, is able to follow those words :) )

there are a looooot of personalities which I let be alive: those masked ones, the serious one when I wear suites, and and and .... and the painter one too

the question remains: who am I, really!? ... I feel very close to the answer for that question, when I am alone in nature ... feeling gras and trees ... watching and listening to animals ... touching water and snow ... feeling wind and sun

I know it may sound weird when someone talks about that, because in our culture, that ´disorder´ is very close to ´being crazy´. in other parts of the world such as Africa, Asia,... this is very common and accepted

thank u for reading*

thoughts for my diary on 25th december 2014

25th dec: <3 Joe Cocker <3


when I was in the age of 17 (23 years ago) we went with some other kids from our school to a concert of Joe Cocker. this happened in Graz, which is a small city, what means it was a kind of a "private concert" ... during the concert: it was possible to walk around, to dance everywhere, going close to stage, ...
it was a concert which I will never forget ... it was beautiful, but the word which describes it best is: *** SEXY *** YES, SEXY! that´s the right word! everything has been sexy at that evening ... the whole band ... the audience ... and of course Joe Cocker himself

R.I.P. Joe ... your music, your voice and your spirit will be in my heart forever*

24th dec: *** Christmas ***

it´s almost christmas eve ... the streets are almost empty and it´s raining ...

... the tax consultant is still busy working through a labyrinth of bills
... the old artist who is almost always alone is also tonight alone
... the hot-sheet hotel is open and prostitutes with their punters go inside
... some young streethustlers are around on the street ... as always
... an obviously poor family with two little children and no presents in their hands are in a hurry in a direction to an unknown place
... some tourists are late and running with their suitcases somewhere

... each year when I look outside of my window ... I think:

*** Christmas did forget some people ***

23rd dec: *** MERRY CHRISTMAS *** to eee<3eeeeveryone:* my christmas message to you: IT´S CHRISTMAS! EAT AS MUCH AS YOU CAN <3 =P :* ... oh ... in my mouth: thaaaat´s oooooriginal BLACK FORREST ADLER HAM =P one of THE BEST HAM in Germany =P

22nd dec: it´s the first time that I see myself cry ... those tears and expression of that face mean: that I got loved and loved. and now: do not have the possibilty anymore just to say "Thank You" ... Thank you to many people who made my childhood and youth a wonderful one ... Thank you to my mentor Gunther R.I.P. ... Thank you to Brian R.I.P. ... those tears are for all of you ... and soon I will smile again, because I know that you always loved watching smile :)

22nd dec: dear diary,

almost the whole day I need to cry ... my tears won´t stop to flow over my face

I am not able to define the exact cause for my sadness

... perhaps it is that realized that I will never be young again (the legendary German entertainer Udo Jürgens died yesterday. he was a kind of the big symbols of my childhood and youth ... with his death I realized that my youth is over.)
... perhaps it is because christmas is coming soon and it reminds me that my parents divorced when I was 8 years young and since then I was never again able to enjoy christmas
... perhaps it is that I miss Brian endlessly and still are not able to understand what it means "Brian is dead."

I don´t try to stop those rivers of tears ... I just want to be alone ... perhaps do a little walk ... and just wait till christmas 2014 is over ... as I do it almost every year

22nd dec: ja Meeeeeensch GIANNI ^^ da sieht man sich auf youtube die GROSSE ZDF Geburtstagsparty mit und für Udo Jürgens an ... und entdeckt nen lieben Freund auf der Bühne: Gianni Meurer <3 (der Dunkelhaarige) in einer schwulen Version von "Das ehrenwerte Haus" ^^ TOLL ^^ GAAAANZ TOLL GEMACHT ^^ (bei min. 48:00) jetzt weiß ich auch weshalb ich dich länger nicht gesehen habe* GRATULIERE ^^

21st dec: ... es ist so viel was (ver)geht

Udo Jürgens Tod trifft mich sehr ... war er doch einer der Inbegriffe meiner Kindheit ... einer der Größten für meine Mutter und somit automatisch für mich auch

die Zeit vergeht und mit ihr die Menschen welche wir lieben

ebenso das Ende von Wetten Dass..? traf mich im Innersten. Gehörte doch auch dies zu den Highlights meiner Kindheit.

die Zeit vergeht und mit ihr die Dinge welche wir lieben

Wowereits Rücktritt zeigte mir, daß auch die schönste Traumwelt ein Ende hat und Berlin sich verändert.

die Zeit vergeht und mit ihr die Träume

... und nicht zu letzt Brians Tod im Sommer diesen Jahres welcher das Unvorstellbare wahr werden ließ und ein tiefes Loch in meine Seele riss.

die Zeit vergeht und mit ihr die größten Lieben

die Welt dreht sich weiter und ich frage mich: gehört all dies zum Älterwerden dazu!?

die Zeit vergeht und was bleibt sind Erinnerungen

21st dec: R.I.P. Udo Jürgens ... Udo was one of the GREATEST german speaking (born in Austria) composers and musicians. today he died in the age of 80.
THANK YOU for all those woooooonderful moments with your music which has been part all of my life <3

21st dec: just working on my new website ... oh, I create almost everything by myself: my websites, my flyers, cakes, ...

