mix posted on facebook:
nov: ^^ The national flag of the United States of America ^^
some months I am working on the painting of ´Barack Obama
in Berlin´. and since some weeks it kind of stopped. ... the
next step is to paint the American Flag.
realized, that it is not just blue, red and white. when I paint
that flag then I paint a part of all my American friends, I paint
the American history, I paint American Art, the mormons, Brian,
McDonalds, MoMa, and and and ... I am completly aware of that. it
will need all my energy to continue with that painting and to paint
* The national flag of the United States of America *
nov: * Open Studio Invitations *
EVERYONE IS INVITED <3
there is a new limit with inviting people to events. that means:
it is not possible to invite everyone personal on fb.
you are around pls join the Open Studio* ... every saturday 3 p.m.
- 10 p.m. ... in Kleiststr. 37a (this is directly at corner Eisenacher
Str. ... close to undergroundstation Nollendorfplatz)
saturday with FRESH HOMEMADE CHRISTMAS COOKIES =D
nov: I love journeys, but more with my minds than with my body
painting is a journey to me ... while creating it ... and when it´s
finished, when I look at it. they are like movies to me and songs
a part of my paintings is created by myself ... a good part of those
paintings is created by another energy ... name it universe or god
result ... the finished painting is always a surprise (also because
of the different techniques which I use)
paint means to me: to ask for the universe and get answers from
I love to see and feel physically other destinations. but I suffer
from different phobias, such as speed, hight, ... which makes it
very difficult to use airplanes, cars, ... ... as result: all my
life I was kind of trapped to the area where I life and this made
me to perfect to find other ways to travel ... )
nov: oh Brian <3 ... Brian believed in us ... in each one of
us ... and that unconditional love made Brian special ... very special
nov: +++ ATTENTION VIRUS ON FB +++ when you get a private message
from someone with your name: such us: "Mr. X Private Video!"
open it! otherwise you will get spamed with hundreds of messages
nov: ... my parents ... my old parents ... and their gay son
older they are (both now almost 70 years and live in different areas
with new partners) the more they are looking for a closer contact
to me ... and it is very difficult to handle to me. on one side
I know how old they are (and my father had heartattacks) and on
the other side: I just have almost no time now ... I mean I am in
the middle of my life (40 years now) and when I am not busy with
my dreams now ... then when?
parents never could handle a gay son ... my father never really
wanted, that I come to the village where he lifes and my mom was
busy with her mormon religion. ´without´ parents I grew
up very free in the past decades ... I could life a live of my choice
and had almost no contact with my parents ... this ´gay´
life of their son has been to complicated for them and for that
reason they haven´t been interessted in it. my father just
asked the same question "do you have enough to eat?" and
when I answered "yes", then everything was fine to him.
and my mom always said "you know that you can always come back,
our doors are always open for you!" it was nice to hear that,
but I told her (and she knows it) that I would never come back.
now they want me ... at least something ... something they have
missed all their lives: their son! but nothing has really changed:
they still can´t handle that "gay thing" ... what
has as result, that: we are not able to spend a long time together
... maximum 2 or 3 days (every some years)
difficult all for all of us, because we all know that the time is
the sad thing: in the past decades with almost no contact ... my
parents became somehow ´strangers´ to me
nov: after aaaaaaallllll those years of fights and hate: finally:
Arnie in Graz <3 Graz wasn´t happy at all, that he became
governeur of a country, where death penalty exists. and then Arnie
did forbid, that Graz to use his name ... they even had to rename
the "Arnold Schwarzenegger Stadion". ... I lived in that
wonderful city for many years and my mom still lives there today.
Graz is a veeeery beautiful city with veeeeery beautiful people
nov: FIRST TIME using an easel* ... you know, that I am a beginner
with creating paintings in oil on canvas. usually I paint on the
floor, but tonite I used the easel ... for the very first time ...
and it felt AAAAWESOME ^^
nov: ... inner monologs with Brian let me grow ...