21st dec: oh Brian <3 just right now I am watching the tribute concert to Freddie Mercury and Axl Rose is singing with his awesome outfit by Stephen. I will never forget how you told me everything and everything and everything about the love of your life: Stephen <3 I wish that you both are at a wonderful place somewhere ... together again <3 this world misses both of you <3

20th dec: some thoughts in the middle of the night in Berlin:

"till now I created about 300 paintings in oil on canvas and I still remember the first one."
"I should speak french more often ... it is such a beautiful language."
"this year´s christmas I want to spend alone."
"I eat a lot those days and I am hungry again ... right now."
"Joe and Kim Dallesandro cause wonderful memories to me ... I love them."
"someone said, that I life in a "hole" ... is my flat really a hole!?"
"arte is my most favorite chanel in tv and I continue watching now ... something about tattoos just started there."

19th dec: <3 falling in love <3 ... it is kind of "normal" that I love almost everthing around me* but at the moment this feeling of love is muuuuch stronger as I used to know it ... I am falling in love with people around me, with people on fb which I have never met before, with food and drink, with Berlin, my cloths, ... I have no idea where those strong feelings of love come from right now ... *hmmm* ... I mean: it feels good <3

19th dec: I know that I reached the place in life where I belong to, when: I am working on my new website www.patrickbartsch.com ... but DON´T CLICK ON IT ... I just started to fit one of my old websites male-gods.com into a new website ... okokok when I write again DON´T CLICK ON IT, then you will! ... but: there is nothing finished to see there yet * OH! and the title "Men out of this world!" was the title of the old website ... of course* ... and if you should find photographies: yes, those are some of the photographies which I created some years ago and will paint now in oil on canvas*

17th dec: everything looses importance ... when ... to have painful toothache *ooouuuuchhh that huuuurts :( *

16th dec: " nen echten Bartsch gibt´s für durchschnittlich 80 Euro ... Öl auf Leinwand wohlgemerkt! ... ja, wissen se: Ich male für die Menschen, da bekommt jemand mit ganz wenig Geld auch mal für 20 Euro nen Bild von mir. "

15th dec: just did a walk at the christmas market at Potsdamer Place ... those are that moments when I think "DAMN YOU LIVE IN BERLIN" ... even after 10 years it feels as a kind of dream ... living in Berlin ^^ that christmas market is AWESOME ^^

14th dec: sometimes I see people, places, ... which remind me of Brian <3

then I close my eyes for a moment and let Brian be alive in my memories ... I start to imitate his words and his gestic ... which makes the memories much more real

then I smile ... with closed eyes ... and sometimes I wish never again to open my eyes, because I am afraid to loose Brian again ... even in my memories

14th dec: ... once at PORKparty°° me saying "hey Brian, Michael Stipe is outside of the bar. does he needs to pay for the entry?" ... Brian looked at me with his special smiling face and said "EVERYBODY NEEDS TO PAY!" ... and this was how it happened: I made him pay. Michael obviously loved the party, because he came several times* he was one of us and that made Michael AWESOME beautiful <3

14th dec: Good-bye "Wetten Dass..?"

Ja, auch für mich war Wetten Dass..? als Kind eine Familiensendung für mich ... über Gottschalk war ich damas sehr glücklich, weil er mir doch regelmäßig zeigte, daß man einfach frech sein darf!

DANKE! für die schönen Momente ... damals ... und hier eines meiner Highlights: Wolfgang Joop zeichnet Madonna :*

12th dec: as I told you already some months ago: T H A T guy has everything to become a supermodel ^^ modern greek gods are very rare to find, and he is one of the best ^^ follow him Nikason Laios ^^

11th dec: OH WOWI <3 I WILL MISS YOU A LOOOOOOT AS MAYOR OF BERLIN ^^ you did respect me as working artist as no other mayor of such a big city ever would! THANK YOU 4 THAT

11th dec: * Open Studio with George * do you know George Keeling !? he is P H A N T A S T I C and you should meet him :* he is on tour with his NEW BOOK (in english) " I AM PROCESS " and will join the Open Studio this saturday from 4 p.m. till 5 p.m. ^^ see you <3

10th dec: OH, just remember that: I was an altar boy ("YES, REALLY!") when I was a kid ... I loved the church and the creative beauty there ... everywhere art! ... I remember those BIG paintings: 14 stations of the cross ... wonderful paintings! and yes, I thought at that time, that I would wish that I did create them.

and now: perhaps one day I really will ...

9th dec: as teenager I got teached to cook and now 25 years later I use that knowledge* today: roast veal with saffron rice, vegetables and port sauce =P ooooOOOOH it has been delicious =P





some postings which I created on facebook 18th october 2014 - 8th december 2014
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stories mix posted on facebook:

18th nov: ^^ The national flag of the United States of America ^^

since some months I am working on the painting of ´Barack Obama in Berlin´. and since some weeks it kind of stopped. ... the next step is to paint the American Flag.

I realized, that it is not just blue, red and white. when I paint that flag then I paint a part of all my American friends, I paint the American history, I paint American Art, the mormons, Brian, McDonalds, MoMa, and and and ... I am completly aware of that. it will need all my energy to continue with that painting and to paint * The national flag of the United States of America *

19th nov: * Open Studio Invitations *


... there is a new limit with inviting people to events. that means: it is not possible to invite everyone personal on fb.

when you are around pls join the Open Studio* ... every saturday 3 p.m. - 10 p.m. ... in Kleiststr. 37a (this is directly at corner Eisenacher Str. ... close to undergroundstation Nollendorfplatz)


see you :*

19th nov: I love journeys, but more with my minds than with my body

each painting is a journey to me ... while creating it ... and when it´s finished, when I look at it. they are like movies to me and songs and books

only a part of my paintings is created by myself ... a good part of those paintings is created by another energy ... name it universe or god or ...

the result ... the finished painting is always a surprise (also because of the different techniques which I use)

to paint means to me: to ask for the universe and get answers from the universe

(explanation: I love to see and feel physically other destinations. but I suffer from different phobias, such as speed, hight, ... which makes it very difficult to use airplanes, cars, ... ... as result: all my life I was kind of trapped to the area where I life and this made me to perfect to find other ways to travel ... )

20th nov: oh Brian <3 ... Brian believed in us ... in each one of us ... and that unconditional love made Brian special ... very special

20th nov: +++ ATTENTION VIRUS ON FB +++ when you get a private message from someone with your name: such us: "Mr. X Private Video!"

don´t open it! otherwise you will get spamed with hundreds of messages

21st nov: ... my parents ... my old parents ... and their gay son

the older they are (both now almost 70 years and live in different areas with new partners) the more they are looking for a closer contact to me ... and it is very difficult to handle to me. on one side I know how old they are (and my father had heartattacks) and on the other side: I just have almost no time now ... I mean I am in the middle of my life (40 years now) and when I am not busy with my dreams now ... then when?

my parents never could handle a gay son ... my father never really wanted, that I come to the village where he lifes and my mom was busy with her mormon religion. ´without´ parents I grew up very free in the past decades ... I could life a live of my choice and had almost no contact with my parents ... this ´gay´ life of their son has been to complicated for them and for that reason they haven´t been interessted in it. my father just asked the same question "do you have enough to eat?" and when I answered "yes", then everything was fine to him. and my mom always said "you know that you can always come back, our doors are always open for you!" it was nice to hear that, but I told her (and she knows it) that I would never come back.

and now they want me ... at least something ... something they have missed all their lives: their son! but nothing has really changed: they still can´t handle that "gay thing" ... what has as result, that: we are not able to spend a long time together ... maximum 2 or 3 days (every some years)

it´s difficult all for all of us, because we all know that the time is running

and the sad thing: in the past decades with almost no contact ... my parents became somehow ´strangers´ to me

21st nov: after aaaaaaallllll those years of fights and hate: finally: Arnie in Graz <3 Graz wasn´t happy at all, that he became governeur of a country, where death penalty exists. and then Arnie did forbid, that Graz to use his name ... they even had to rename the "Arnold Schwarzenegger Stadion". ... I lived in that wonderful city for many years and my mom still lives there today. Graz is a veeeery beautiful city with veeeeery beautiful people <3

21st nov: FIRST TIME using an easel* ... you know, that I am a beginner with creating paintings in oil on canvas. usually I paint on the floor, but tonite I used the easel ... for the very first time ... and it felt AAAAWESOME ^^

21st nov: ... inner monologs with Brian let me grow ...

today I wanted to paint a painting for Brian. I know what he likes. in that case flowers: the little ones ... with little leaves and little flowers ... and a lot of them

as always I started to paint on the floor ... all those little leaves. after a while my back started to hurt and an inner voice (which did sound as Brian´s voice) said to me "use the easel!"