I wanted to paint a painting for Brian. I know what he likes. in
that case flowers: the little ones ... with little leaves and little
flowers ... and a lot of them
always I started to paint on the floor ... all those little leaves.
after a while my back started to hurt and an inner voice (which
did sound as Brian´s voice) said to me "use the easel!"
have a lot of respect of painters who use an easel. I have an wonderful
easel here ... a present from a much greater painter. I never used
it ... I just looked at it for the past months.
today I did paint on an easel ... uncountable little leaves ...
while working on the painting I did inner monolgs with Brian.
now ... NOW I AM ONE OF THEM: one of those painters which create
their paintings on an easel ... I felt as sitting for the very first
time in a Rolls Royce ... it´s an adventure ... and today
it was an adventure with Brian <3
nov: ^^ NACO PARIS ^^ my favorite fashion designer and artist star
in Paris <3
nov: Rolling Stones, Queen, U2, .... and today it is MUSE ^^ THE
BEST BAND IN THE WORLD ... can´t stop to listen to all those
live concerts on youtube ... and I am not the only one ... most
of those concerts have million of views ... WHAT A BAND !!! ...
btw: if you know someone who knows someone: I would LOOOOOVE TO
HAVE V.I.P. ticket for a concert =D :* <3
nov: +++ ATTENTION UNIVERSAL POWER +++
you realized the latest interview of Will Smith´s children:
WILLOW and JADEN SMITH ... it is very philosophical ... about time,
universal power, asian mythology, and and and. They are not the
only one. more and more this thinking becomes popular and especially
in the NEW YOUNG GENERATION
there lays a !!! DANGER !!! in it:
it sounds all fierce and good, but it becomes dangerous when people
start using it in wrong way: for example: when people start saying,
that it´s someone own mistake, when someone is poor, sick,
... and/or is ´just´ a hard common worker.
with that universal power thinking, especially rich and/or successful
people find an answer, why it is ok, that some people have everything
(because they get in contact with that power) and some people have
(almost) nothing (because they don´t get in contact with that
part of energy).
do that ´universal stuff´since many years, yes: since
decades. I know how good it is, but only used in a good way.
nov: thaaA aaAAat many wonderful people at ICKYparty yesterday =D
was aaaawesome to feel the love, joy and happiness of eachone <3
music GREAT ^^ Mika Risiko is for sure one of my TOP FAVORITE DJ´s
* what an energy and stunning style of music =D Mika made me dance
for the first time at F3000 since Brian´s death in june. THANK
YOU FOR THAT <3 I really needed it and Brian was watching me
(yes, his photography is placed next to the entry door of F3000)
YOU to everyone and everyone aaaand eeeeeeeveryone <3 Jared ICKY
is BEST *applause* *applause* *applause*
nov: Patrick´s Stammtischpalaverbeitrag zum Thema
David Berger das Männer Magazin und die DAH "
kurz: David Bruno Rosa und gaaaaaanz viele andere verbindet vor
allem eines: sie sind MACHER ... im großen Stil ... es ist
gut was sie tun und sehr wichtig ... Die Schwule Szene und Deutschland
wäre arm ohne sie und ihre Arbeit
Menschen verdienen Bewunderung und keine Verachtung
Diese Menschen verdienen Dialoge und keine Ausgrenzung
Diese Menschen verdienen Unterstützung und keine gegen sie
Diese Menschen sind vor allem Menschen ... machen sehr viel richtig
und manches falsch ... deshalb sind sie Menschen
und Ehre den Menschen welche sich mit IHREM NAMEN F Ü R eine
Sache einsetzen von welcher letztendlich WIR ALLE profitieren.