I have a lot of respect of painters who use an easel. I have an wonderful easel here ... a present from a much greater painter. I never used it ... I just looked at it for the past months.

and today I did paint on an easel ... uncountable little leaves ... while working on the painting I did inner monolgs with Brian.

and now ... NOW I AM ONE OF THEM: one of those painters which create their paintings on an easel ... I felt as sitting for the very first time in a Rolls Royce ... it´s an adventure ... and today it was an adventure with Brian <3

21st nov: ^^ NACO PARIS ^^ my favorite fashion designer and artist star in Paris <3

23rd nov: Rolling Stones, Queen, U2, .... and today it is MUSE ^^ THE BEST BAND IN THE WORLD ... can´t stop to listen to all those live concerts on youtube ... and I am not the only one ... most of those concerts have million of views ... WHAT A BAND !!! ... btw: if you know someone who knows someone: I would LOOOOOVE TO HAVE V.I.P. ticket for a concert =D :* <3


perhaps you realized the latest interview of Will Smith´s children: WILLOW and JADEN SMITH ... it is very philosophical ... about time, universal power, asian mythology, and and and. They are not the only one. more and more this thinking becomes popular and especially in the NEW YOUNG GENERATION

BUT there lays a !!! DANGER !!! in it:

first it sounds all fierce and good, but it becomes dangerous when people start using it in wrong way: for example: when people start saying, that it´s someone own mistake, when someone is poor, sick, ... and/or is ´just´ a hard common worker.
with that universal power thinking, especially rich and/or successful people find an answer, why it is ok, that some people have everything (because they get in contact with that power) and some people have (almost) nothing (because they don´t get in contact with that part of energy).

I do that ´universal stuff´since many years, yes: since decades. I know how good it is, but only used in a good way.

24th nov: thaaA aaAAat many wonderful people at ICKYparty yesterday =D

it was aaaawesome to feel the love, joy and happiness of eachone <3

the music GREAT ^^ Mika Risiko is for sure one of my TOP FAVORITE DJ´s * what an energy and stunning style of music =D Mika made me dance for the first time at F3000 since Brian´s death in june. THANK YOU FOR THAT <3 I really needed it and Brian was watching me (yes, his photography is placed next to the entry door of F3000)

THANK YOU to everyone and everyone aaaand eeeeeeeveryone <3 Jared ICKY is BEST *applause* *applause* *applause*

24th nov: Patrick´s Stammtischpalaverbeitrag zum Thema

" David Berger das Männer Magazin und die DAH "

also kurz: David Bruno Rosa und gaaaaaanz viele andere verbindet vor allem eines: sie sind MACHER ... im großen Stil ... es ist gut was sie tun und sehr wichtig ... Die Schwule Szene und Deutschland wäre arm ohne sie und ihre Arbeit

Diese Menschen verdienen Bewunderung und keine Verachtung
Diese Menschen verdienen Dialoge und keine Ausgrenzung
Diese Menschen verdienen Unterstützung und keine gegen sie gerichteten Haßtiraden
Diese Menschen sind vor allem Menschen ... machen sehr viel richtig und manches falsch ... deshalb sind sie Menschen

Liebe und Ehre den Menschen welche sich mit IHREM NAMEN F Ü R eine Sache einsetzen von welcher letztendlich WIR ALLE profitieren.

24th nov: there exist a long tradition of painted water lilies ... some years ago I photographed them in the Berliner Tiergarten. and here is the interpretation of the photography as painting in oil on canvas ^^


I found some changes in my face ... my skin looks different ... and a lot more

then I did some research in the internet and guess what is written there:


I neeeeeeed to call Madonna and talk with her about HOW TO LOOK YOUNG FOREVER *LOL*

okokok just a joke ... I am getting older ... and I have to accept the fact, that my face starts to look different ... *hhhhmmmmpppffffff*

25th nov: *** HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSA <3 <3 <3 Rosa belongs to the most important persons for me. from the very first moment Rosa believed in me ... gave me jobs and did feed me in my most difficult first years in Berlin *THANK YOU FOR EEEEEEVERYTHING * I LOVE YOU ROSA <3 <3 <3 wish you a wooooonderful day and see you later* I have some presents for you :*

27th nov: I remember when I asked Brian what that ´thanksgiving´ is about ... but somehow I forgot his answer :( ... whatever: ** Happy Thanksgiving to Everyone **

27th nov: <3 HAPPY THANKSGIVING <3

I am thankful, that I was part of Brian´s life for some years.
I am thankful for many wonderful moments full of endless happiness.
I am thankful for all the lessons Brian teached me.
I am thankful for Brian´s love.

I know how many people suffer today, because they have to ´celebrate´ Thanksgiving without Brian. my thoughts are with you <3

30th nov: did you ever hear about THE SHIP BREAKERS OF BANGLADESH !!!???

*DAMN* I would name them "slaves of our world"

this world needs HELP !!! * Happy 1st advent *

30th nov: *** I save the world ***

since I am little child I want to save this world ... it started with the animals of the forrest where I grew up ... later I dreamed about the save the animals of the whole world.
then when I started with school, I tried to help those kids who needed help ... later I dreamed about to help all kids around the world.
always I tried to help people as much as possible ... today I dream about to help all people and animals on that planet.

the more I look at this world, the bigger and more cruel this world becomes ... meanwhile I feel helpless with my dream to help.
sometimes I dream myself away ... far far away into the universe ... an attempt to escape from that world. but when I open my eyes and look on the streets and in the internet, then I am back again ... back in that world which needs H E L P !

I can´t save the world ... and that fact makes me very very veeeeery sad

1st dec: 1st december *** World AIDS Day *** LOVE <3 to Klaus Nomi, Freddie Mercury, ... and all friends who died and still life with that terrible disease

2nd dec: <3 <3 <3 Happy Birthday to You Brian <3 <3 <3 oh, yes and it´s Britney´s b-day too =D

a present!?

sure I have a present for you:

there is a place in my heart which belongs to you ... 4ever

I love you <3

2nd dec: ^^ celebrating the deads ^^

we all know that, when birthdays of dead people got celebrated, such as 250th birthday of Mozart, 80th birthday of Elvis, ...

I didn´t know all those people and somehow it felt weird to me ... to celebrate a birthday of someone who died

now with Brian it is the first time, that I did know him ... his life and his work. Brian died on 5th june this year and today it is his ... his 34th birthday

it is the first time, that I feel and realize, that it makes sense to celebrate someone´s birthday ... even he is dead: because in our memories he is alive.

<3 it feels good to celebrate Brian´s birthday <3

I thought a lot about Brian´s mom too ... how she might feel today ... my thoughts are especially with you too Carlene <3 and of course Brian´s dad Todd <3 I would like to thank you for your son which brought that much joy in that many lifes ... Brian-Tennessee Claflin inspired all of us and we will never stop to celebrate his birthday <3

3rd dec: ^^ Patrick der Besserwisser ^^

seid oder seit

also das schreibt so ziemlich JEDER falsch und es tut einfach jedesmal nur weh! ... vor allem wenn man es non-stop bei "Profi-Schreibern" falsch geschrieben sieht.

also: z.B.: seiT 10 Jahren lebe ich in Berlin
und ihr seiD alle wunderbar

und okokok: klar, mache ich auch viele Rechtschreiberfehler, ABER ich bezeichne mich ja auch nicht als "Redakteur", "Schriftsteller", usw.

SO! das mußte jetzt mal raus *ggrmmmpppfff*

3rd dec: OH ^^ btw. °° HO HO HO °° soon there will be christmas:

when you buy presents:


we aaaaaaalllllll need your support^^

Thank You*

3rd dec: das muß jetzt doch auch mal erwähnt werden: also diese Frauke Ludowig kommt so süß und sympathisch auf facebook rüber ... sie lächelt immer so freundlich ... und sie verschenkt die ganze Zeit irgendwelche Sachen über welche sich viele Menschen freuen :) rischtisch zum Verlieben diese Frauke <3 :*

4th dec: today I cooked some fresh pollack with a loooot of potatoes =P I LOOOOVE TO EAT ... since I stopped smoking ... I mean: that´s the price of a big box Marlboro on the plate ^^ I need to reward myself for being sober*

4th dec: ^^ live/work space in Berlin ^^ needed for one of the most talented tattoo artists I know: Jose ... pls contact him when you can help

4th dec: ^^ I HAVE MY OWN STYLE ^^ *WWHHHOOUUUIIII* I would say "JACKPOT" =D

4th dec: detail of the (not finished) big painting "Barack Obama in Berlin" ... today I painted Mr. President Obama´s face ... it looks more like the face of a boxing fighter ... I think his job has a lot in common with a boxer/fighter ... the painting is not finshed yet ... a lot of details are missing ... and YES! I am 100 % pro Barack Obama
detail of the (not finished) big painting "Barack Obama in Berlin" ... today I painted Mr. President Obama´s face ... it looks more like the face of a boxing fighter ... I think his job has a lot in common with a boxer/fighter ... the painting is not finshed yet ... a lot of details are missing ... and YES! I am 100 % pro Barack Obama

4th dec: Patrick´s monologues:



*relax* *relax Patrick*

why are you thaaaat much obsessed with that!?

"it has been the time of my life"

... and to paint it ... this is my way to say *Thank You*

I left Berlin 3 times in the past 10 years ... I have been always here ... I have been everywhere ... Berlin has been the best place in the whole world to me ... I love Berlin and its Glamour :* <3

" okokok then go on with your plan and paint as much as possible from your 130 000 photographies which you took in that city!"

5th dec: oh, it´s already the season ^^ highlights of the year ^^

let´s make it short:
my highlights 2014:

o every saturday Open Studio with YOU <3
o every sunday at F3000 with YOU <3
o celebrating my 40th birthday on 16th january =D
o meeting Muay Thai Legend BUAKAW =D
o creating more than 120 paintings in oil on canvas
o *äääööhhhmmm* being addicted to fb* LOVE YOU ALL <3

that´s it.