nov: there exist a long tradition of painted water lilies ... some
years ago I photographed them in the Berliner Tiergarten. and here
is the interpretation of the photography as painting in oil on canvas
nov: CAAAAN´T BELIEVE IT
found some changes in my face ... my skin looks different ... and
a lot more
I did some research in the internet and guess what is written there:
FACE CHANGED BECAUSE I BECAME OLDER *CAAAAN´T BELIEVE IT*
neeeeeeed to call Madonna and talk with her about HOW TO LOOK YOUNG
just a joke ... I am getting older ... and I have to accept the
fact, that my face starts to look different ... *hhhhmmmmpppffffff*
nov: *** HAPPY BIRTHDAY ROSA <3 <3 <3 Rosa belongs to the
most important persons for me. from the very first moment Rosa believed
in me ... gave me jobs and did feed me in my most difficult first
years in Berlin *THANK YOU FOR EEEEEEVERYTHING * I LOVE YOU ROSA
<3 <3 <3 wish you a wooooonderful day and see you later*
I have some presents for you :*
nov: I remember when I asked Brian what that ´thanksgiving´
is about ... but somehow I forgot his answer :( ... whatever: **
Happy Thanksgiving to Everyone **
nov: <3 HAPPY THANKSGIVING <3
am thankful, that I was part of Brian´s life for some years.
I am thankful for many wonderful moments full of endless happiness.
I am thankful for all the lessons Brian teached me.
I am thankful for Brian´s love.
know how many people suffer today, because they have to ´celebrate´
Thanksgiving without Brian. my thoughts are with you <3
nov: did you ever hear about THE SHIP BREAKERS OF BANGLADESH !!!???
I would name them "slaves of our world"
world needs HELP !!! * Happy 1st advent *
nov: *** I save the world ***
I am little child I want to save this world ... it started with
the animals of the forrest where I grew up ... later I dreamed about
the save the animals of the whole world.
then when I started with school, I tried to help those kids who
needed help ... later I dreamed about to help all kids around the
always I tried to help people as much as possible ... today I dream
about to help all people and animals on that planet.
more I look at this world, the bigger and more cruel this world
becomes ... meanwhile I feel helpless with my dream to help.
sometimes I dream myself away ... far far away into the universe
... an attempt to escape from that world. but when I open my eyes
and look on the streets and in the internet, then I am back again
... back in that world which needs H E L P !
can´t save the world ... and that fact makes me very very
dec: 1st december *** World AIDS Day *** LOVE <3 to Klaus Nomi,
Freddie Mercury, ... and all friends who died and still life with
that terrible disease
dec: <3 <3 <3 Happy Birthday to You Brian <3 <3 <3
oh, yes and it´s Britney´s b-day too =D
I have a present for you:
is a place in my heart which belongs to you ... 4ever
love you <3
dec: ^^ celebrating the deads ^^
all know that, when birthdays of dead people got celebrated, such
as 250th birthday of Mozart, 80th birthday of Elvis, ...
didn´t know all those people and somehow it felt weird to
me ... to celebrate a birthday of someone who died
with Brian it is the first time, that I did know him ... his life
and his work. Brian died on 5th june this year and today it is his
... his 34th birthday
is the first time, that I feel and realize, that it makes sense
to celebrate someone´s birthday ... even he is dead: because
in our memories he is alive.
it feels good to celebrate Brian´s birthday <3
thought a lot about Brian´s mom too ... how she might feel
today ... my thoughts are especially with you too Carlene <3
and of course Brian´s dad Todd <3 I would like to thank
you for your son which brought that much joy in that many lifes
... Brian-Tennessee Claflin inspired all of us and we will never
stop to celebrate his birthday <3
dec: ^^ Patrick der Besserwisser ^^
das schreibt so ziemlich JEDER falsch und es tut einfach jedesmal
nur weh! ... vor allem wenn man es non-stop bei "Profi-Schreibern"
falsch geschrieben sieht.