6th dec: okokok to be fair: I just watched the documentary about the "greatest architect alive": FRANK GEHRY

yes, I love the idea about how he is creating his work and yes, of course I know many of his buildings. they are special and have a kind of extraordinary beauty.

but that "THING" in Abu Dhabi doesn´t belong to my favorite works ... perhaps the project has been too big for Frank Gehry. ... I would be interested what Coop Himmelblau would have created there, which are to me the "greatest architects alive".

7th dec: Patrick´s saturday night full moon thoughts:

every 7 years the body is brandnew and every 7 years a new phase of life happens: from newborn till 7 (first steps) ...
from age 7 till 14 (school) ...
from age 14 till 21 (puberty) ...
from age 21 till 28 (Vienna,...) ...
from age 28 till 35 (the sober years) ...
from age 35 till now (party years in Berlin) ...

soon I will reach the age 41 ... close to 42 ... ... I can feel the end of a 7 years phase and I am able to feel already the pre-shadows of a NEW 7 years phase in my life

I am already excited about it ... and I hope and think, that it will be about "being a painter"

*knock on woods*


7th dec: some weeks ago I asked my friend from Mosul/Iraq : "how is that possible what is happening there right now!?"

7th dec: just watched a documentary about JEFF KOONS at ARTE TV... and yes, I got inspired

I realized that my warm-up period should be over at the end of 2014: in 2015 I need to put more seriousness, accuracy and professionalism into my work ... <= *patam* *patam* *patam* aaaaand here I have them: my goals for 2015

... aaaaaand be prepared: many years ago (okokok about 18 years ago) my first love said to me "do you know why I love you!?"
I answered "no ..."
he said "when you dream about something, then you make it reality!"
... till today this is one of the most wonderful compliments I ever got <3

2015 will be my third year of intense painting in oil on canvas

8th dec: WOW ^^ WHAT A ZIRKUSnight =D can´t wait for P H A N T A S T I C Gloria Viagra <3 ... aaaaand one of my MOST FAVORITE DJ´s Dickey Doo :* ... aaaand AWESOME MELLI MAGIC <3 ... aaaaand lovely Bork <3 ... the HOTSEXY barkeepers =P ... aaaaand all our loooooved guests <3 ...oooooh and I may host T H A T EVENT =D see ya on saturday <3 :*

8th dec: someone X: *hmmmm* who are those weird people which listen to classic music on youtube? and bring them millions of views

Patrick: IT´S ME! IT´S ME! I am one of them =D

8th dec: the last days of Mr. Klaus Wowereit as mayor of Berlin ... it makes me kind of sad :( ... was he THE reason, that I moved to Berlin that much fast ... about 10 years ago. :) and as you all know already: and now I paint those years in oil on canvas (I do that also for you Klaus*) ... that those years will be in humans memory FOREVER <3 I LOVE YOU KLAUS <3 see you on wednesday*

8th dec: zu David Berger :

sagt mal ihr David Berger Hasser und HassbotschaftenSchreiber: SEID IHR DENN JETZT ALLE KOMPLETT DURCHGEKNALLT !!! ???

Schonmal was von LIEBE gehört!? Ihr würdet David wohl am liebsten aus Deutschland verbannen wenn ihr könntet, um in glücklicher Gemeinsamkeit der "Deutschen Queeren Idee" gedient zu haben. Mir kommt das Kotzen bei eurem Gehabe!

David hat eine andere Vergangenheit als die meisten von uns, aber ist er deshalb ein "schlechter" Schwuler !? Antwort: NEIN ! ... auch ich habe während meiner ganzen Schulzeit mein Schwulsein verleugnet um keine die Fresse zu bekommen und schikaniert zu werden ... bin ich deshalb ein "schlechter" Schwuler, weil ich nicht loud and proud "Ich bin Schwul!" von mir gegeben habe. Antwort: NEIN !

Ihr schreit alle nach Akzeptanz und wisst offensichtlich nicht im Ansatz was es bedeutet dieses Wort selbst zu leben! Mit Liebe und Gefühl erreicht man Menschen. Reicht David die Hand wenn ihr der Meinung seid, daß er Hilfe in so manch queeren Angelegenheiten benötigt! ABER "NEIN!" ihr hängt euch alle zusammen und haut schön drauf ... jajaja in der Gruppe ist man ja noch stärker und es fühlt sich ja auch noch gut an! JÄMMERLICH SEID IHR DIE NICHTS ANDERES KÖNNEN ALS OPFER ZU SUCHEN UND DARAUF VERBAL EINZUSCHLAGEN!

... und ich liebe euch alle trotzdem, weil ihr meine Familie seid und es offenbar zur Zeit nicht anders wisst und/oder könnt.