z.B.: seiT 10 Jahren lebe ich in Berlin
und ihr seiD alle wunderbar
okokok: klar, mache ich auch viele Rechtschreiberfehler, ABER ich
bezeichne mich ja auch nicht als "Redakteur", "Schriftsteller",
das mußte jetzt mal raus *ggrmmmpppfff*
dec: OH ^^ btw. °° HO HO HO °° soon there will be
you buy presents:
SUPPORT YOUR FAVORITE ARTISTS
aaaaaaalllllll need your support^^
dec: das muß jetzt doch auch mal erwähnt werden: also
diese Frauke Ludowig kommt so süß und sympathisch auf
facebook rüber ... sie lächelt immer so freundlich ...
und sie verschenkt die ganze Zeit irgendwelche Sachen über
welche sich viele Menschen freuen :) rischtisch zum Verlieben diese
Frauke <3 :*
dec: today I cooked some fresh pollack with a loooot of potatoes
=P I LOOOOVE TO EAT ... since I stopped smoking ... I mean: that´s
the price of a big box Marlboro on the plate ^^ I need to reward
myself for being sober*
dec: ^^ live/work space in Berlin ^^ needed for one of the most
talented tattoo artists I know: Jose ... pls contact him when you
dec: ^^ I HAVE MY OWN STYLE ^^ *WWHHHOOUUUIIII* I would say "JACKPOT"
dec: detail of the (not finished) big painting "Barack Obama
in Berlin" ... today I painted Mr. President Obama´s
face ... it looks more like the face of a boxing fighter ... I think
his job has a lot in common with a boxer/fighter ... the painting
is not finshed yet ... a lot of details are missing ... and YES!
I am 100 % pro Barack Obama
detail of the (not finished) big painting "Barack Obama in
Berlin" ... today I painted Mr. President Obama´s face
... it looks more like the face of a boxing fighter ... I think
his job has a lot in common with a boxer/fighter ... the painting
is not finshed yet ... a lot of details are missing ... and YES!
I am 100 % pro Barack Obama
dec: Patrick´s monologues:
ME WHO IS PAINTING THE GLAMOROUS YEARS OF BERLIN"
IN OIL ON CANVAS*
are you thaaaat much obsessed with that!?
has been the time of my life"
and to paint it ... this is my way to say *Thank You*
left Berlin 3 times in the past 10 years ... I have been always
here ... I have been everywhere ... Berlin has been the best place
in the whole world to me ... I love Berlin and its Glamour :* <3
okokok then go on with your plan and paint as much as possible from
your 130 000 photographies which you took in that city!"
dec: oh, it´s already the season ^^ highlights of the year
make it short:
my highlights 2014:
every saturday Open Studio with YOU <3
o every sunday at F3000 with YOU <3
o celebrating my 40th birthday on 16th january =D
o meeting Muay Thai Legend BUAKAW =D
o creating more than 120 paintings in oil on canvas
o *äääööhhhmmm* being addicted to fb* LOVE
YOU ALL <3
dec: okokok to be fair: I just watched the documentary about the
"greatest architect alive": FRANK GEHRY
I love the idea about how he is creating his work and yes, of course
I know many of his buildings. they are special and have a kind of
that "THING" in Abu Dhabi doesn´t belong to my favorite
works ... perhaps the project has been too big for Frank Gehry.
... I would be interested what Coop Himmelblau would have created
there, which are to me the "greatest architects alive".
dec: Patrick´s saturday night full moon thoughts:
7 years the body is brandnew and every 7 years a new phase of life
happens: from newborn till 7 (first steps) ...
from age 7 till 14 (school) ...
from age 14 till 21 (puberty) ...
from age 21 till 28 (Vienna,...) ...
from age 28 till 35 (the sober years) ...
from age 35 till now (party years in Berlin) ...