<3 Liebe ist der Schlüssel zu Menschen und zum Ziel <3



some postings which I created on facebook 29th october 2014 - 17th november 2014
filed under mix

stories mix posted on facebook:

30th oct: (comment to a video) "ISLAM BELONGS TO GERMANY" <= this is what leading german politicans say! ... if Islam rules the place where I live, then: I WILL BE ONE OF THOSE BEHEADED MEN TOO! ... there is a video in this article which shows about 5 min. beheaded men ... and a kid holding a head in the camera! +++ THIS NEEDS TO STOP !!! +++ the world needs to know ... this is why I share that video and article

30th oct: oh YES! 60 ML oooooriginal ... no imitate! ... thaaaat rare CADMIUM ORANGE ... I bought it ... 43 Euro *DAMN IT* ... I neeeeeeded it ... T H A T same wonderful "orange" which E. Munch used for ´The Scream´ ... Cadmium Seleno Sulphide PR108 OLD-HOLLAND ... *happy now =D

31st: " a painting is a painting and a photography is a photography. and if a painting should look very similar to a photography, then there exist thousands of painters which are able to do that muuuuch better than I could ever do that." Patrick Bartsch 2014 " ... I mean come on: I grew up with the faces of Picasso and aaaadore Bacon <3 :* "

31st oct: vor etwa 6 Stunden habe ich ein Posting (muslime Eltern wollten ihren 15jährigen schwulen Sohn anzünden ... in Berlin) weitergeleitet und mein Kommentar passt offensichtlich nicht allen:

für diese hier ein Kommentar zu meinem Kommentar:

Wo ist der Protest von Islamischer Seite gegen diesen Gewaltakt!? ... Welche islamischen Medien verurteilen diese Tat öffentlich!? ... richtig! diesen Protest von Islamischer Seite gibt es nicht! also muß ich davon ausgehen, daß dieser Gewaltakt von breiter Islamischer Seite akzeptiert, wenn nicht so gar gewollt, wird. Islam tötet Schwule auf der ganzen Welt <= und da gibt es für mich nichts schön zu reden! ... ich bin kein Lamm welches seinen Schlächter in Schutz nimmt! <= Daran solltest du dich bitte gewöhnen, wenn du mit mir auf facebook verlinkt sein möchtest ... sonst bitte entfreunden! Danke Sehr!

31st oct: I am very happy that 3 little kids just rang at my door for trick or treat. okokok first I thought it´s a partyfriend of mine because of that heavy ringing. BUT then I realized it´s Halloween. Quick I grabbed a BIG chocolate and 5 euro and gave it to them. ... I did something similar too when I was a kid and I know how happy I was, when people gave something to me :) ^^ HAPPY HALLOWEEN ^^ to everyone <3

1st nov: Bork´s wooooonderland wooooonderful ZIRKUSparty ^^ the next one happens at 8th november aaaaaand I am very happy, that I will host the ZIRKUSparty in december ^^ stayed tuned with Patrick aka FANTASY48 :* I LOVE THOSE PARTYPEOPLE THERE <3 <3 <3

2nd nov: *** Patrick Bartsch Solo Exhibition ***
pls save the date: very wonderful travel agency Over the Rainbow (Knesebeckstraße 89) and lovely Gaby are celebrating their jubelee on 15th november and invited me to show some paintings* YES what an honor* it will be my very first solo exhbition just with paintings in oil on canvas. Pls join the event*

2nd nov: *** BAUER GESUCHT ***

Hallo liebe Berlinerinnen u. Berliner <3

es gibt doch bestimmt Bauern im Berliner Umland, welche Öffentlich plus etwa 1 Stunde Fußweg erreichbar sind.

Mein Stadtgroßeltern in Graz haben das immer gemacht: einmal pro Woche zum Bauern rausgefahren, dort lecker frisch gegessen und für zu Hause haben sie dann Eier, Gemüse, Fleisch,... mitgenommen.

So etwas wird es doch in Berlin auch geben!?

Kenne das Berliner Umland garnicht und bin für jeden Tip dankbar*

3rd nov: ^^ the artist ... the top athlet ^^

meanwhile my life is very similar to the life of an top athlet

working literally day and night for art

and I still feel how my energy is growing

all that is only possible with a looooot of discipline, training, and being sober

no alc, no cigarettes, no dr*gs since about 4 months

healthy food is more and more appreciated in my life

... what is on my list to do more in future: more sports!

stay tuned!

and BIG THANK YOU to everyone supporting me on my way* LOVE YOU <3 only together all this is possible to become real ^^

3rd nov: to paint in the evening means to me: to paint darkness, hell, fantasy,... and to paint in the morning means to me: to paint life, joy, happiness, ... YES, it is simple like that ... that is how I feel ^^

4th nov: (comment to a MoMa video) when Isa has been at my studio and invited me afterwards to go to her studio ... then I said "no" ... ... I think it was the right answer*


5th nov: ... those moments when the feelings of happiness beat the feelings of pain ... and causes little tears in the eyes

6th nov: (zum Bahnstreik) natürlich unterstütze ich diesen Streik ! NUR durch solche Streiks wird das Lohnniveau in Deutschland höher gehalten (weil nach und nach auch andere Firmen gezwungen werden sich dem Lohnniveau anzupassen). FREIWILLiG bezahlt so gut wie kein Arbeitgeber FAIRE Löhne und akzeptiert Grundrechte der Arbeitnehmer !!! also: BITTE WEITERSTREIKEN !!!

7th nov: sometimes I LOVE to cook after I painted ... isn´t it similar: to mix delicious colors or food ingredients together and to create a painting or dinner ... yes, my prepared food should taste as my paintings look like ... for tonite: some soup ... OOOH I LOOOOVE TO EAT since I life a sober life

7th nov: sometimes I LOVE to cook after I painted ... isn´t it similar: to mix delicious colors or food ingredients together and to create a painting or dinner =P ... yes, my prepared food should taste as my paintings look like =P ... for tonite: some soup ... OOOH I LOOOOVE TO EAT since I life a sober life =P

7th nov: (with a pic of a homemade meal) *check* *check* *test* *test* ... sure, this is FOR YOU <3 many years ago I learned ´cook´ ... I know what I do^^ ... just had some years of break with cooking for others ... and now I plan to start to invite for dinner evenings again* but right now I need to train a little bit. this one at the picture is traditional austrian, but I am able to cook french and italian too ... I am able to cook almost eeeeverything^^ can´t wait for relaxed dinner evenings :* with U <3

9th nov: der Tagesspiegel titelt in seiner Sonntagsausgabe "25 Jahre Wahnsinn"

*äääähhhmmmm* wer hatte nur die Idee zu sooooo einer Titelseite!? "25 Jahre Wahnsinn" <= das kann man doch nur 2deutig verstehen

absolutly FAIL !

9th nov: I am very happy, that I know Berlin just WITHOUT WALL ^^ since more than 10 years I live here and I haven´t been in Berlin before.

for me: there doesn´t exist an east and west side

Berlin is to me: ^^ ONE CITY ^^ and I love that city <3


10th nov: 1969 ... NO, IT´S 2014 at ICKYparty*

seen yesterday a ICKYparty: a veeeery beautiful and lovely straight couple. they danced and kissed together ... as love in heaven <3 <3 <3 they have been there with some more friends ... after some hours the guy left with guy ... in a very happy way togehter <3 obviously they love eachother too <3 <3 <3 ... and the girl stayed hugging and kissing with a phantastic girl which stayed with her in the club ... obviously they loved eachother too <3 <3 <3

10th nov: *** this world will never be the same ***

now it happens frequently ... almost everywhere I am going ... I started looking at people in a complete different way ... while looking at them I PAINT THEM * ... I look where the ears are located, where the shadow of the neck finds his way, how the area around the eyes really exactly looks like, sure I am watching arms, legs too ... the whole body

it´s very similar with watching movies ... once you start to be part of the movie production, no movie will ever look the same to you. ... and NOW this world will never look the same to me

I can´t really say that I like that situation ... it feels as if I lost something, but at the same time I gained something ... this situation is new and belongs to my job now

12th nov: today I reached my goal 2014 and finished more than 120 paintings ... each month 10 paintings is my goal ... OH YES! I need such goals, otherwise I become too lazy^^

but what never changed is: with every new painting I am that much exited as if it would be my first one*

full energy & love ... in eeeeeeevery painting <3

13th nov: (at Over The Rainbow) today we put the paintings on the walls ... and yes, we had fun =D and this is how it looks like there right now* ... relax* yes, life is a party =D see you on saturday^^

14th nov: * Ich bin nicht schwul *

sexuelle Aufklärung den Eltern zu überlassen ist Schrott !!!

Als ich als kleiner Junge meine Mutter fragte was "Prostituierte" bedeutet, erklärte sie mir "Das sind Frauen, welche neben der Straße stehen und wenig Kleidung anhaben."
... und als ich sie fragte was "schwul" bedeutet, antwortete sie "Das ist wenn zwei Männer versuchen ein Kind zu machen." worauf ich sagte "wissen die denn nicht, daß das nicht geht!?" ... somit war klar "ich war nicht schwul, denn ich wußte ja ´schon´ wie Kinder ´gemacht´ werden ...

Ich war zu dieser Zeit ungefähr 8 Jahre jung und direkt vom Dorf (im Schwarzwald) in die Stadt Graz gezogen. Dort schnappte ich diese Worte auf ... eben, ich war 8 !!! ... es ist richtig sexuelle Aufklärung in diesem Alter IN DER SCHULE durchzuführen!



cars 20th october 2014
filed under mix

cars cars cars ... in front of my balcony ^^

since years it is my passion to take pictures of all those extraordinary cars, which are parking in front of my balcony

here are 3 of the past weeks ... pls enjoy :)



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