I will reach the age 41 ... close to 42 ... ... I can feel the end
of a 7 years phase and I am able to feel already the pre-shadows
of a NEW 7 years phase in my life
am already excited about it ... and I hope and think, that it will
be about "being a painter"
HAPPY FULL MOON TO EVERYONE :* <3
dec: some weeks ago I asked my friend from Mosul/Iraq : "how
is that possible what is happening there right now!?"
his simple answer: " WHEN MEN DON´T GET STOPPED, THEN
THEY DO WHATEVER THEY WANT. "
dec: just watched a documentary about JEFF KOONS at ARTE TV... and
yes, I got inspired
realized that my warm-up period should be over at the end of 2014:
in 2015 I need to put more seriousness, accuracy and professionalism
into my work ... <= *patam* *patam* *patam* aaaaand here I have
them: my goals for 2015
aaaaaand be prepared: many years ago (okokok about 18 years ago)
my first love said to me "do you know why I love you!?"
I answered "no ..."
he said "when you dream about something, then you make it reality!"
... till today this is one of the most wonderful compliments I ever
will be my third year of intense painting in oil on canvas
dec: WOW ^^ WHAT A ZIRKUSnight =D can´t wait for P H A N T
A S T I C Gloria Viagra <3 ... aaaaand one of my MOST FAVORITE
DJ´s Dickey Doo :* ... aaaand AWESOME MELLI MAGIC <3 ...
aaaaand lovely Bork <3 ... the HOTSEXY barkeepers =P ... aaaaand
all our loooooved guests <3 ...oooooh and I may host T H A T
EVENT =D see ya on saturday <3 :*
dec: someone X: *hmmmm* who are those weird people which listen
to classic music on youtube? and bring them millions of views
IT´S ME! IT´S ME! I am one of them =D
dec: the last days of Mr. Klaus Wowereit as mayor of Berlin ...
it makes me kind of sad :( ... was he THE reason, that I moved to
Berlin that much fast ... about 10 years ago. :) and as you all
know already: and now I paint those years in oil on canvas (I do
that also for you Klaus*) ... that those years will be in humans
memory FOREVER <3 I LOVE YOU KLAUS <3 see you on wednesday*
dec: zu David Berger :
mal ihr David Berger Hasser und HassbotschaftenSchreiber: SEID IHR
DENN JETZT ALLE KOMPLETT DURCHGEKNALLT !!! ???
was von LIEBE gehört!? Ihr würdet David wohl am liebsten
aus Deutschland verbannen wenn ihr könntet, um in glücklicher
Gemeinsamkeit der "Deutschen Queeren Idee" gedient zu
haben. Mir kommt das Kotzen bei eurem Gehabe!
hat eine andere Vergangenheit als die meisten von uns, aber ist
er deshalb ein "schlechter" Schwuler !? Antwort: NEIN
! ... auch ich habe während meiner ganzen Schulzeit mein Schwulsein
verleugnet um keine die Fresse zu bekommen und schikaniert zu werden
... bin ich deshalb ein "schlechter" Schwuler, weil ich
nicht loud and proud "Ich bin Schwul!" von mir gegeben
habe. Antwort: NEIN !
schreit alle nach Akzeptanz und wisst offensichtlich nicht im Ansatz
was es bedeutet dieses Wort selbst zu leben! Mit Liebe und Gefühl
erreicht man Menschen. Reicht David die Hand wenn ihr der Meinung
seid, daß er Hilfe in so manch queeren Angelegenheiten benötigt!
ABER "NEIN!" ihr hängt euch alle zusammen und haut
schön drauf ... jajaja in der Gruppe ist man ja noch stärker
und es fühlt sich ja auch noch gut an! JÄMMERLICH SEID
IHR DIE NICHTS ANDERES KÖNNEN ALS OPFER ZU SUCHEN UND DARAUF
und ich liebe euch alle trotzdem, weil ihr meine Familie seid und
es offenbar zur Zeit nicht anders wisst und/oder könnt.
Liebe ist der Schlüssel zu Menschen und zum Ziel <3